A suddenly stopped talking to me. I didn't know why but whenever I tried talking to her she would reply awkwardly or with small replies. It kept going on for a few days, I couldn't take it anymore and I texted her. I asked her if anything was wrong and she asked me if I had really heard those rumors by myself or if someone else told me about it. I couldn't keep the act anymore so I told her the truth. She was mad at me for not being honest with her. She was hurt that I had chosen my boyfriend over her. I tried telling her that that was not it and I just didn't want to create problem for him. I didn't want to break his trust and then she replied with what about hers and how I could break her trust.
I had no answer for that. I tried apologizing but she didn't reply to my messages so I went at her home and apologized to her but she didn't forgive me. I gave her sometime to think about it and after a few days when I called her she said that I was annoying her. I stopped from there. A and my another friend Z stopped talking to me. A had a valid reason but I didn't know what was wrong with Z. Things became insanely awkward and Z kept on being petty which honestly hurt. I didn't say anything but I kept on skipping or either bunking my classes. I did it so many times that it almost felt normal like breathing. I did get caught eventually and that's when my uncle scolded me for acting weirdly. I was in the mid of listening to his scoldings when his wife (my aunt) looked at me carefully and began.
She asked me if I was eating or not. That I wasn't probably eating and I had lost so much weight. My cheeks had lost its volume and my face had become really thin. My uncle looked at me carefully and maybe he noticed it too because he stopped with his scolding and literally chased me to eat. I told him that I would eat but instead of eating I went back to my room. My uncle followed me and nagged me to eat. I refused so he brought me the food. I ate it and went to bed with tears. The only thought in my mind was that, if only they showed me this kind of affection earlier I wouldn't have turned out this way. But I couldn't blame them too since it was my decision.
K asked me why I was not talking to A and Z anymore and why were they constantly giving him weird looks. I told him everything and that was when his first red flag showed up which I should've noticed but I didn't. He got really angry and asked me if it was his turn to make problem and if the trouble created by me was not enough. He did say a couple of horrible things that I can't even remember anymore. I did get hurt but I thought that it was completely my fault so I kept on begging him to forgive me. I didn't want to lose him. I had already unintentionally lost two friends, I didn't want to lose another one too. I begged and begged him until he seemed little less angry. He did apologize to me and that was it. My hurt didn't matter infront of his apologies. I was just happy that we made up.
Things became worse and worse both at my home and school. At my home, I broke my aunt's cupboard and everybody was angry at me because they thought I stole their money. It wasn't their fault though because I lost their trust many years ago. My aunt scolded me all the time but I was still happy because at least she wasn't giving me the cold shoulder. During one of my family events, which obviously I wasn't invited to, my family gossiped non stop about me. My brother came to tell me that my sister wished me dead. I didn't like that. He also told me that they were planning to throw me out of the house after my exams. I wanted to go outside for a while but my brother begged me not to do it but I reassured him that I'll come back after a hour and if I didn't then he can call me. My brother called me the minute I got out of my house and kept on calling me. He even waited late till I came back home. My another brother brought me lemon juice that he had picked up from the event and kept it in my room because he knew that I wasn't doing well.
I wasn't, I was on sleeping pills most of the time and if I didn't get my meds on time then I wouldn't be able to sleep. After a few days my exams were over and I moved in with my friend's family. They gladly accepted me. I got a job as a housekeeper which I eventually left because it was way too tough. My uncle forced me to come back home. And so did my elder sister who had come back from college on break. She would call me multiple times during my work. I never saw her face since I would sneak in my house at night. She would bring me my favorite foods and keep it in my room. She would come in my room to check on me early in the morning to which I paid no heed to her.
She was trying to mend broken bonds but my ego got the better of me and I didn't give her a chance at all. Once I was at my work when suddenly I received a friend request from someone and the moment I accepted it a message popped up in my dms.