On a thurday night, 11.03 pm, im sitting on the sofa calmly and quietly, at the same time Eric Christian is playing at the back, i love his songs. I take a sip from my wine and then i hear my husbands voice. "Honey, you want anything to snack?" he is saying. "No, thanks honey there is no need to eat after 7 PM. " im answering . After a while he entered the room saying "Love, you remember how obsessed you were with me? There was nothing you wouldn't do for me. ". Of course he doesnt know that thats not i wouldn't do, actually ıts there is nothing i didint do. I was scared to say those thing, maybe he would Run away from me if i say those. "Right honey, and it the same form than to this day, the thing that stops me that i have you." i said and then laugh. Later he said "Amelia, i need to say You something important actually, you need to know it." I was kinda scared, i just stayed silent and waited him to say the thing. "I cheated on you.". I was shocked, i only asked, "from when?". "From the day we married." he said. I felt miserible and asked "With who?" i asked With anger. I was feeling hate to him after the thing he said. "Sandra." he said. I just stayed silent for a while and then i stand up...
There was a song that playing in my head:
I'm A Fool To Want You
I'm a fool to want you
I'm a fool to want you
To want a love that can't be true
A love that's there for others too
I'm a fool to hold you
Such a fool to hold you
To seek a kiss not mine alone
To share a kiss the Devil has known
Time and time again I said I'd leave you
Time and time again I went away
But then would come the time when I would need you
And once again these words I'd have to say
I'm a fool to want you
Pity me, I need you
I know it's wrong, it must be wrong
But right or wrong I can't get along
Without you
Time and time again I said I'd leave you
Time and time again I went away
But then would come the time when I would need you
And once again these words I'd have to say
Take me back, I love you
Pity me, I need you
I know it's wrong, it must be wrong
But right or wrong I can't get along
Without you
Frank Sinatra