fueling the fire
(I am the problem)
echoing voices, sounds of papers
amidst the chaotic room, we're silent in the corner
stuck in the sea of questions, locked in our own thoughts
quietly waiting for the time to pass as our world distorts
I'm getting insane; I can't uncrumple my mind
all these unexplainable fears I chose to throw behind
are slowly crawling into me and crashing all that I have
I can't even unzip my voice, terrified to lose all that I love
I've been hating myself as you always try to reach out
I made myself believe that I always make things go south
I'm afraid you'd free my hand, but I can't even tighten my grip
as I am tied to what my past has given me—things that pushed me off the cliff