The sun shined on his long silver hair,  tied in a low pony tail with a blue ribbon. I haven't seen him taken off that ribbon all these times that I've been here. It was a nice day today and I guess he decided to go take a walk in the garden. A garden that I was never allowed to enter. The white lilies were blooming so well under the sun. And he just bent down and caressed one with the most gentle touch I've ever seen. To think that such a small flower would recieve such a tender touch from him even before his own wife it was laughable.

Perhaps the reason was that those flowers were once the favourite of his love. Jesseline Anders, a girl i met at a party a long time ago had the exact same hair colour, white as snow. She was the exact opposite of me. Pure, kind and innocent loved by all. Her smile lit up anyone near her, my husband being one of them.

Why is it that I couldn't be like her? People loathed me for my appearance. Black hair, white skin and black eyes as dull as a rock. Everywhere I go why is it that I get compared with her ? Some say I look like a ghost. Other says i don't deserve my husband. I know i don't deserve him and yet I'm still married to him.

Should I ask for a divorce? But where will I go. A woman from a doomed family and a wife neglected by her husband, that's who I am. I don't know anything I'm not special. When I was a just a little girl, I've only been taught to become a dutiful wife, a respectable Duchess. Politics, economics, history i learnt it all and yet i wasn't the one for him.

I became the dutiful Duchess, I did my duty and work, i managed the house when he isn't here, i helped with the development of this Empire and yet why does everyone hated me. Is it because I appear cold? Ladies ran away when I approached them, the gentlemen diverted their eyes. What was it that I did wrong? Perhaps is it because I don't smile? But there's nothing to smile about. Is it my body? I heard people think I'm too overweight should I go on a diet?

Ah he came out. Our eyes met and just like usual i smiled at him and he gave me his glare. It seems he cried once again. Of course he would why won't he after Jesseline left him for the Crown Prince. My husband, the most respectable Duke and the strongest knight by the Emperor's side lost to the Crown Prince. They've been friends since childhood I heard, all three of them. Perhaps to my husband I'm just an outsider. From a young age my husband hid his feelings for Jesseline, it's pitiful that she went to the Crown Prince after everything he did for her.

Jesseline grew up at the Church. A priestess, she was and now the Crown Princess of the Veon Empire. A girl blessed by the Goddess of light, she faced many hardships and my husband was always there by her side. Did you know? my husband almost died trying to find a cure when you were dying from poison. He wouldn't sleep and wouldn't eat. I, who he hates the most, had to be the one by his side. How cruel are you Jesseline to leave such a man behind.

Although I envy you, Jesseline. You who grew up with love, you who have a loving husband and now a son, you who attracts everyone who laid their eyes on you, you who my husband loves so much, i wish you didn't exist. I wish my husband looks at me. I wish he touched me just like he touched that flower.

To my husband who loves her, i won't feel remorse for hating her. She deserves my hate. Just like i deserve yours.