"Getting married is easy, having sex is easier, but finding someone who can stimulate your mind and make love to your soul, that is rare." — Habeeb Akande
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"What?" He asks rhetorically, he gets up and opens a little box near the table against the The bay window overlooking the large garden and the lake of the house. He takes out a cigar and cuts the tip of it.
He comes back to his seat with a smile on his face.
I roll my eyes as he lifts up his cigar.
"What do you mean by 'what', you can't be condescending with him or at least fake it" I grumble.
"Oh no, I'm not a hypocrite like your family. Despite the royal family, you know damn well what they did to us, how they treated my wife and your father, and how disgusting their behavior was toward us."
"It's not true, you know, it was only the aristocracy, the queen and some close friends of the emperor. The emperor and his son have never once been disrespectful toward my father nor the omega's of the family."
"Come on, they are all the same. Matter of fact , remember, the last ball that all attended to. We were what, Seventeen something like that, remember what happened?" He Asked me with an ironic smile on his face, I didn't want to respond and ignored him.
"Our parents, my mom and your dad were simply thrown out of it. Under which reign was it? The late emperor! This discrimination the upper class has toward foreigners and especially omega cannot be denied. We have to face it and tell ourselves that it is how it has always been and always will be, so I'm sorry if I'm not like the new rest of the family. You guys are little dogs used by the aristocracy, always faithful to them until one day when we won't be useful to them, they will get rid of us. "He smirks at the end of his monologue. I sigh and walk out of the room to find the prince.
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I sit, scribble some words down, look at the nonsense I wrote then rip the paper.
I put my head in my hand and breath heavily, I feel exhausted from the trip, the constant headaches and stress. I'm trying to not break down but I don't know how much longer I will be able to support all of this pressure.
Once we return to the palace I will have to deal with the king regent, the absurdities of the council and the complaints of my poor mother.
And on top of that, in less than a month they will perform a life threatening intervention on my body, have to endure horrible heats and bear a child from a man who doesn't even love me.
Great.
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"I am sorry to bother you, baroness." I enter the library and the woman straightens in her chair. I wanted answers and honest ones from someone who was an omega, to know how it felt to be a parent.
The baroness smiles at me and puts her book on the table in front of her.
"No, no worries. How may I help you, your highness?" I sit in the chair across from her and look her straight in the eyes. Her smile did not falter and she showed genuine care.
"I wanted to ask some questions about omegas and relationships, how you handle your role of mother and baroness. I want to know how you are able to deal with all the pressure it comes with to be a good parent for your children." She seems surprised at first but she responds almost immediately.
"My husband and I weren't expecting triplets, at first we were not happy about the fact that I was pregnant. At the time, my parents and us were not on good terms and even if we were married, the position of omega was not well received by the aristocracy. Normally, the omegas are considered to be slaves in my country and most of the time domestics. People from aristocracy didn't marry omega or if they did they would be either their second or third spouse. "She explains, I look at her unconscious movement as she turns her ring on her finger. In my empire, omega are also looked upon, treated badly. Especially male omegas. This kind of discrimination wasn't as apparent as it was during my father's reign but with our current king regent it would be stupid to think that he would care about them.
"Before you continue, can you tell me about the heat, how does it feel?" I know how it felt, but heat was an all different level for omegas. And Dr. Molon said that she would trigger a sort of heat increase to increase the chance of a successful fertilization of my eggs.
" Well, during heat you have the urge to feel close to your partner or your mate, to... You know what. During this period, we are really vulnerable and the presence of your mate is recommended. In short, it's almost the same as being in rut but with the urge of being filled and knotted. " I feel butterflies in my stomach as continued her explanation, my mind went wild as I imagined sir Hassan touching is a very sensual way. She must have noticed my blushing face cause she grinned at me.
"There is no need to be shy, we went through all of that and it's truly a beautiful moment that gives a lot of memories to cherish." She laughs, "The heat can last a week as we all know and what your mate will want from you is proximity. They will want to feel close to you in a really intimate way and they will feel the urge to make you submit to them.''I don't see myself submitting to anyone, even to Sir Hassan. I might let go of some restraint to keep my dignity during heat, but I'll never submit to anyone.