After making it in the club, I see Liv at the bar flirting, with another tall, dark, and handsome. I roll my eyes, I don't know how she does it, Livvy always chases man after man, even when she knows they're all disgusting pigs. I try to find men attractive, I used to, I used to have celebrity crushes, and smile when I saw a cute boy in school, even had a few boyfriends. But now, nothing is new and I don't flinch when something is surprising. Maybe because nothing is anymore, everyone looks the same in a blur, I can put on an act like I know that I can force a smile or some tears, or doe eyes, and I look up at you and tell it's real. But I don't feel anything....maybe something is wrong with me.
I shake the thoughts and start walking towards Liv, she's already moved on, and sipping her drink, sending flirty winks and gestures to another, but I grab her shoulder taking her attention away from whoever she's trying to do for the night. "Hey Alice, don't scare me like that," she says, "sorry" I mumble, not in the mood for this. "Find anyone yet?" I ask, "to screw duh, to sell to no," she says, looking disappointed. "Listen I need to talk to Roxanne, she's a stripper, she's got a manor and she's looking for roommates I'm going to say we're interested so can you do solo tonight?" she asked, "Yeah I can, see you later," I say, she smiles brightening up the room, "thanks love you," she says walking pass, God I hate solo.
I do what Liv tells me to do, I smile, send messages with my eyes, dance, and finally, someone presses themself on my ass, "Hey bunny looking for trouble? or a safe rabbit hole" he whispers in my ear. The kind of things men come up with these days corny or gross, I grind into him "Trouble duh" I say in a sultry voice. they'll never know I'll never fuck them. "What's your name?" I ask like I care like I'll remember, "Mark wanna dance?" "You gotta get to know me to dance with me," I say giggling, he smirks "And how do I do that bunny?" he says, "buy me a drink," I say.
he smirks. Leading me to the bar, "you like rum?" he asked, "It's my favorite" I stated smiling, "2 rums on ice" he said to Trey, who I winked at when he gave me our drinks, trey knows what we do, he thinks we're crazy for it but he loves us. Respects the hustle.
We dance a couple of rounds, and the club is alive like there's something in the air "Whatever you like" is on, and I'm smiling and his hands are sliding down to my pussy, I let him feel on my panties, "fuck" he says, he starts to dip his hands inside, when I get out of his grip, telling him I need another drink. And he wants pussy, so he does whatever I want, after the second shot of tequila, he's automictically ordering a third, oh I see trying to get me drunk. I laugh at his attempt, I'm not a lightweight. "how are you feeling bunny" he says, swaying with me, the bright lights reflecting in his light brown eyes. Every single one of the men I've screwed over is important to me I swear, just not more important than me, "I feel fucking alive" I shared, and he smiled "That's the goal"
right then, his friends strolled by, he did greetings them giving them nods, and "Hey bro" he introduced me as "bunny" and I guess James and another guy liked it because they were all calling me bunny, I smiled at the right times doing a couple more shots, when they brought up cars or something I'd play dumb and have them explain it to me, like a good little girl, I'd give them my best puppy eyes and say "mhm" and they all grinned. The bunny is sweet and innocent I gave them all the power. Just to take it all away, "I have a question bunny" Mark said, I smiled "Yeah?" I asked.
"You like drugs?" he asked, all his friends moved closer, and I waited 3 seconds to make their heads turn. "I actually sell," I said, "god your voice is for porn," said James, I giggled, Yeah I know idiot. "Wanna get outta here?" I questioned they nodded. Taking me out of the club.
I sat by Mark, and there was another girl, with black hair, Asian, petite, short 5'1 maybe, pale yellowish skin, and black lifeless eyes. She was all over James, sitting on his lap, clawing his throat, "please I know you got some coke on you baby" she weakly says, she's desperate she's what they call a whore. "shut up Mare" says James, I couldn't stop watching I think I was going to be sick, maybe I was a lightweight. "Please" she cried, my eyes ranked her bruises all down her skinny legs, James pushed her off, and she fell, I wondered if she had a family. any friends? is there no one to help this girl? I just kept looking not letting myself look away, look, pay attention. This is what happens when you give in too much when you choose drugs over anything else, Mare gets up huffing while the guys laugh at her.
she sits back in her seat. Quietly. As bad as I want to grab her hand and take her away, I know all too well that you can't save addicts. Finally, we arrive at his apartment, I sell him Xanax, and coke fake of course. He puts them into his closet, then pulls out a smaller bag of cocaine, and Mare pipes up looking the most alive I've seen her all night "I'll help you set up lines" she smiles
Soon I've got my 300, and I'm in their living room, "wanna do some lines, I like to start with 3" Says James with a devilish smirk. "No thanks," I say, "come on, you like weed?" he asks, I nod which is an understatement, I LOVE WEED. "You know, coke comes from a plant too bunny," says James.
Did you tell that stupid fun fact to Mare too? asshole. but instead, I smile, "Maybe as the night goes on" After a while, Mark is getting too touchy, and I excuse myself to the bathroom, instead I go into Mark's room. And go into his closet, stealing 6 small bags of real coke to sell, and 400 in cash, if we're going to be living in Manor we need more money, just as I'm leaving the door opens and I'm met with Mark, I mask my face "what are you doing in here?" he asked, confusion written on his face, "I was waiting for you I wanted to be alone with you" I said, making my voice dripping with lust, he licks his lips.
"fuck you make me so hard," he says, I smirk. Pulling off his jeans. and boxers discarding them on the floor and taking my top off. Unclipping my bra I put his dick in my mouth, sucking and gagging, choking on my spit, I don't ease up though I go at it heads on, hands on his thighs he thrust down my throat, and I swallow with him still in my tight mouth making my throat even tighter, he groans "fuck bunny, you take it so good" he grips my hair making me take more, and more and more. Not even allowing me to breathe.
he comes down my throat in less than a minute.
I gather my things and wipe my tears, god even without the coke I'm just like Mare I think, while telling everyone bye, and getting the fuck out of there, James pays for my cab. And I make it back to the club and find Liv, by 2 we're on the bus, and she's telling me Roxanne wants to meet with us to talk about the manor, life moves too fucking fast.