I made it through another year without you, busier than the last one, I've come to realize that time really doesn't await, time goes by really fast. It's interesting how fast people forget. I came to realize maybe I was just a rock in your path, maybe even a stick, just a bit in your life. A lost and forgotten memory you'll never see again but only to remember me as "her".
I hope at least you remember me as a friend. Maybe that is what I wish I was in your mind. I feel like this year will be one that changes me forever, I've started to realize many things. One of the most important is the fact that I'm nothing in your life, but I don't want to treat you like a ghost. Because you were in fact one of the most important people in my life. You'll probably never know. Maybe that's what I want.
But I will try to let go, because I've become tied by you.
When I know I'm the only one. It's a one-sided love.
Yet, I always remember the times it was two-sided.
But now I will grow up without you. Because that's what you did. And now it's my turn.
Elikai and Katherine never left my side this year. Maybe that is why I couldn't write any letters last year; I hate him for that.