I instinctively rejected his request for friendship as I thought he was actually going to confess to me which when I found out to be not true turned out to be a relief for me.
I looked at his face which had kind of turned pale, and thought why did he even want to be my friend?
It might be true that I kind of saved him and he probably expects that it will be a happy ending in which we become friends but I had no interest in being his friend even though I might have mistakenly rejected his request, I had no reason to correct it.
"Sorry"
He once again apologized to me and started to run away with teary eyes, if someone looked at this situation they might think I was the one who was bullying him.
I became depressed when I thought about what might happen now, I should have probably put it nicely that I don't want to be his friend, I wish I had some kind of time-travelling power.
That brat would probably go home while crying and his sister would probably ask him whether he is bullied and why he is crying.
He would tell either that I am bullying him cause of resentment towards me which is better as I could have an alibi of a sort.
I mean what kind of bully saves his victim but if he tells the truth then it would become troublesome.
His sister would probably go talk to the old man and then he would scold me and I would be forced to become his friend which I totally don't want to do.
It might be that he doesn't tell anyone which is the best option but I am skeptical about that as I believe humans generally like to run their mouths.
But becoming his friend is some kind of joke, it's true that I helped him but that is not because I wanted to save him but because I despised those kinds of people who bring suffering to their children or people close to them.
I am not some kind of selfless saint or a hero who goes around saving people in need, I am just a selfish person who puts his interest first and if helping someone somehow hurts me, I wouldn't help that person at all.
And just because he is a victim of domestic violence doesn't give him the right to bully someone, I always wondered why he always tried to bully me with his gang, is it peer pressure or did it bring enjoyment?
But now I have realized that it was probably because he was jealous of me and his feeling of inferiority.
He might be jealous of why I am able to take everything without any change in my expression.
It might be true he is just a kid but that doesn't change his mistake, just because I am like how I am-indifferent in nature, it might be because I am more mature than him because it's my 2nd life.
No, I doubt that, If it was someone other than me would he or she be so carefree after taking all of the malicious intent of the entire village?
The truth of the matter is that only the victim has the right to forgive the culprit and other people are just a nuisance in my eyes if they force the victim to forgive the culprit.
I still remember in my old world I had a friend who was bullied by his classmate when he was a kindergarten student.
He got trauma because of it. After he grew up they joined the same college and he refused to even look at her.
They had joined the same major which is a freaky coincidence, That girl apologized to him after she recognized him but he still refused to forgive her.
His parents, friends, and even colleagues said to him to forgive her and that she was just a kid.
It had been a lot of time since then, and she didn't mean it, They called him immature and selfish when he refused to forgive her.
I mean the reason why people apologize isn't to make the victim feel better but it's because they want to lift off their guilt and make themself better.
It's true that sometimes forgiving someone might elevate or bring relief to your trauma as after you forgive them you let go of your pain at least a little bit.
But that doesn't mean it's given for you to forgive them, in my eyes whether it's a child or an adult, no one has the right to ask for forgiveness, only the victim has the right to forgive them.
At the end of the day, whether or not to forgive is a choice only you can make, and not wanting to forgive doesn't make you a bad person.
Instead of forcing yourself to forgive when those feelings aren't coming naturally, you can choose another method of coming to terms with trauma.
My viewpoint would probably not be accepted into society as I would be called immature, rude, and even heartless but at the end of the day you live for yourself so if you don't hurt anyone or break any laws, it doesn't matter how you live.
In the end, I am not so nice to care about other people's emotions, whether they are crying or sad because of my rejection.
I am someone who can't forget so I can't forgive.
Later when I reached home I got to know that his sister wanted to meet me, I avoided her as much as I could but after a long time I finally met her.
Ofcourse, that is a story for another time.