After about a week I had to leave and go back for school, Liam promised to be in town more so we could plan our wedding together. I headed back to the collage dorms and went up to my room, Lizzy wasn't in the room right now so I decided to hurry up and unpack everything I had brought with me. I threw my stuff into the rooms washing machine before kicking back and relaxing, I started to scroll through some wedding stuff to see some inspiration for my own.
I wasn't sure what Liam had in mind yet for the wedding but I didn't really want to have it too big, just something small. Although I can do anything Liam wants to do, I looked down at my ring knowing that soon I'd be married to the most wonderful man ever. Honestly if it wasn't for Liam I might not even be alive or worse back at that mansion still, I'm thankful for him to say the least but over all I hope I never lose him...
I stared at the celling for awhile after those thoughts with my mind empty as can be, I figured that I might just be unstable and have attachment issues but as long as I never lose Liam I'll stay alive.
I sat up in my bed and walked out and around the campus for fun, I was hoping I wouldn't run into Noah right now. I just needed a minute to myself without him around, I walked around the whole campus and went back inside only to run into Noah and the gang. What a pain in the rear, I tilted my head down hoping they wouldn't see me with my hat on. I made it past them with the feeling of success!
But it was short lived when I heard my name mentioned in their conversation. "Yeah, Ash seriously never wants to hang out. And she has a boyfriend, jeez I hope they break up." As I heard them speaking I walked out a little ways then went down a hall to stand and listen.
"Yeah and don't you have a crush on her too Noah?" I kept listening in, for some reason I was interested in what they had to say. "Yeah, but I think she also avoids us a lot." As I kept listening in I felt someone tap me on the shoulder, it startled me as I quickly turned around. It was Lizzy?! What was she doing here?
"So Ash, I noticed you weren't in the room so I came to find you. I was wondering if you had any birth control I could borrow? Mine is coming in the mail late, oh and if you have extra pads too that'd be nice." She looked a little nervous about asking but I could only really help her out with one of those.
"I don't have any birth control but I do have pads, lets go back to the room and I can give you some." We walked back up to our room together but she seemed a little distracted the whole way up. "Something on your mind?" I asked as I opened the door to our room.
"Eh, no not at all." We walked in and I handed her some extra pads and she thanked me. "Can We talk a bit? I'd kinda like to become friends if you wouldn't mind." This came as a total shocker, she never wanted to talk me before about anything. "Yeah sure!" We sat down on her bed and talked a bit, turns out she had a lot more to her life then one night stands.
She even said that she wasn't a big fan of one night stands but she did them to cover up the pain she felt after she left her abusive household, she said that she was starting to get scared of getting pregnant though. Most of her partners didn't use protection and now she was scared she might get pregnant.
But other then that she was actually a pretty chill person, as we talked we started talking about my up coming wedding happening sometime in the future. I decided that if it was going to be more then family at the wedding I'd invite her, it was starting to get late so I went to my side of the room and took a shower in the bathroom.
After I got out I did my workouts and went out of the bathroom and sat at my bed, I looked at my phone and saw no notifications which was a bit weird since I'd usually see something from Liam but I guess not right now. I scrolled through Pinterest since there was nothing better to do, I sent Liam a text asking about how many people he wanted at the wedding and how he wanted it to be.
It was nearly 12:00 am so I set my alarm and went to sleep, the next morning I woke up with my alarm and got dressed and fixed my hair. I then grabbed my backpack and headed out towards my first class, I went and took my seat, since I was here 10 minutes early I checked my phone to see if I got anything back from Liam.
I got a message from him saying that he wants it to be friends and family as long as I'm comfortable with it, I told him that I was comfortable with it and put down my phone to see Noah and the others standing in front of me.
"Where'd you go for the summer?" Noah asked. "I just went to go and find my family that's all." Noah looked a bit more interested now. "Did you find them?" I nodded my head in response. "Yeah, they're all pretty nice." Noah leaned in across my desk. "Why'd you blow me off before you left?" Noah asked as I shrugged. "Nothing was for sure yet so I didn't really wanna say anything about it." Noah stood up straight seeing as class was about to start. "Fair enough." He went and took his seat as the professor entered the room.
