It became a regular thing for me and T to get wasted at M's bar. M and I started getting closer since he matched my energy and we could go on texting each other for hours without getting bored. We would hangout almost every day. Sometimes we would go up there and other times he would come to the karaoke. Once me and T got drunk in his bar again and I was really drunk. But the thing with me is that I get sober very quickly. I was sobering up when this rapper (who is fairly popular) started grabbing me and asking me to have sex with him. He asked for my number and I gave him the karaoke owner's number.
He even took my fb account but I rejected the request later on. When I was resting my head on M's shoulder, he suggested that M should grope me. I pretended to fall asleep but I was listening to them. M and J, who was his own little brother, just laughed it off. But when he was gone the two of them talked with each other saying how disrespectful that was. I slept with T and when I woke up I was all alone. I didn't find T with me and suddenly I panicked thinking that I was raped. I think I sort of experienced it but would it be called rape if my boyfriend was the one who did it. Once I got drunk and by the time I got sober he was on top of me and he was even done. When I asked him about it the next day he refused doing anything to me but when I told him that I was sober he then smiled slyly and told me the truth.
I was sure that something like that had happened to me again so I thoroughly checked my body and found nothing wrong. J had left early since he had classes and M was sleeping on the couch. I was so grateful that he didn't try to do anything funny. On that same day, I went to meet my mom and then, me and T left for our home. I couldn't sleep and when I finally did I couldn't wake up from the hangover. I told T that I was sick and wouldn't be able to make it. She said that she would tell the karaoke owner and so I went back to sleeping. When I woke up it was around 11 and I was getting really bored. M texted me and he said that he would join me. The two of us went for a walk.
He was really comfortable to talk to and I even told him about how I did not love my boyfriend anymore and that I didn't want to stay with him anymore. He suggested that I should not stay with him anymore if I fell out of love with him. It made sense and I broke up with my then boyfriend. He accused me of cheating but eventually accepted it. I was happily single now and flirted with a lot of people. One of them was the karaoke owner's close friend B. B told me that he loved me even though he was 11 years older than me and had a sugar mommy. I told him that I was just 17 and couldn't be with him but he still didn't back off. I even led him on purpose sometimes. I didn't had the intention to flirt with M but since we became close it naturally showed up. Even the cab driver who would drop us home every night started saying that he loved me.
One day I got really bored so I asked M out on a date for fun. He got really excited so we went out on a date. It went nicely and we talked a lot. We talked about his ex and the traumas she gave him and a lot of other things. My three karaoke buddies suspected that we were dating but at that time we were just in a situationship. He once asked me to spend the night at his place and I went with him. He lived with two of his elder sisters. I wanted to back off but he said that they were chill so I went with him. We slept separately and he didn't do anything funny which I was really grateful for. After that we started acting like a real couple. We would hold hands, I hugged him goodbye everytime he left and I would spend the night at his place sometimes or maybe regularly.
I once dared him to kiss me on purpose while texting because I knew how shy he was but the guy did really kiss me and I was okay with it because he didn't force the kiss on me like B. I wanted us to become a couple but at the same time I didn't want it because I didn't wanted to ruin what was between us. After a while, I didn't even care about our status even though everyone kept asking about it. I was happy with our unofficial relationship and wasn't looking for anything serious. But we had to talk about it eventually. He liked me and I liked him too so I asked him what was stopping us. He replied saying that he knew that I didn't want anything serious because of the trauma caused by my ex (even though he had no idea about it). He was waiting for me to get ready for a serious relationship. That was the sweetest thing anyone could have said to me. After sometime I was ready and I told him about it and he said that he needed some time to propose to me. He wanted to mentally prepare himself. I said I could do it if he wasn't prepared but he wanted to do it. I waited for him to propose from that day onwards.