1 week later
Alex and I had started to get closer this past week. I trusted her and I really felt a little bad and guilty for thinking such things about her. But there was nothing to be done, everyone has to live what they deserve in the end. What you deserve is determined by your own actions and I knew very, very well what I was doing. I felt comfortable killing someone because it was fair, because the universe would not send me to someone unless they did something that I had to kill them for, they had to have done something or things to deserve it. Since I have this mentality, I do not feel bad when I plan a murder or carry out this plan and I do not feel guilty after I do it. As for Alex, I think she did something bad but then changed her mind because she did something to make up for it. When I get closer, I have many things and thoughts that I will try to learn from her. I am sure she also has thoughts and topics that she wants to learn from me. So I do not feel bad about this either, after all, everything has a price in this life.
Everything Through Alex's Eyes
Two weeks ago
I had gotten into law school because of my parents' pressure and I had to go because I got in. Frankly, it wasn't a department I really wanted. I wanted to study animation but when your mother is an engineer and your father is a doctor, you have to do it this way unfortunately.
Today was the first day of law school and I was going to university to take my first classes, I wasn't very excited or eager. Because of my parents, all my future dreams and future happiness had completely slipped away from me and had now passed into the hands of my mother and father. I woke up in the morning, got up and washed my face and decided to get a widow. As soon as I got into the shower, under that hot water, all my anger had gone out of my mind and I found myself crying on the floor of the shower cabin. I wasn't happy with my current situation at all. I was very angry with my mother and father, I was even more angry with myself than I was with them, I had thrown away all my dreams and happiness in order to make them happy by following their words. What had changed? Every year I did the same thing, I promised myself that I wouldn't sacrifice myself for my mother's happiness and said "It won't be like that this year." Nothing had changed, as always I had obeyed their word, I hadn't expressed my own wishes and stood behind them. I had no self-respect or love left. If I had hated myself, gone and cut myself and committed suicide at this point, it would have been appropriate.
After crying in the shower for a while longer, I came to my senses and remembered that I had to go back to university and stood up. I took a shower, dried my hair after doing my skin and hair care. Finally, I got dressed and started doing my make-up.
About 40 minutes later I arrived at the faculty. I entered my classroom, there were only two people sitting in the classroom. One of them was a woman with black hair, dark brown eyes and pale skin, beautiful facial features, and an upright posture, it would have been rude to call her a girl. Next to her was a man with blonde hair, green eyes, lively skin and an incredibly attractive vibe, and that man was looking at me, without taking his eyes off me and giving me all his focus. After greeting both of them, I went to the line in front of the girl and introduced myself, "I'm Alex!" Their names were Amelia and Joseph, I've never seen a person who matched their names so much in my life and who was the exact reflection of their names.
Later in the day, Joseph and Amelia were constantly together and Joseph really caught my attention, I found him incredibly attractive. However, there was only one problem, Amelia had the same thoughts and feelings about Joseph, it was so obvious, it was impossible to deny. From the moment I realized this, I thought there would be a competition between Amelia and me, and I saw Amelia as my rival. I guess law school wouldn't be as bad as I thought, I mean the worst years of my life, especially with such a naive and stupid girl by my side and her eyes on something that was mine.
As the days passed, I got closer to Amelia. The girl was so naive that she accepted my offer to drop me off at school on the second day we met. I was going to exploit this girl to the last drop, then exploit her and make her regret being born and coming to this faculty. I had such plans, how I was going to manipulate her, what kind of response she would give, everything that could come to mind was completely in my mind and ready. It just needed time. Of course, I was going to completely eliminate the possibility of Josep liking Amelia. After all, the sensitive person, or the person who plays the role, is always right in every way and Amelia was definitely not a sensitive girl, on the contrary, she had a completely healthy psychology. This was something I wanted and would suit me...
At all the times taht pased, i make Joseph think that Amelia is not a good person. How did i do that? Let me explain it to you: i never lie about the things that she said. I just manipulated Joseph to think Amelia's sayings and actions are have much more other meanings in it and acyed like i was really upset about it. Did it worked? Yes, it definetly worked. Because he was actually likes from Amelia at the begining. But now i dont thing so, after the thing that i manipulated him to believe and think. The next step for me is going to manipulate him to like me. I have a plan for that too...