Jude
I am breathing heavily
I couldn't control my body
Cold sweat coming out of my skin
My eyes can't focus on anything
But, the silhouette of a man rushing to the bed made me realize where I am
I can only see his back but, I know full well who that person is
The person who completed my heart and at the same time shattered it into million pieces
I have to go...
I don't want to... see him and... and break me again
With that in mind, I hurriedly ran out of the room and called a cab outside the hospital
I'm a mess and I don't want Jonah to see me like this, I have to go home and freshen up
Remembering the past vividly
How happy we were
How much love we felt
How we made those promises
How he broke my heart
How he lied to me
I was hurt... hurt beyond repair
I was in so much pain that I could die
The fruit I bore with our love
The one who gave me hope
And now I'm afraid that
You'll take him away from me too
"mommy!!! Mommmyy!!!" Jonah's running to me with a paper on his hand
"hey baby don't run" I bend down, pick him up to carry him on my arms
"I'm sorry, I was just supppper excited and I can't wait to tell you that I got perfect scores again!!" he's smiling widely "look! look! See?" he said pushing the paper on my face
"woooow, I'm so proud to have a genius son like you!" hugging him tightly
"teeheehee Mimi I love you" that caught me off guard, sometimes it feels like Jonah can sense my emotions and he's trying to make me happy
"I love you too my everything, let's go home, I'll cook your favorite food"
"yeeeeyyyy!!!" he yelled throwing both of his hands in the air
We're done eating and I'm putting Jonah to bed
"Mimi what's wrong?" he said sleepily
"nothing's wrong baby, why did you ask?" I said kissing his forehead
"you're having a sad face since you picked me up at school" he said reaching for my face
"was I?" sometimes it surprises me of how intelligent Jonah is
"yeah and you seem to be troubled about something" he said sadly "you can tell me what it is and I'll help you with it" he talks like he's a grown up now which made me smile
"no baby there's really nothing wrong, you should go to sleep now, mimi loves you so much"
"I love you too Mimi, you're the best in the whole world" he said then yawn and went to sleep
I became really pitiful to the point where my son is comforting me