Everything went so well.
Shivi was so happy!! And it's just a beginning of our new life.
I looked at her soundly sleeping beside me with her head of my arm. And her arm wrapped around my neck.
I gently creased her head and smiled looking at her beautiful face. How perfect our life is.
Sleeping with my love in my arms, dreaming about her and starting my day with the beautiful sight of her sleeping figure. All I want in my life.
Everything I ever dreamt of.
The more I thank God for this is less...!! But still I always thank him for giving me this perfect life. This perfect home.
And she snuggled more into me.
I don't want to wake her up as we reach late last night but as her exams are approaching, we can't take leaves.
Am sorry mera bachaa.
"Baby, Good morning" I said tugging the hair on her face behind.
"Umm" She said wrapping her one leg over me.
I chuckled looking at her.
Now if I'll call her a kiddo she'll get angry. But ufffff!!!
"Mera bachaa gooooood morning" I said pecking her forehead and rubbing my hand softly on her arm.
"Kartikkkkk... Good night" She replied in her sleepy tone.
Kitty came over me and sat on my chest looking at shivi.
With other hand, I creased her neck too.
"Good morning kitty baby" I said and she stretched herself and layed to sleep.
Okay now I have two sleeping beauties.
"My Babiessss wakeyyy wakeyyyyy see it's already 7 am" I said ruffling shivi's hair.
She scuffed and picked up kitty and moved to other side hugging her.
I looked at her for a second.
"Achaa beta jii...??" I said moving closer to her.
"Aap jayeinn hume sone dein" She said moving forward.
"Baba gir jaogi" I said pulling her back.
"Wake up na sweeta" I said creasing her hair.
"Thori der Kartik" She said yawning.
"I'll make your favorite pancakes. Wake up" I said pecking her head.
She turned to my side and opened her one eye.
"Sachii??" She asked.
I smiled and pecked her forhead, "Muchii" I replied.
"Okayyy, I loveee youu" She said pecking my cheek.
I suppressed my chuckle.
"Lovee youuuu moree" I replied.
"Uthoo ab shabashh" I said sitting up.
And she too sat up and rubbed her eyes with kitty in her arms.
I stood up and creasing her head and moved to my wardrobe while she was still sitting there.
I know, I know she'll take ten minutes to completely Wake up.
My bad, I kept her awake last night for too long!
Should have slept early.
Even kitty is sleepy.
When we returned back she was waiting for us and I felt really bad.
Even though I bought her favorite things too but still.
Next time, I'll make sure to take her with us.
I know then, I'll be doing third wheeling in between these two girls but it's ok!
Yeh dono khush rehni chahiye!!
And I sighed.
"Kartikkk... Kartik... Kartikk" She suddenly said excitedly.
"Hnji... Hnji... Hnjii" I replied looking back at her.
"Can I select your today's outfit? Please" She asked requesting
I looked at her in confusion.
"Of course, you can! But why my baby wants to do that suddenly" I asked raising my eye brows.
"Because I want too!! Please na" She asked raising on bed.
"Okay jaana! But don't get late Okay! Get ready fast before I take bath and prepare breakfast" I said in calm yet authoritative way.
"Okay okayyyy!!!" She said smiling.
I shaked my head looking at her.
Ufffffff My sweeta!!
I grabbed my towel and went to washroom while she was heading towards my closet with a grin.
God knows what is going on in her head!!.....
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When I came back, I saw a browish pullover with white shirt and white pants.

I can't wear this in office!!
I need to wear my business suit!!
Then I realized, Who selected these clothes.
Shivi....!!!
If I didn't wear them, she'll get upset! And If I'll wear this, my staff would definitely get heart attack. As they never saw me in anything but bussiness suit!!
I thought about the pros and cons of wearing this attire.
If I wear this, My sweeta would get happy is the enough reason to wear this.
Fuck everyone's heart! Smile of her matters.
I graabbed them and wore it fastely. I moved my hand in my hair as I have no time to set it properly. We are already getting late.
I reached down quickly and shivi is still not here...!!
It is good if we see in one way because I need time to prepare breakfast.
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"Shivuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" I called her while arranging plates on dining table.
