"Love can flourish only as long as it is free and spontaneous; it tends to be killed by the thought of duty. To say that it is your duty to love so-and-so is the surest way to cause you to hate him of her."
Bertrand Russell
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"Seems like we are getting closer to the borders, we should look for an inn." Says sir Hassan.
"No do not worry yourself, I have a manor in this area. We will sleep there for the night, it's a simple summer house." I am tired, we have been in the car for more then five hours without a break, The coachman stops the car as we arrive at the manor.
"We have eight rooms but would like to perhaps stay with me tonight?" I ask, even though I know that he won't agree. It take a long painful time before he responds back.
"I think it is best for the both of us to stay apart for a few weeks," he takes my hand and his, as he squeezes it lightly, "But once we are ready, we could try again" he let's go of my hand, and gets out the carriage.
I stay for further minutes in the car to get myself back together after his rejection, and I step out of the carriage.
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After our dinner, most of them went to their chambers and the minister of economics stayed to talk more with me. We were in my office with glasses of brandy and a lot to evacuate.
"I think I will retire," He sips his beverage and at the window, "All the effort you are putting right now to get us and the Caujanese back together, he will destroy it all once we get back by declaribg the war." He massages his temples.
"I know, this us the reason why I'm doing all of that. I want to make a coup d'état and get back what is rightfully mine." I put my glass to my lips.
He cough loudly and stares at me with big eyes.
"Your highness..."
"I am to be twenty two in less than a month and the throne is still not mine. The council and the king regent seem to always find the perfect excuse to let me wait for it more," I explain, "But as you can see, I'm done with this bullshit."
"This is why I'm going to ask you to choose your side carefully, the next year will be the last of our current government. The council and the king regent will be arrested for various types of crimes as well the corrupt aristocrat's and ministers." I continue and I can see him begging to sweat a lot.
"Therefore, I advise you, dear mister. To take care of your little secrets now and follow me, before you are judge for your disgusting actions.Also don't you dare try to inform anyone, because if you do know that I have experimented spies and henchman all across the empire and even further. Am I making myself clear? " He nods, trembling almost choking as I sent a wave of pheromones to make him know his place.
It's at this moment that sir Hassan enters the room and let's the minister run outs of it. I stand up confused of seeing him now and he seems to be too. But can't help my self and let my eyes dance across his handsome body, his shirt open for me to ravish with my eyes his delicious abs.
"Are you ok," I ask him, "Shouldn't you be asleep?"
"I smelt your pheromones for up there and confused me, you are not the type of alpha who carelessly and for no reason let's out his pheromones, so I was confused. I wanted to check if you were alright." He approaches me and hugs me, "I always asked myself if you were really an alpha because even when you are angry you refrain yourself from letting any pheromones out, you have so much self control. We as knights have learned how to do so too, but we're did you learn that? " He whisper in my ear, I can feel myself blush.
" Humm, can you let go please, I have to sleep. "I mumble in is arms. He kisses my head and let's go of me. Letting an confused Alexander, not closing his eyes for the entire night.
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" You look awful your majesty, I presume you didn't last night? Do you have trouble sleeping, these days? " Asks doctor Morlon as she checks my stomach.
"No, it's because of the trip I guess." I turn my head in the opposite direction from her and sir Hassan who were both in the room.
"Should I prescribe you something?" I shake my head as a response and she sighs,"Like I said last time, we should wait a few more weeks for you to start doing anything just to be sure." She says, cleaning my belly and arranging her stuff into her bag. She then gets out to go take her breakfast downstairs. Letting sir Hassan and me, alone in the room.
" I know that it is going to sound weird but could cuddle with me please? "I turn back to look at him, he smile and lays down on the bed. He take le into his arms, I do the same around his waist and put my head on his neck take his pheromones.
We stay in that position for some time until Lorel knoks on the door letting us know that the carriage were ready.