It was on my brother's 13th birthday that I met him for the first time. At that time he was much smaller than me. It was the first time that I met my fiance. I didn't know why but I guess I fell for him then and there.
I forgot the feelings I had when I finally saw his face back then. He who ignored me the whole time managed to take my heart.
"Hello Young Master Ceaser..." I said.
And he just gave me that cold glare instead and left. By now I'm used to it. If you say the Duke is a cold person no one would believe it. To everyone he's the hero who has helped win countless of wars, a knight loved by all, kind and always answer with a smile. That's who my husband is to everyone.... Everyone except me.
Ever since that day i studied hard and learnt every etiquettes. I even studied foreign subjects to impress him i guess he never saw it.
6 years ago the Crown Prince announced his love for Jesseline on the founding day celebration of the Empire. Defeating my husband in the arena in front of everyone, he declared his love. My husband foolishly smiled and wished them a happy life. I guess he saw the look of horror on Jesseline when he almost killed the Crown Prince. He realised then and there he never stood a chance. And i, I who came for him never got to meet him.
A year after that was our marriage. Have you ever seen a wedding where the bride didn't wear a white dress? If you haven't you should've come to my wedding. We were married in the home office. I signed my name on a piece of paper and then I became the Duchess.
I wished I also had a grand wedding just like Jesseline. Her marriage to the Crown Prince was celebrated for 3 days. The white gown she wore, the flowers she held i wished I had that too. I could only clap and look at the most beautiful bride in this Empire walked down the aisle. Just like my husband did next to me.
You could see his sadness and longing that day. He never took his eyes off her even though his wife was next to him. Later that day he shut himself in his room and never came out.
I had to manage everything again. For days i did his work and when he finally came out not even a word of thanks came out. I guess I deserved it. I got in the way of his love.
Perhaps the reason he hates me so much was because of those rumours. Those baseless rumours that spread when we were all but students. Apparently I bullied Jesseline and made her life miserable. How can I when I never interact with her.
I heard I dumped water on her head when she was taking a nap under the tree. But how can I when I was just there by the window and she was already wet when I saw her. I guess someone else did that and i just happened to be caught at the right time.
I heard i pushed her down the stairs but how can I when she was the one who fell on top of me. Hey, my husband, did you believe all of these? I guess you did. I never tried to come clean. Everyone likes pointing their fingers at someone else.
Right now it's already night time. Today's just another day of painful memories again. I wished I died with my father. I wished I never loved you.