"Sweeeetaaaaaaa" I called her again when no reply came.
"Babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy" I called again.
"Coming Coming" She said running down the stairs.
"Oooiii statuee" I said looking at her.
And she stood their with her one leg in air and her both hands open wide to balance.
"How many times I told you not to run on stairs hmm??" I said walking towards her.
And her lips formed a thin line of smile.
I reached near her and hit her head lightly with my finger and she closed her eyes.
"Over" I said and picked her up in my arms.
"Sorry Sorry, but Kartik!!! you are looking really sundar sundar today" She said looking at me with a smile.
"Was that a joke or real wala" I asked looking at her while walking down.
"Real wala sachii" She replied with innocent expression.
I kept her on my lap while sitting on the chair and cupped her face.
I placed a soft kiss on her lips and replied "Thank you meri jaan and aapki khubsurti toh har pal badhti hai!!"
And she blushed looking down.
Hayeeeeeee Marjawann!!
"Now let's have your favorite pancakes" I said excited taking a bite. And she smiled like a hapoy kid.
I stretched my hand towards her and gave her that bite and she closed her eyes taking every second to devour its taste.
Ufff!! Hamare toh inhe dekh kar hi pet aur dil dhono bhar gye!!
"Itsssss too yumm kartikk" She replied.
And I smiled in response.
She too gave me a bite and I pecked her hand before having it!!!
This is the best moment of my every morning!!
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"Okay Kartik, byee" She said opening the door.
I leaned towards her and closed the door.
She looked back and blinked her eyes in confusion.
"I'll open it" I said and pecked her forehead.
"Kartikkkk" She tried to say something but I already reached down towards her side.
I opened the door and took her bag from backseat too.
"Here, my young lady" I said giving her my hand.
She smiled and took my hand.
She stepped down and grabbed her bag from me.
As she was walking towards her college saying bye, I pulled her back again and she turned around towards my side.
She looked at me and I can see a hue of blush forming on her cheeks.
"What??" She asked.
I pulled her into my embrace and creased her head.
"I'll miss you" I said.
I don't know why but I am feeling a different anxiety today.
I don't want to leave her side.
I just want her!!
She looked up at me and said,
"Kartik, am just going to college" She said trying to pull herself back but my hold was tight.
I pecked her head and said,
"Promise me, you'll take care of yourself"
She was looking confused.
I too know that camera's here are under ny supervision. Adwait is around her. But still.... Still.... My heart is not agreeing!
"Achaaa baba okay!! Now let me go or else I'll be late" She said.
I finally left her and pecked her again.
No matter how many times, but I never miss a chance to peck her. I love doing that.
She tip toed and placed a soft kiss on my cheek too.
"Bye bye" She said and walked towards her college.
I leaned on my car and made sure she's inside safe.
After she reached, I went back inside and drove to my office!
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"Yes Mr Kapoor! How are you?"
I asked him on the other side of the call.
Out of sudded he called me directly today! I know our relations are good but still.
"Hey Young Man! Yeah am fine!
If you don't mind can we have a meeting today? I needed to discuss some things with you"
He said.
Meeting??? Without any pre information??
"Sir..... Ummm.... " I was going to say something but he cut my words in between.
"Don't say no Kartik! It's really important. Before starting our delarship, I need to clear very important points" He said.
"Okay, as you say! So when are you coming?" I asked finally giving in.
"What I was thinking, it would be great if you'll come to my place. Give us chance to do your hospitality too" He replied.
His place??? Is he serious??
"Sir your place?" I asked.
I thought he's near here that's why he's asking for doing meeting but his place?? That's literally hours away from here!
I looked at Raj who was listening to our conversation and asked what happened?
I gestured him to wait.
"Yeah! We'll be honoured! Last time we were really hapoy with your warm reception! Give us a chance too" He said
I looked at the watch! It's 10 am now. I did calculations in my head. Shivi would get off at
2:30 pm. I'll not stay there for too long....
If I'll drive fast I'll make it! I think.
"Okay! We'll be coming" I replied.
"Thank you young man! We'll be waiting" He said.
And I hanged up.
I looked at Raj and said,
"Mr. Kappor wants to discuss some points with us. We need to go at his place"
"His place??" He asked.
