I curse anyone that's have real envy and jealous to living without happiness.
My magnum opus of course because of my father, the man who full of love and inspiriting me to love each other. But my mom it's envier person who wouldn't like anyone except her become to better than her, I don't know she's gender but she always to like enjoying herself to be better than anyone, my mother kind of like narcissus and she so proud if her-side too greatest than anyone. But my father is the first one to collect much of knowledge in this world, my father it's like a God, but he's totally human, like Nietzsche too hoping for ubermensch existence, it might be I have to read a book of Spinoza.
If there's a life after this, it would be lovely if I become a girl into be a woman, because I remember my father hoping me born as a woman. And my mom it's envy if I become too great than her, she always say to me, if I become too smarter than her, "Sudah gosok gigi Emil?" because my mom, Dokter Rezki Khainidar, it's the true person of narcissus in this world, and I understand why she told me to brush my teeth if I become too smart than her, and because she's the real Sengkuni or the follower of Sengkuni, too easier to me to defeat her, yes, because I'm between of Kresna or Balarama.
My mother name's Dokter Rezki Khainidar, who playing the fire in her character, she's too arrogant in soul but playing semi-humble in externals. She totally playing the fire, and I would be sure because of her, the Fufufafa it's become to darkside.
I have to walk again, to looking to wisdom of me, I don't like to be a smart, but I have to enjoying myself alone, because if I say the curse to Dokter Rezki Khainidar, it will be the curse to every doctor. It will greatest thanks too Eka Kurniawan and all of my brotherhood, who guarding me, including my father who become to be my best friend, all of many my father, because of it, sumando in Minangkabau it's like abu di ateh tungku because in Minangkabau every woman—in this reality—it have legality to having many husbands.
It because my father it's too honestly, become to real human with the real attitude and real talking about. And my mother, named Rezki Khainidar, it's another side of my father.
And I know why Rocky Gerung said the woman could be the dangerous creature, because of that in this Minangkabau the all of woman imaging like universe, so the woman called uni, and in Japan uni can be oni, and oni it's mean evil. That's why I create a net-movie in YouTube, Welcome to Gonjong: Tanduk dan Kematian or because I'm not so remember of this title, that's why just typing by my memories, and I'm on waiting for my scout in this December from Docs by the Sea, and much of my friends talk to me for being forgetting my past.
I would like to walking to my friend, Bung Kholilullah coffee-shop, I remember he write to don't push to work hard and enjoy the coffee by the first, but it's too long ago before Justobeli created, and why I say no one in this world say thankfull to me for my act, because they all change my idea and my mind to be the moneys that I have to pay, I don't want to believe this bad part, they all kind of like the betrayal student to the real teacher.
And I have to coming back to my past, ask the Anggun C. Sasmi, why I have to being a philosopher and I have to ask the Kate Winslet Sastrowardoyo, why I don't have to be a philosopher. I know in the right time I will meet again with both of them.
If Anggun C. Sasmi singing a song about me, the titled is Mimpi, ".. wajah putih pucat pasi, tergores luka di hati, matamu membuka kisah, kasih asmara yang telah ternoda.."
If you're not a bank employee, it's not good for you to thinking about money, that's will make you painful in your heart and your mind. If you're not a bank employee, it's be so best for you to being the next generation of Mohammad Hatta and doing the corporations, like team or crew, because Sjahrir and Mohammad Hatta and Tan Malaka knowing best of Minangkabau principle in gotong royong or teamworks, because my father said, "Kita tidak butuh Superman, kita butuh Superteam."