Hey, hey!
I hope -as always- that this finds you well.
The world has been in such a chaotic place.
Please don't let that chaos consume you.
Humanity has enough problems as is, yeah?
WE -especially here in America- have enough problems.
I will see you all on the flip side.
Enjoy!
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May 23rd, 2012.
Journal #042.
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I'm falling very deeply in love with XXXXX and...
I don't care.
I'm not afraid or shooken.
I want this.
All of it.
All of her.
She slipped past my defences and disabled me before I could even bring my sword to bare.
Amazing, my first real lost bout on this battlefield.
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I had began to fall in love with that woman.
And she knew it.
She had me in the palm of her hand.
At the end of her strings.
Beneath the heel of her boot.
You name it, and she had it, and she had it over me.
I found it hard to think clearly and function daily if I didn't get a chance to talk to or see her.
It was bad lol.
I was young, you know?
Young and looking for the "love of my life."
I was -and still am in some ways- far too quixotic for my own good.
I was still trying to fill the hole in my chest with a "new and better" heart.
A heart that wasn't composed of the twisted and cracked pieces of my old heart.
I was in so much need of love and affection...
I was quite vulnerable indeed.
Sheesh...
But man, was I fallingm and freely at that.
And at that time, I would have it no other way.
I will see you all back here soon enough, and together we will see where this all goes lol.
Mind you, my ex was STILL quite pregnant at this time lol.
Yes, we are STILL technically in that part of the story arch lmaooooo.
Y'all forgot huh?
lol It's okay!
My life was a fuckin' hot mess for the better part my 20s lol
If you have made it THIS far, listen!
I was still in my early 20's lmaoooooo
It only gets better from here.
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Right?
See you soon folks.
-Redd.