What have I been doing with my life up until this point anyways? I've been doing things that don't make me happy, assassination is fun for a time but I think I might just be going insane to cope. I keep falling deeper and deeper into depression, I harm myself and need to take meds to take away even a portion of the pain.
Why am I doing this to myself anymore? No one is forcing me, Liam and me only really started knowing each other because of this but I want to live a simple life. This wasn't what I was supposed to do in life, the only reason I kept the job was for the money but I have enough of that now.
I need to quit, my mental state can't take it anymore!
"Hey Ash, You okay?" I came back to my sense's as I heard Blake's voice break my out of my thoughts. "Yup, sorry for spacing out." I said as I started to get my mind back on track. "Its fine, well how about we exchange phone numbers and stay in touch?" I nodded my head and he handed me his phone so I could type in my number.
After that he had to go and I hurried back to Noah and the others. "Who was that?" Matthew asked as I got close. "Someone from high school." He nodded and we all got walking back to the dorms, I kept feeling glances shot at me from Noah and the rest of them.
As we arrived back at the collage campus everyone stopped walking, I stopped with them as Max pulled out his phone and searched something up. He showed it to the other boys before he looked at me. "Are you by chance Ashley Taylor?" Max asked as to my horror he showed me a photo of me when I was in middle school, even though it was kinda cropped I could still see my brother sitting beside me in the picture.
I had forgotten all about my family up until this point, as I looked at it though there was an article with this talking about my kidnapping. It read:
𝙰𝚜𝚑𝚕𝚎𝚢 𝚃𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚘𝚛, 𝚔𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚒𝚍𝚍𝚕𝚎 𝚜𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚊𝚝 3:30 𝚙𝚖. 𝚂𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚋𝚋𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚞𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚎𝚜, 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚋𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚕𝚎. 𝚆𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚑 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚎.....
The words trailed off the screen from what I could see though, I knew that my social life was going to be more ruined if more people started to notice me. It was bad enough that I was kidnapped in such a lame way but even worse that these people knew about it.
"Y-Yeah that's me..." I couldn't even force myself to stand there, my fight or flight kicked in and I went for flight. I ran so fast away from them and up the stairs that I only felt how out of breath I was when I got in my room.
My heart was beating out of my chest as I sat against my rooms door, I didn't know what to do. they know who I am, at least they don't know about my work as a assassin but this is isn't good either! What will they think about me now that they know I was kidnapped.
I scrambled to get my phone and call my 'boss' as I pulled out my phone and dialed his number my hands were shaking, did I really want to do this? Before long he picked up the phone and I heard his voice over the phone. "What is it agent?" I gathered up all my courage and went for it. "I'd like to quit my job working for you." I heard a long pause of silence over the phone. "You're one of the best assassins I have right now, but I can let you quit although first you need to do one more mission."
Dang it, of course I can't get out of this without having to do one more mission. "What's the mission?" I heard a chuckle over the phone. "The mission is going to be a long one, its a self care mission. Take care of yourself from now on, your off the hook. Enjoy your pain free life." The phone hung up, the silence rung through the room. I felt myself start to smile, the smile grew into laughter. It felt like a weight had lifted, either that or I'm actually going insane.
when my laughter subsided I went to my bed and sat down, my phone buzzed but I ignored it. Then it buzzed again, and again. I was getting irritated and checked my phone, Noah had added me a group chat with the rest of the boys to talk to me. I read through the messages most of them asking where I was and why I ran, Instead of answering everyone I just sent a text saying: 'Meet me in the collage garden after dark.'
The group chat kept blowing up but I muted it and put my phone down on the table as I sat at my desk to start my homework for my classes tomorrow. As the sun went down I walked outside and leaned up against a wall as I waited, while I was standing there I started thinking about how badass this could be. Like I got kidnapped absolute lore right here and I'm leaning on this wall that's badass as hell.
As I was thinking I saw Noah and the others walk outside, I looked over at them as I stood up straight away from the wall. "Watcha wanna know?" Of course I had to say that in my coldest hardest voice ever, bite me.
"Well for starters, why'd you run away earlier?" As Max finished speaking I choked on air, this is where my badassness must come to an end. "I was a little embarrassed that's all." AHHHHHH END ME NOW, NOW I LOOK WEAKER. "Ok, so what was it like being kidnapped?" Thanks Noah, such a question calls for my eternal ego to make a come back. I know I can make this story sound super cool.