"Yeah, now hurry" I said grabbing my keys.
"Ruhi, we are going to Kapoors. Schedule my day accordingly"
I said and Raj and Ruhi followed me.
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"Hello Mr. Kappor" I said shaking my hand to him.
We reached her after one and half hour. Distance was of three hours but with raised heart beat of Ruhi, glares of Raj and my increasing speed We made here in one and a half hour.
Sorry guys I have to reach back at sharp 2:25 PM!
"Hello Kartik" He said in a strange tone and scanned me from head to toe.
"Did you all came in choper?" He asked.
I chuckled slightly and looked back at two angry figures.
"No No Mr. Kapoor! I was too excited to see your hospitality. So can't wait! " I replied.
He hit my arm jokingly and laughed.
"Sure, sure and one more thing young man" He said looking at me again.
"What's the secret behind this attire? I always had seen
Kartik Rajput in business suits hmm" He asked.
And this time Raj suppressed his chuckle gaining glare from me.
I looked back at Mr. Kapoor trying to form a smile.
"Ny girl likes this" I said shyly looking down.
And he laughed and hummed teasingly. " Ohh I see. My lovesick young man! I like it! I like it! " He replied.
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It's almost 1 PM and still the meeting is going on.
He and his team is again discussing all the points We already have talked about!!
And the main thing is We are not even getting network at this area.
I am checking my phone again and again, and all I am getting is no network signal!!!
Ughhh!! My anxiety and tolerance level is at peak at this moment! Why the hell this meeting is not ending!!
I looked at Raj and impatience was clear on my face.
I looked back at me with the helpless expressions.
I want to stand up from here and just move.
"So, Kartik Sir I hope you are listening" One of his employee said gaining back ny attention.
I glared at him but Raj hit my foot from under the table.
I scoffed and took a deep breath.
I looked at Mr. Kapoor and finally said, "Sir, How long it's going to take" I tried to ask politely.
"Just some more points!" He replied.
I snarled but controlled.
"Give us a minute, I need to talk to Raj and Ruhi" I said and stood up walking outside the room.
They followed me.
"I need to go back" I said to Raj rubbing my temple.
He looked at me and replied,
"You know na this is an important deal??"
"Fuck the deal! I need to go to Shivi and this mobile is not even working" I almost threw that straight in the wall but controlled my self!!
Ahhhhh.....!!!!!
"Kartik! She's not a kid! You need to Grow up...!! Adwait is with her. He'll drop her home. Nothing would happen in few hours" He replied.
I tried to calm my senses. But a strange fear is rushing inside me.
"But..... Raj try to understand!!!" I said looking at her.
"You try to understand! I too love her! But you are doing over now!" He said.
I wanted to shout but may be yes...!! Am doing over... Maybe..!! But my heart is beating to fast! I know am getting restless to see her...!! I want to be near her... But....!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhh....!!!!
And before I can process anything Mr. Kapoor emerged,
"All well gentle man?" He asked.
I replied calmly, at least I tried.
"Yeah"
"Let's complete the meeting today. And We can start our work from tomorrow itself! I'll not bother you again about this. But let's co operate with each other today" He said calmly.
I looked at Raj and then at him.
And finally gave in and nodded.
I looked at Ruhi and said,
"Please arrange any phone from here and say Adwait to drop Shivi home. Safely and securely"
She nodded.
"And yeah, say him to buy some flowers and chocolates too for her from my side and say her sorry" I added with guilt.
Am sorry Sweetaaa!!
With heavy heart, I went back to meeting room.
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8:00 PM, Fucking 8:00 PM and We are still here...!!!
With no network and no contact with my sweeta!!!
I am getting impatient to reach her.....!!!
I looked at them as they finally concluded the meeting.
And in no second, I stood up and with a quick good bye hurried towards my car.
I stride inside and the moment Raj and Ruhi settled inside, I started the car with a jerk.
I hit the car at fastest speed possible. Everything around got blurrred.
"Kartikkkk slowwww" Raj yelled.
But I just want to reach my sweeta.
I kept on checking my mobile for network.
But Fuckkk Fuckkk Fuckkk...!!!
