He asked me if I had a boyfriend to which I said that I was single because I don't know why. He kept on pressuring me but I kept on saying that I needed time. After I was done with my work at 3 in the morning he and his friends dropped me off at home. I don't know what happened to me but I knew that I didn't love P and was just staying with him out of spite. It wasn't fair for him so I broke up with him. The next day I was working and U popped up and again started forcing me to date him and I agreed. We went out but I didn't text him much since I thought that he was busy. He tried breaking up with me for that and I didn't want that so I tried pursuing him again. We were happy and I would go at his place to sleep. Once I told him that I wouldn't be able to make it since I had a family event but actually I was going to do some illegal stuffs. Like drugs with guys I barely knew.
He found out about it and made a whole scene but I was at fault so I didn't say anything. He picked me up and took me back to his place and when I tried leaving the next day he warned me that if I left then he would break up with me. I stayed. After convincing him for a while he let me go but under a certain condition that I would come back at his place in the evening. I agreed. I went back home and was faced with questionings from my sister. I lied to her and told her that I worked at a 24/7 covineince store. She bought it for a while but then eventually I had to tell the truth.
I even told her about U and she wanted me to break up with him since he was even older than my eldest sister. I didn't want to but she said that she had experience with these type of guys and their toxicness. I didn't listen, she told me to come back home that night and I did. She gently tried to explain things to me and that I was really good looking and I would find guys who are 10 times better than him. It was the first time my sister had ever complimented me but I didn't want to listen to her. She said she could set me up with her other good friends. But I kept on saying that I wanted him and she just gave me time to break up with him and leave my work. She offered to help me pay my college fees. She said that she would drop out of college and she would work to pay my college bills and she won't brag about it like my relatives (Still makes me tear up whenever I think about it). But my dumbass did the opposite and fought with her instead.
I chose a guy I barely met over the person who knew me my whole life. When I told U about the fight he took her side and scolded me. He never took my side whatever the situation maybe. My sister didn't talk to me from then. U would treat me really well at first but then he began doing questionable things. He said that he hated everything about me except for the fact that I was beautiful. He would constantly force me to quit my job which I was really starting to like. Forced me to have sex with him every night even on days when I had extremely bad cramps. Once I rejected him and the guy threw me out of bed in the middle of a freezing winter. I wanted to leave but he warned me if I did that then he would break up with me. The next day when I finally gave in he said that it wasn't that hard now, was it? And started treating me better.
He didn't even use protection and when I asked him to do that he told me to buy it for him if I had that much problem. He would want constant sex but never bought me pills. I had to buy them for myself. He once stirred shit between me and one of my colleague who lived with us at that time and the karaoke owner which almost led us to lose our job. He soon went abroad to work and even during those last moments he didn't spend it with me and made excuses to not meet me. I was depressed at the time I met him and the guy made me even more depressed. He would get mad at me if I talked to another guy but would watch his and his ex's videos a million times right in front of my eyes.
I stuck with him until the end. I would cry most of the days when he wasn't here, even at my work. He would rarely respond to my texts which would immensely hurt me but I still understood him thinking that he might be busy. But whenever I tried calling him, he would be on another call and that's when I realized that it wasn't about lack of time but it was lack of priority for me in his life. I was starting to give up but still held on to the little hope that he would soon learn to cherish me. During that moment I found a fling. He was supportive and kept saying that he loved me even if I had a boyfriend. He said that he would wait for me.
I truly believed him but it was all a lie since he would bring hickeys on his neck.
He dated my colleague and when I questioned him he denied it, obviously lying about it. He was just using me for money that I gave him because he said he was desperately in need for it. But all of it changed that particular day.