"Well it was interesting, a lot happened I don't really know where to start. There was a lot of painful stuff I gotta admit, but I did prevail. No amount of pain could make me back down, of course I was a little scared of stuff but it was ok in the end. But I did get education during this time period so it was a plus, things weren't all that bad."
What in the world am I saying?! That doesn't sound cool at all! I did leave out all of the SA accounts but that's totally irrelevant right now, I feel like such a failure. Someone end me already!
"Kinda feels like your skipping details but that's fine for now, although if its not that bad then why did you harm yourself before? And the pain meds, what's all that about?" REALLY NOAH?! HAD TO POINT ALL THAT OUT DIDN'T YOU.
"O-oh you know, just some things happen. Little oopsies here and there." How was I even supposed to respond to that? I'm dying inside.
"Uh, okay then." As Noah finished his sentence Max jumped in to say something. "So Ash, how many people know about your past?" This is actually a more normal question. "You guys, my boyfriend and a few others." Max nodded, we all stood there and stared at each other in silence. No one could think of something else to say right now. "How about your family? Do you know where to find them?" Noah asked in a softer tone then the rest of his questions.
"No, but I plan to find them. I nearly forgot about my family until I saw that news article you showed me earlier." I thoughts trailed off as the words left my mouth, I checked the time on my phone, it was getting close to 6:00 pm. In about 30 minutes is the time I usually use to call Liam, I needed to hurry up and get back to my room.
"Hey guys, I need to go back to the dorms." I said as I slowly started to walk away, but Noah called out to me. "Wait! One more thing" I turned around and looked at him as he took a deep breath. "You said there was some painful stuff, you wanna elaborate on that?" I kinda just froze while I thought of something reasonable to say. "Well, when I get to know you better I might elaborate for now though I got to go."
After that I left without another word from them or me, when I got into my dorm I fixed my hair and set up my computer so I could call with Liam. After I got things set up I sat down and waited for it to turn 6:30 then I called Liam, we stayed on call for a few hours till it was about 11:00 pm.
I had classes tomorrow so I needed to go to bed, I got settled in my bed to go to sleep. I was just starting to get warmed up when I heard a loud bang, oh great now what. I knew that my roommate was out with some boy tonight so what on earth could that bang be?
I hopped up out of bed and walked to the door, someone instantly launched in at me. Before I had time to react I was shoved up against a wall, I felt the cold metal of a gun up against my head as the masked person closed the door with their foot.
I heard a low voice coming from them. "Don't move or I'll shoot, and don't make a sound and I'll take my hand off your mouth." I slowly nodded my head as they backed away from me, this person was clearly a man but I had no clue who the hell it was. Normally I can remember people's scents and how they smell but he smelt different from everyone I knew, they kept their gun pointed at me as the looked around the room watching me from the corner of their eye as they looked.
"This is a robbery, I expect you to corporate. Or else things might get a little messy." I don't have enough stuff right now for this, and if I get robbed how would I ever be able to replace everything? I just quit my high paying job, I can't do this robbery crap right now. I narrowed my eyes and lunched myself full speed at the masked person and quickly unarmed them then I sat on them to keep them in place as I aimed the gun at their head.
"You made a grave mistake trying to rob from me, I think its about time that you leave my room." The man slowly started to laugh, first it was a chuckled but then branched into a full on laugh. He was practically out of breath and still laughing, as he caught his breath and stopped laughing he pushed me off from on top of him like I weighed nothing. "Still sharp as ever I see." He said as he took off his ski mask revealing that it was actually Blake.
"Blake?! What in the hell?!" He sat up and leaned against my bed. "You sure pack a punch, well ever since I saw you today I got a little curious. I leaned about what work you've been doing a long time ago when you entered into high school everyone knew you were a assassin, I wasn't sure if you were still in the job or not. But I can see that you're quite well versed, although I could beat you easy in a fight I wanted to see how good you were first."
"I quit my assassin job earlier but wait, how did you find out where I was going to collage?" Blake sat back and looked at me. "I'm an information broker now, I can get info on anyone and everyone easy." I nodded my head and after we talked a bit more Blake left my room and I gave him his gun back as he walked off, it was a strange night but I knew I needed to go to sleep and so I curled back into bed and went to sleep for the night.