Nate
"How is she?" I'm talking to Sarah's doctor and asking about her condition
"To tell you the truth Mr. Villanueva, she's not getting any better, we cannot help her if she doesn't want to help herself, it is in her will if she wants to keep going, her body stoped responding to any drugs and even to chemotherapy, I'm so sorry" the doctor's worried too on how unwilling she is to live
"I'll talk to her"
When we married each other four years ago, we didn't expect any of this to happen but, that's life, full of surprises and heartaches
My wife Sarah was diagnosed of ovarian cancer last year, we couldn't produce a child for the past three to four years and that was the reason why
"Sarah darling, you have to fight this, fight for yourself and fight for me, don't leave me, I can't lose you" I said holding her hands
"Nate, you'll do great even without me, I know my body and I can't last that long" she said with a raspy voice "find someone you truly love" she smiled sadly
"I love you" I'm holding back my tears and the burning sensation in my throat made me take a sharp breath
"I know you do, I'm thankful for that and I want you to be happy so, find him" peace is written on her face
"What? Him? Who?" I'm confused... who's him?
"I'm sorry, if I didn't threaten him, I'll not have you by my side right now, go and find Jude" she's crying "I know you love him and he loves you too so much that he's willing to do anything for you"
"Wha-? Threaten? What do you mean?" I felt the blood drain from my face
"I told him I'm dying and I only have you in my life so I begged him to leave you, I'm sorry" her tears are flowing nonstop "I guess this is the punishment for what I've done, I know you're mad but, find him before I go, I want to apologize to him personally, please, please find Jude"
"Shhhh stop crying, it'll make you feel even worst" I don't know what to do after hearing those words, I am angry yet I can't show it to her
"I'm sorry for doing that Nate, I'm so sorry, please forgive me"
"Shhhh yes, yes I forgive you, don't worry about it" how could I possibly say to my ill wife that I can't forgive her for making the love of my life go away
She cried herself to sleep, I'm furious but still it broke my heart to see her in that state
Jude is a name of the person who had the half of my heart, a person I can't forget
Yes, I love Sarah but it's way too different from the love that I have for Jude, I'm selfish but I promised to give him my heart