as everything drifts away
dripping water drops, the ticking of a clock
everything was abrupt; my life went black
my mind, body, and soul became heavy; I couldn't even pick up my purse
I thought living was a reward, but it feels like a lifelong curse
I just woke up one day
and realized that the things I thought would stay
are slowly drifting away because of what I've become
I drown in guilt and shame; in darkness, I succumb
I can't find my way; I am lost in the sand
I can't reach the ocean; I am stuck in a pond
I began losing every gorgeous thing that I had gained
including myself, that I lose over and over again