It's Wednesday, I don't have class today. But we had agreed to meet Alex and Joseph, we were going to go shopping. It was 10:05 in the morning, I had a good sleep and was rested. We were going to meet at 12:30. I got up to start getting ready and went straight to the bathroom. I turned on the water and took my clothes off while waiting for it to heat up. When the water heated up, my phone started ringing as I was about to take a shower. I picked up my phone and looked at who was calling, it was my older brother David.
- Hey, did something happen?
- Yes, something happened Amelia...
- What's the problem, did something happen to someone?
- Yes, it did, I know you're out of town right now but our father Andre is very sick. I'm in the hospital right now and the doctors say there's not much that can be done. I wanted to call you and let you know.
- Okay, which hospital are you in?
- We're at the .... Hospital.
- Okay, I'll be there around 14-15 today, I'll be on my way now.
I was devastated, I was really upset. I couldn't cry because of the shock, I just stood there. I was lost in the room that was getting hot with the sound of the water running behind me and the steam in the room for about 10 minutes. When I realized this, I immediately got in the shower. After taking a very quick shower, I called Alex
-Alex, I can't come today, I'm sorry.
-Why, did something happen? Are you okay, you don't sound very well.
-My brother just called, my father is very sick and in the hospital. They said there was nothing they could do about his condition. I'm going to see my father.
-Amelia, I'm really upset. I get well soon. Please let me know if there's a problem. Don't let my mind be on you.
-Okay, I'll call if there's anything.
After saying that, I hung up the phone, got dressed and left the house. I went to the car and turned on the navigation. ...It showed 5.30 to the hospital. I set off immediately. My stomach was growling in the back while I was driving. I hadn't eaten anything since noon. I was hoping to have breakfast this morning but unfortunately it didn't happen.
5.40 hours later
I finally made it to the hospital. I was very hungry and my head was spinning from hunger. I also needed to drink water but I ignored these and asked the patient registration department about my father. It was on the 3rd floor and the elevators were out of order. I didn't care and went up the stairs 3 floors. I was out of breath but I went straight to my father's room without stopping for two seconds. My mother, my brother and a few of my father's relatives were there too. When I entered the room, everyone turned to me. After greeting everyone one by one, I went to my father, he was sleeping. After my brother gave me a come-hither gesture, we went out of the room with him.
-Are you okay?
-I'm okay, why did you ask?
-You look very pale. Your lips are chapped, the only color has changed to white and you look like you're having trouble breathing.
-I haven't eaten anything since yesterday afternoon, I'm a little hungry, that's why.
-Why haven't you eaten anything? Come downstairs, there's the hospital cafeteria, let's get you something to eat from there.
-No need, I'm not bad right now. I don't want to leave my father's side.
-Why are you talking so much nonsense right now? If my father was awake and saw the state you're in, he would get out of bed, put you to bed instead of him and call the doctor! You look terrible.
-(I just stayed silent)
Afterwards, my brother and I went down to the cafeteria and he got me a few things to eat. And a coffee for yourself.
-Did you have class today? You came like this...
-I didn't have any today, I was going to meet my friends.
-I see
My brother said and took a sip of his coffee. I could easily tell from his facial expression and eyes that he was just as devastated as I was. I knew very well why my brother was so upset. My father and I were not on good terms, he did not like my father but my father loved him very much. My father could not please my brother and make him love him no matter what he did. However, my brother understood now why we should not be so strict with people. The saying that you understand when you lose something completely fits my brother's current situation.
I cannot say that my father and I were on good terms either. The exact opposite of what happened with my brother was true for me. My father never loved me, never saw me as his child. For him, being a girl was an unforgivable mistake. No matter what I did, he could not please me, he always complained that I was born a girl and said that he would not make a man out of me. However, I loved my father very much. The thing that upset me the most right now was that my father would turn a blind eye to life without seeing that he truly loved me. But as I mentioned, I had also started to suffer the consequences of my own actions. Therefore, I did not have the luxury or the right to complain. I would suffer that pain, I would live that pain. Whether I wanted it or not.
My brother and I were lost in thought when my phone rang. When I picked up the phone, I saw that it was Alex.
- Hey, how are you? Are you okay?
- Well, my father was sleeping, I could only see him. Unfortunately, I didn't have the chance to talk.
- What did he look like?
- He didn't look very good. He was pale and it was obvious that he was having difficulty breathing.
- Are you okay?
- I'm fine, I went down to eat with my brother now.
- I'm glad, call me if there is a problem.
After that, the phone I closed it.
2 hours later
Only me and my brother were standing in my father's room. Everyone else had gone back home. I was surprised that my mother had left, but my brother said that things weren't going well between them lately. Still, I found it strange that my mother didn't care that much. There were probably other things going on between them. Without asking any more questions, I turned to my father. My father had woken up.
-Dad? Are you okay, why did you wake up? Did we make too much noise?
-You, yes.
-I apologize.
After saying that, he went back to sleep. My brother:
-I can't understand why he treats you like this.
-I don't know either.
-More than that, I can't understand how you never give up and try to make yourself loved.
-What else can I do? Should I hate him too?
-Yes? First of all, what you did shows your disrespect for yourself and your lack of self-confidence. It's the same in other matters.
-What are you trying to say?
-What I'm trying to say is that if someone doesn't love you, you want them to change their mind and love you back. On top of that, you're wearing yourself out, making them use you, just so they can love you. What will you get out of loving you, Amelia?
- (I chose to remain silent)
- You don't know the answer either. No, or rather, you do. Nothing.
Through the eyes of his father Andre
A day before, Tuesday
I woke up in the morning, when I looked next to me, my wife wasn't there. I sat up and called out to my wife Sandy. There was no sound, I was starting to worry. I got out of bed and left the room and walked towards the kitchen. She was sitting at the kitchen table, looking at me. I was worried, did something happen?
-My love, are you okay?
-I'm not Andre, I'm not.
-What happened? Did someone upset you, did you experience an incident?
- Yes, someone upset me.
-Who, my love? Tell me, everything will be solved.
-You.
- Me? (I was in a terrible state at that moment, was there a chance that he had learned or noticed?)
-Yes, you.
-What did I do, my love, I apologize. If you tell me the problem, I can explain myself.
-Why did you do such things?
-What kind of things did I do? (Yes, he understood. He had to learn eventually. All I had to do was deny it until the end and ask him to believe me.)
-You know what you did. (He pointed to the refrigerator)
-What's in the refrigerator? (He found it eventually, I was caught.)
-Don't play the fool, why and whose are they?
-You know who they all are.
-What?
-I know you cheated on me. Why do you think they don't call you back?
-Are you kidding me? If you knew, why didn't you break up with me, you chose to do this?
-That's also my fault.
-I married the most unusual and most psychopathic person I've ever seen. I can't believe it.
-But weren't the years we spent beautiful?
-After learning this, no. It wasn't beautiful.
-(I was devastated, I think I was going to cry.)
-I married a murderer, you're going to kill me too!
- no- (I collapsed to the ground with the sudden pain in my chest. I don't remember the rest