Aurora James - POV
I squinted my eyes as I opened them to the sun shining bright outside my window. I felt an unknown feeling of zeal within me as I closed my eyes, pulled the silk blanket around my body, and turned around as I hugged the warm pillow. "Aurora?" Lily called, which made a frown form on my face.
"I am trying to sleep. Let me sleep, Lily." I retorted.
I snuggled closer to it and took a deep breath when a smile formed on my face. The pillow smelt just like Zander, and I loved it. Wait! Zander!
I don't remember having silk blankets and warm pillows in my room. My eyes opened wide as I looked at the toned body in front of me.
What the hell happened last night?
I moved my leg when I felt a sharp pain from my core while I felt a cold shiver run down my spine. Shit! I lost my virginity last night, and I don't think I remember what happened. I looked up when I saw Zander's face.
I tried to remember what happened after the dinner last night when everything came flooding into my mind. Zander and I completed part of our mating bond. I gently picked up the silk blanket and looked down to see that I was very much naked underneath it, and so was Zander.
"How could you do this to us, Lily? You know that Beta Perez still hates us?" I scolded my wolf as I felt the anger bubbling within me.
"You know mated wolves cannot control themselves in a full moon, Aurora."
"That is not an excuse! You should have known better."
"But Beta Perez's wolf wants us, Aurora. And I know that Beta Perez would come around soon too." she insisted, but I was already livid with what happened last night, I was not in a state to speak to her, so I blocked her as I looked at Zander again.
I prayed that he was still sleeping, but his eyes were wide open, and he was staring at me with a blank look. I know I shouldn't use my power, but I desperately wanted to know what he was thinking right now, so I calmed myself as I felt the energy flow within me when I was able to access Zander's mind, but eerily there was a barrier preventing me from reading his thoughts.
You will only mate with your fated mate if you have any sort of feelings for her, so a small part within me was still clinging to the hope that Zander does have feelings for me. "Zander, about last night…"
"Why are you still here, Aurora?" he asked me, which made me raise an eyebrow at him.
"I…I don't understand."
"You got what you wanted, and usually, when I wake up, I don't like seeing the woman I slept with, right next to me." he spat out as I felt my heart clench in agony.
He indirectly called me a slut, and I felt my throat burn while my eyes clouded with tears. No one would have dared call their mate a slut. It is the worst kind of insult you could throw at your mate.
A sarcastic smile appeared on my face as I took in a deep breath to calm myself. "You know, if you would have killed me, I would have happily died, Zander. But indirectly calling me a slut?"
"There is nothing wrong in that, Aurora. I still had control of my wolf, but you threw yourself at me and ruined it. But that's all right, I think we have both got our fill right now. And this will never happen again." every word that left his mouth was like a sword that pierced my heart.
I got up and sat against the headboard as I pulled the blanket to cover my chest. "I thought you would feel the bond that is between us, but I was a fool, Beta Perez," I said in a monotone as I glared at him. "By the time you realize this, it will be too late." with those words, I quickly got up from the bed, wore the torn fabrics of my clothes, and rushed out of the room as the tears flowed down my cheeks.
I thought last night would have changed his perspective of me, and that he might have felt the bond just as strongly as how I felt it. But I was wrong. I don't think there is any use in trying to fix a broken man. This would only hurt me in the process, and nothing good would come out of this.
I walked out of the house and ran to the pack house. As I walked inside, I thanked my stars that no one was in there as I rushed to my room. I don't think I can take any more humiliation right now. As I locked my room door, I removed my clothes and walked into the bathroom.
I could still smell his scent on my body as I walked into the shower, changed the temperature to hot, and walked inside. The hot water burned my skin, making it turn into an angry red, but I didn't care. I looked down at the drain as it washed away the dried blood that was on my thigh.
The memories of last night filled my mind as I silently cried and fell to the floor.
They say that the moon goddess never makes a mistake twice, but I guess she had done that in my case. I lost my virginity, and I was also humiliated by him. I don't think there is any hope in our bond anymore.
The moment I find him alone, I am going to reject him and free myself from this heartbreak. "But we will not have a mate, and you know that would make us weak," Lily whined.
"It's better being weak than having to suffer this every single day," I told her as I scrubbed my body to get rid of his scent.