I accelerated it more.
And haaa!!! Network came.
I dialled Shivi's number while still accelerating the car.
*Ring*
*Ring*
*Ring*
The number you are trying to call is busy. Please try later.
What the hell!!!
Why she is not picking up the call??
I called her again and she still didn't picked up the call.
And my heart beat raised.
I pulled the gear shift and broke four traffics till now!
But who cares!!
Reaching to shivi is more important!!
I called the Adwait.
The number you are trying to reach is currently switched off.
"NOW WHY THR FUCKING HELL HE IS NOT PICKING UP THE CALL!??? " I yelled hitting the starring the wheel.
I looked at Ruhi from rear view mirror.
"Have you called Adwait?"
I asked.
She looked at me and then started looking down.
"FUCKING TELL ME HAVE YOU CALLED ADWAIT" I shouted.
"Kartik relax" Raj said.
And Ruhi flinched.
"TELL" I asked again.
"Sir..... Sir... He didn't.... " She stumbled.
"He didn't what RUHI???" I asked again.
She flinched again and replied
"He didn't picked up the call"
Raj looked back at her, "And you are telling now? Are you out of your mind?"
"I.... I thought... He would drop her at home by himself" She said in slow frightened voice.
And Now my blood is boiling!!
I hit the window pane and shattered glass pieces pierced inside my hand with blood all over.
"Kartikkkkk" Raj tried to take my hand.
But I kept on accelerating the car.
If anything happens today!!!
I can never forgive myself.
I'll die.
I kept on calling her the whole route but Damnnnn!!! She is not picking up the call....!!!
I tried to keep away all the bad thought!!
Shivi is sleeping and Adwait's battery ranned down!!!
Shivi is sleeping and Adwait's battery ranned down!!!
Shivi is sleeping and Adwait's battery ranned down!!!
Shivi is sleeping and Adwait's battery ranned down!!!
I kept on repeating these lines in my head.
Please God!! Make it real...!!
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10:00 pm
I reached home and runned towards my home.
I opened it.
"Shiviiiiii..... " I shouted loudly.
But no one replied.
"Shiviiiiiiiiiii" I ran towards my room.
I opened the room but no one was in there.
I moved hand in my hair and stride towards her room.
"Shiviiiiii please tell me you are heree" I said searching her every where in empty room.
I checked all the rooms.
The store room.
Kitchen.
Washrooms.
Guest room.
Kitty ran towards me.
I picked her up and creased it with tears in my eyes.
I wiped them off before falling.
She is fineee!!
With her in my arms I walked back outside the home.
There Raj was waiting for me.
"She's not here" I said and walked back to my car.
I kept Kitty at pessenger seat and accelerated the car.
I called Adwait again!!
But his phone is still off.
THAT BASTARD...!!!
If anything happen to her first I'll kill him then myself!!
I called to Minister.
He picked up and before he utter any rubbish I stated directly,
"My Shivi is not at home. Make sure your officers bring her back to me in 10 minutes. Or else you better prepare for the consequences"
I said in anger.
The waves of anger is rushing deep inside me with guilt of leaving her at the trust of some other person!!!
IT'S ALL FUCKING MY FAULT.
And tears rolled down my cheeks as I drove like a mad person.
I looked at my lap and Kitty was sitting there looking at me.
"Don't worry! We'll find our Shivi" I said and wipes the tears off.
I'll not shed any tear.
My shivi is safe.
Every where the siren of police vans was buzzing.
I went straight ti her college.
It was locked.
I kept Kitty at passenger seat and stepped outside.
The car of Raj was behind me.
I looked around and there was no person alive near her college.
"Where is Adwait???" I looked back at Raj and asked in irritation.
I said commissioner to search for him.
He said.
"Don't worry our Shivi is safe"
He said keeping his hand on my shoulder.
"Of course she is. Nothing would happen to her" I replied.
And in next minute, cars of police came there.
Commissioner stepped down and from back seat, Adwait with police constables came to view.
And now don't blame me for anything that would happen next!!
I ignored everyone around him.
I stepped towards him and punched right on his face with all my strength and he stepped back with blood flowing from his lips.
