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Chapter 4 - Chapter 4: Breaking the Ice:

In the weeks that followed these incidents, John wound up embracing aspects of Emma's life that

he never could have imagined. What had begun as mere curiosity had meta morphed into

something else – a strange urge to meet her and to find out what made her so unmoved or

unconcerned by the trivial things he had devoted most of his life to. Every time he wanted to

come up with a new reason to meet her, he felt both his usual self and a new kind of anxiety. He

didn't go looking for people generally and definitely not a woman who had no interest in his

riches or royal status. And yet, you know he couldn't stay away.

These meetings began quite harmlessly. John took Emma to a couple of SnowCorp events

informing her that her organization could stand to gain either through partnering with some of

his influential guests. Emma had tried to refuse, her slightly delayed response indicating just how

much she wanted to avoid him at first she looked at him suspiciously. But in a kind of steady

determination, he persuaded her and there was something about him that was both clear and yet

unsaid. These were not like the first time they'd met at the gala; these were small, more formal

affairs and yet he cared about her opinions about the people and the places that formed his life.

And this is exactly what Emma also did, despite she was initially a little shy to make herself

completely open with him. It greatly impressed her that beneath the bluff exterior and

cocksureness, John was interested in what she was doing. She began talking about her nonprofit,

the kids who found homes, the single mothers barely making a wage, and the volunteers giving

their time to help the cause. Her words described a world altogether different from his, a

hilarious and tough world where people expected little, but always strived for more.

One day, John came to her office without an invitation. It was a small shabby structure outside

the urban area with paint faded and chairs and tables of different designs moving with people. He

wanted to meet her and get some work done for SnowCorp as an excuse to see that part of the

world that she had described for so long. When he walked in Emma looked at him in a way that

indicated surprise and amusement at the same time.

'Hi John,' she said and placed her hands on her chest 'I am your...' What do I have the honor of

addressing? Now, to have a billionaire in our humble office is something worth talking about.

He gave her the sweetest boy next door smile possible it could barely even be considered sly.

Well, I thought I'd go and check where all this magic actually takes place. In addition, I was

surprised I decided to follow her favorite deli and bought lunch there, he added. She nodded and

rolled her eyes but he could still see the lust in her eyes that made her say to him, Excuse me,

and walk him into a tiny and messy-looking meeting room.

During these moments they spent sitting Emma went on with her work details with much

enthusiasm, as she was narrating they sparkled. She told stories of the families she had come

across, stories of what these families had been through, yet they find humor in the simplest

things and they find love in places most of us would not even consider. Looking at a child with

his mother in a shelter, she described her voice so touching that I could believe she was

describing herself. No matter how bad their situation might be, he would welcome her with a

smile and boast about the 'jewelry' he claimed he had picked along the streets of the city: a shiny

button left by someone, a colorful feather, a piece of ribbon. He spoke to her like a child, she

said, he taught her what was beautiful in overcoming hardship and finding value in what most

did not see.

He came into the room and started listening to her and with every word he was trying to find out

inside himself something was missing or maybe distorted. The success which he had associated

with, was nothing but power, dominance and money. But from Emma's stories, the reader saw a

different kind of fortune—a kind based on empathy, relationship, and appreciation of life's good

despite the trials it offers. He had worked all of his life to create a fortress, shielding himself

from anything that could potentially leave him exposed, but he'd found in Emma a way to tear

those walls down one by one.

They started meeting one another each day like clockwork, with every meeting or encounter,

Emma could see the real John behind the arrogant man. But there was a human being behind that

sleek attitude, fancy suit, and cocky grin: there was a man who got up early and worked his way

to the top from a grim destiny, who uses money as a shield but is terribly afraid of being

vulnerable. She finally realized that he was not being proud, it was his defense mechanism, from

his big dreams and fear of going back to what he used to be, he was scared.

They reached this conclusion after a fundraising event one evening when as usual, Emma

decided to confront John saying, "Why do you care so much about the perception that other

people have about you, Johnny?" About proving yourself?"

He looked at me for a second before a muscle worked in his jaw and he spoke. "Because once...

once I was just some kid with nothing claiming to barely get by." He hesitates for a moment

while looking at the floor. If you have that in you, if you know what it means to be unseen, then

you either let that kill you or you grow yourself to the point that they have to see you. I chose the

second option."

Emma looked at him her eyes brimming with pain at the admission. "But do I think that is really

me?" Or is it just a version of yourself that you thought you needed to turn into for whatever

reason?

John looked her way, horrified to find that Emily had said something that made quite a lot of

sense. "I really don't know anymore," he said softly, his voice stripped of most of its former

assertiveness. "I've spent so long being 'John Snow, billionaire CEO' that one part of me

wonders if there is any of the old man left in me."

Emma looked for it and touched his hand and the feeling of her fingers on his palm was

comforting, calming, just as the presence of a lifebuoy. "Perhaps it is still there, but just hidden,

you have buried it under all the many layers", she said softly. "But it's still there, John. In other

words, extremely small models can be found even if they are hard to spot like 'Who will win the

next Europa League? If you want it bad enough you will find it, you just have to be willing to dig

deep enough to find it."

He could hear her words penetrating his hardened heart, something he hadn't undergone in the

past few years. No man, woman, or child had ever dismissed him or treated him like the

individual he knew he was, beyond his money and success. Emma came into the picture and she

held out her hand for him to be changed and the light of hope in a man like that started to shine.

As the two bonded, John was gradually releasing chunks of the hard exterior that formed his

character. He went with Emma on volunteer days; he even wore his own shirt and served food,

handed out items, and interacted with people who came looking for help. It was one that he had

never encountered before; certainly, it was mortifying and sobering, but it was also satisfying in

ways for which he had previously been unable to find words. He was laughing, not to put up a

friendly face; not laughing for the sake of laughter; but laughing, as he listened to the stories of

unknown people who appeared to be happier than he had ever been.

The day they spent fishing, volunteering as they enjoyed each other's company, and then as they

took their coffee after another hectic day, Emma flashed him a look. "John, I could never

imagine you would be the sort of man that would go down dirty for something you are not

obliged to do."

He gave her a crooked smile. "Well, aren't I full of surprises?"

She chuckled, nodding. "You certainly are." Her face relaxed and she gently touched his arm and

looked straight into his eyes. But I think the greatest shock is you are authentic—no skin, no

condescension. Just you. And that is the version of yourself that I like most.

In that brief time, he was as it seemed that the rest of the world fell away, the soft touch of her

hand on his arm, the glint in her eyes that said, you're okay the way you are. He had gone

through his entire life, trying to seek the acknowledgment of people and success, creating a

business magnate, and yet there was little that he knew, like value could not be quantified and

bought through dollars and property by Emma. She was correcting his mind about the concept of

wealth, the concept, which can't be traded in the market.

And as John looked at her, he bent his heart in a way he had never envisaged before; with this

new understanding that the woman he could fall for was the woman who knew him not as the

billionaire John Walker, but as the man looking for the John he was meant to be.