He looks at Mal, looking heartbroken "I thought you said you weren't looking for a relationship."
"I guess I'm just special." I mutter under my breath. They both turn to glare at me. I shrug. I don't care if they heard. I don't care about any stupid doctor's feelings.
Anger replaces sadness on his face like a switch and he smiles bitterly. "you might be his boyfriend now, but I doubt you can last long. Do you think you know what it means to please him?"
I turn to Mal dumbfounded. "you slept with him?"
"yes he did. He fucked me so many times than I can keep track of. In his car, hotel, my house, his offi-
"Chidi shut the fuck up and get out of my house." Mal growls looking furious.
The so called Chidi turns to Mal with tender eyes. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you."
Mal stares at him menacingly. "I said GET OUT."
Chi- idiot's eyes widens. He looks shocked that Mal shouted at him. "i... You don't know what you're doing. We're the best match. Your relationship won't last. Please break up with him and come to me. Please Mal."
"don't call me that!" Mal roars. He points to the door. "get the fuck out."
He looks scared as he hurriedly walks to the door and let himself out.
I stand frozen, my eyes trained on the floor unable to think of anything else. My thoughts still going back to the words. Mal has slept with him… many times.
I know he's not a virgin. I'm not delusional. I know he must have had lots of sexual partners. But I never imagined he slept with that bastard. Like, I thought the man was just pining after him, throwing himself at Mal and Mal refusing him. I never thought Mal would even looking at him at all not to talk of fucking him.
I feel sick.
"hey T"
I turn to see Mal looking at me with trepidation. I don't even know why he looks sorry. It's not as if we are actual boyfriends. It's not at if we're fucking dating, it's not as if I'm strong enough to claim him and give the world the middle finger.
I should be the one sorry for not knowing what to do with myself. For not having courage the one time I need it the most.
"Are you alright?" he asks.
I nod. "I need to…. I need.. I need to go home." The thought that someone can easily replace me has me choking up. Replace me? I guess I'm actually delusional. How can someone replace me when I don't even have a place in his life. And it is all my fucking fault. If he goes to meet that slimy snake, it's all my fucking fault. I moved to walk past him to go grab my stuff from his bedroom but he holds me back.
"hey" he says softly as he pulls me close. "why are you upset? is it because of what he said?" he grips my nape and directs my head to face him. "I promise I haven't slept with him since the first time we had sex. I haven't been with anyone else and I don't want anyone else, I swear. It's just you T."
My chest hurts. It's hurts because it's what I want to hear, but it isn't fair to him. I'm scared of coming out to my family but I also don't want to let him go. I know I'm selfish, but it has never bothered me until now. I need to do something about this. About us.
"T?" he taps my cheek.
"yes I heard you. I.. I just want to go home." His face falls but he nods anyway and steps back.
"Okay."
"I need to think."
"I get it."
He walks to the couch and sits down, facing the television. I sigh before going into the room to grab my stuff and leave.
The moment I get home, I flopped down on my couch, clothes and all, staring unblinkingly at the light shining. Can I take this risk? Can I risk the relationship I have with my parents for this? Love? Attraction? I am so drawn to him, his aura, his presence, the way he carries himself. I don't think this is just attraction. I want him down to my core. I don't think I'll ever crave for anything or anyone as much as I crave Mal for the rest of my life.
Should I loose this feeling because my family won't approve of it? This need deep inside me.
If I were to tell them, how would I even do it. "Hey mom I'm bisexual or hey dad, I think I now like dicks." Shit. That sounds terrible.
Maybe I should just tell them through the phone, so I can't see the disappointment on their faces. No, that's horrible. We haven't even settled the outburst from the previous day. There's no way I'm going to add to the pile like that.
I bring out my phone to message my mom that I'll be coming over tomorrow. I need to do this. I need to apologise to them for the previous day to soften the news, tell them I'm bi and apologise again. It can't be that hard. I can't continue torturing myself like this.
I unlock my phone, there are several missed calls awaiting. I check, some are from my sister, her fiancé, my mom and dad and Festus. Wait. Festus. That must be important. He also dropped a message. So I checked it out instead of trying to call everyone back.
We've gotten a location.
I sit up immediately the message registers. We've gotten a location for our favourite girl. Fuck. Thank God. I quickly dial his number.
"guy, you did it?!"
"Yeah, we did it. It took some time, but I was able to pin a location."
"Thank God for that. So you're going to forward the location to me right? like now. I need to go there as soon as possible."
"yes ill- I'll do that immediately." Festus sounds a little out of breath, is the fucker working out or doing something sexual? I chuckle at the thought.
"okay. I'll leave you be." I move to hang up but stop when I hear his voice. "when are you going there? To see the family?"
"oh that. I'll go there later today." I say as I get up to go inside my bedroom to get ready. "there's no time to waste guy."
"okay. But be careful though."
I frown, why would he say that? It's not as if I'm going to fight someone. I mean I will fight there's a cause for it, otherwise, I hope this whole ordeal goes as peaceful as possible. "I will."
After I finish getting ready, I pick up my phone to check if he has sent the address. He has, I frown when I see the address. The location is at Mushin. Shit. I always prefer avoiding that place. The last time I was there, I almost got into a fight with a keke man that scratched my fucking car. Keyword; almost. The moment I saw some thugs coming out of their own keke, in support of their fellow rider, I quickly got into my car and fled. Since then, I've been avoiding that place like the plaque. I guess I don't have any option now.
I get to Mushin almost two hours later. I'm parked at the front of the huge building that is pinned on the map Festus sent me. The area is a bit busy. There are shops here and there and other huge buildings. This building though is called Gracious Services, I mean, that's what I can read from the faded sign above. What the hell is a gracious service? What do they even do here and why is the building so huge and old? I look around the place, it's kind of deserted. Do people stay here?
I get down from my car and walk towards the front door. There are dirty and dry leaves on the ground. It as if these place hasn't been maintained in years. I look around again, to see if there's anyone I can question. Nobody. No one standing around the building. No one going in or out. Okay this is creepy. I should have asked one of the passersby there before I walk to the front door.
Okay fuck this. What the hell I'm I nervous about. I'm just going to check out what's happening in there and if the family are really staying here..
I push the door open and well… there's nothing at this ground level aside broken woods, or are they furniture? I can't really tell. The place is a little dark though. The only light comes from sunlight coming through the cracked windows. I walk in, looking around. There's a half broken staircase leading up, and other dusty rooms lined up in the house. I don't think anyone stays here. It doesn't look inhabited at all. I sigh. This has just been a waste of time.
I turn to leave when a voice so raspy from probably too much cigarettes stops me cold.
"We've been waiting for you. We're do you think you're going en?" the voice mocks.
Shit.