And my own hand ached. The pieces of glasses pierced more inside my hand which blood dripping down.
But in front of pain in my heart, this pain is nothing.
Everyone near him stepped away.
I held his collar and with a jerk pulled him back.
"Where's My Shivi" I asked him with my red eyes.
"Sir, Sir please listen to me" He pleaded.
I puched right on his face again and took out my gun.
With his collar I jerked him back and placed my gun right on his temple.
"WHERE'S MY SHIVI??" I asked him again with urge to kill him clearly visible from my eyes.
Raj held my arm and said,
"Kartik let him speak first" And pulled my hand back.
"Ask himmmm WHERE'S MY GIRL" I said taking deep breath.
"Sir, My mother faced an accident. So I went to her at hospital. I tried to call you but your phone was unreachable" He said.
"I don't know where's Shivi is. She is like my sister too" He added.
I looked back at him.
"Shut up Just shut up!!! Okay I agree, you had emergency so you left my girl alone??" I replied.
"Sorry sir" He said looking down.
"Fuck your sorry! Take this bastard away from my sight or else I would take two seconds to empty my gun rught into his worthless brain" I said in deadly voice.
"And why you all are looking at my face!!!! Go and bring
My Shivi to me if you want to see tomorrow's sun" I said with gritted teeth to all the man Standing there including mine and police.
I hit the front of my car and fired all the bullets at the road in frustation.
And I remembered!!
"Bring my macbook" I said to one of my man.
I grabbed it from his hand and opened it.
I checked the footage of the fromt entrance of her college.
2:30, gate opened and all students started walking outside the gate.
The crowd of students was everywhere.
I fast forwarded it.
I saw a figure risiding from the entrace. There my Shivi is.
Amd I rubbed the screen of
My macbook with pad of my fingers and tears gathered in my eyes.
My Sweeta...!!
She waited there.
5 minutes.
10 minutes.
15 mimutes.
She keep on standing there in hot sun waiting.
Waiting for me.
Who was so irresponsible and was busy in meeting.
Who didn't bother about his love.
Who didn't completed his responsibilities.
Who broke his promise of always being at her side.
Who broke promise of never hurting her in anyway.
Who is so bad!!
Who is so bad!!!
I am so bad...!!!
Half an hour.
And my baby is still standing there waiting for me.
She looked around disappointed.
She even tried to call.
But the two people she knew.
Me and Raj!!
Both were busy!!
BOTH WERE FUCKING BUSY!!
I fast forwarded it again.
One hour!!
3:30 PM.
She sat near the road with sweat dripping down her head.
She opened her bag and pulled out her water bottle.
But it was empty.
And my heart ached.
It feels like someone is badly cutting it into pieces.
I fast forworded it.
4:30 PM, two hours.
And my little baby was still waiting for his good for nothing Kartik...!!
I want to kill myself at this moment!!
My sweeta is in pain and because of whom, meee!!!
His Kartik!!
His unworthy Kartik!!!
I can't see this anymore...!!
5:30 PM and it looks like she is hungry. Her eyes filled with tears.
Tears!! Because of whom??
Because of me!!
Whom he called her Safe place!
Whom she trusted!!
What she would be thinking???
That his Kartik have forgotten her...!!
His Kartik has forgotten her!!
But no baby!!! I can forget myself but not youu!
Am sorry....!!
Am sorry Sweeta!!
Tears in my eyes never stopped looking at photage.
6:30 PM, 4 hours.
Fucking Four hourss!!
And my heart sank deeper into my stomach with weight of guilt.
She stood up but almost tripped.
"Shiviiii!!!" I said loudly.
But she took support from tress near by.
She looked at ring at her finger for a second.
With little steps she walked somewhere.
She started walking somewhere!!!
She must be walking away from me!!
She must be thinking that
his kartik, what she calles me his only home, left her alone!!!
Noooo mera bachaa!!!
I want to pull her back.
I want to pull her back into my arms. And say her sorry for what I did.
Sorry is very little word to pay for what I did!
She must be feeling disgust from me....!!!!
Even I am feeling disgust fir myself.
I ruined everything!!!!
I AM THE WORSTTTT....
I AM FUCKING WORSTTT....