We all took our notes and did art work that day, when lunch time came I was more exhausted then usual. I took a seat and pulled out my lunch, I then proceeded to down a 5 hour energy before eating. This was pretty normal for me though since I normally don't sleep much due to a bit of insomnia, I had been getting better though as far as it goes with the pain pills and stuff.
Just as I was peacefully enjoying my lunch the annoying gang showed up, Noah slid into a chair next to me. "Are you avoiding us or something?" Noah asked as he put his food on the table. "What if I am?" Noah's face dropped a little. "Why would you be ignoring us though?" He asked looking a bit down cast.
"Its nothing personal, I'm just working through some personal stuff right now." Noah nodded and ate in silence for the rest of the lunch period. After lunch I went back to my room, all my classes were over for the day so I decided to go back and try to get some drawing and what not done.
Lizzy was still in her classes since hers started later then mine so I had the whole room to myself, I started drawing a bit then I got a text from Liam regrading the guest list and venue options, catering etc. I looked through everything and sent him my opinions on everything, he said that he'd pay for everything since I quit my job and he owned a company plus some of the money from the other job.
After I put down my phone I continued drawing, a couple hours later Lizzy came back. She looked absolutely stoned. "Omg are you okay?!" I asked rushing over to her. "Yesh I'm fin." She stubbled a little as I brought her over to her bed.
"Why'd you get drunk?!" She slowly fell back on the bed. "I got sime terble news tedey." Before I could further question her she just passed out, I moved her around into a better sleeping position and pulled the blanket over her. I went back to my desk and checked my phone before doing some homework, about a hour after all that had happened I went into the bathroom and showered. I dried my hair with a towel and brushed it out before leaving the campus to go meet up with Liam to discus the rest of our plans.
I hoped that Lizzy was okay but I already made plans and I needed to be there for them, I showed up at the agreed upon restaurant. As we got seated we instantly got to talking about the wedding and everything, we first started talking about the venue then talked about the cake, food, theme and guests.
We kept talking even after our food was served, we wanted to make sure everything was absolutely perfect! Once most of the planning was done we settled on getting married on February 2nd, which was a few months away that way we'd have time to get ready for it.
We thought it might be best to hire a wedding planner to make things easier on us, so Liam was going to make the calls and get things in order while I agreed to hand write and draw out invitation letters for the wedding. Since things we're settled we enjoyed the rest of our dinner and each others company, Liam paid for the food as always even though I said I would when we arrived but he didn't want me to.
We left the restaurant and Liam gave me a kiss goodbye and I went back to the campus, when I got back to the campus I hurried back to my room to check in on Lizzy. "Lizzy are you okay?" I said as I opened the door, she was sat up on her bed peacefully looking at her phone.
"Yeah I'm okay, its just this..." She was holding something in her hand so I walked over to see it was a positive pregnancy test. "You're pregnant?!" She nodded slowly. "Yes... I don't know what to do though! I don't wanna kill the baby, well not anymore anyways. But I don't know how to raise a kid, I'm not ready yet!" I didn't really know what to tell her on this one to be honest.
"Do you know who the dad is?" She sighed. "No, I've had so many stands I have no clue. But I only have 9 months till this baby is born and I don't have any clue what to do! Please c'mon you got to help me out." I didn't have to help her out at all, in fact I really didn't care but for some reason I figured that I should just help. "I don't know what to do for that, maybe try going to a pregnancy center for some classes and baby stuff."
She looked over at her bed stand and grabbed her phone. "Let me look one up and seen if there's anything close by then." She looked up pregnancy centers that were in the area and looked through the results, her hands were shaking. I knew she had to have been scared with everything happening right now, we continued looking through options and solutions as the night went on. I was starting to get tired so I told her good night and that we could look more into it tomorrow but I needed to sleep.
I went to bed and feel asleep, my mind drifting into a dream, a nightmare some might say. My family slid off a cliff slowly after being stabbed in the stomach one by one by a masked man, when he turned towards me he slowly cut into my skin. Leaving scars, he slowly chopped up Liam before shoving his body off the cliff too. My vision filled with blood, the sights draining me. I jumped awake before the dream could go on any more.