The environment was tensed around. Everyone's heart was under extreme guilt and pain.
There Kartik was worried for his sweeta. So many different thoughts were clouding his head. With every passing second of the CCTV recording his heart was sinking even deeper. He was feeling too helpless.
All he wanted was to bring his Shivi back to him.
All he wanted was to rewind the time. But does that possible??
Noo...!! The only truth is His Shivi is hurt. His Shivi is hurt.
Just because of his deeds.
Beside him, Raj who calls himself the brother of his Shivu was also drowning under the guilt of nit letting Kartik come to Shivi. The tears from his eyes were also at the verge.
Raj clenched his fist and his eyes were red. He wasn't expressing but the fact that his sister is hurt and missing because of their irresponsible behavior is causing a stingy pain in his heart.
The secretary of Kartik, Ruhi too was worried and tensed about the situation. She was regretting because of her behavior.
She didn't want to do this. But only because of her carelessness today everyone is suffering.
Everyone is in tears.
Everyone is in agony.
And there, Adwait was equally blaming himself for messing this all up. But he have no other options.
His mother was in hospital. He can't process anything. He has to leave. He has to reach his mother.
When he got the news, that Shivi, who was like a little Sister to her is missing he can't stop blaming himself for all this. And may be he is responsible for this too!
But can this guilt, agony, pain, helplessness pay for the hurt Shivanya's heart felt?
She again felt left out.
She again felt like no one cares for her.
She again felt that she is no one's priority.
She again felt that no matter if she die no one is going to come to her.
She again felt alone.
She again felt lonely.
All her childhood pain again started haunting her.
Again her conscious taunted her of believing someone more than her.
Again her brain reminded her that all the care and love is just a facade. She is nothing but just a toy for everyone.
But would her heart accept this all? That His Safe place have forgotten her?
Would her thoughts overpower her or she'll trust his Kartik?
The Kartik who always cared about her was a true one or the kartik who forgotten about her existence is the real one!!
All these thoughts started running into her head.
And there Kartik was searching for her like a crazy.
He instructed everyone to search every corner of the City and bring His Girl back to him.
Out of his fear, each and every man of his and even the police were searching for her.
They know very well, if they'll not be successful in finding her than may be it's there last night!!
So counting there breaths they all were searching for her.
Cerfew was all over the city.
But she was nowhere to find.
And the CCTV recording proceeded.
Kartik with his bleeding hand, red eyes and tear striken face with continuous flow of those tears of guilt looked at that screen.
Shivi walked a little but she was looking week.
She was looking too week and hurt.
Her eyes were filled with tears.
Before they fell down she wiped them off and sat on her toes again.
She covered her face in between her hands.
Pain!! Extreme pain was clearly visible from her actions.
Why Kartik didn't come?
Was the only question running in her head.
And at the other end of the Screen restlessness to hug her sweeta and never let her go was the only feeling Kartik had at this time.
As she broke down in tears, Kartik shattered looking at her.
Kartik Shattered.
Beside him, Raj broke.
Both were thinking the same thing.
All fault was there!! They can't take this at their heart.
Their baby is crying.
She is crying so much sitting in between the road.
She whimpered.
And Kartik turned his back towards the screen.
"I can't see this Raj! I can't see this anymore" He said looking at Raj with fresh set of tears leaving his eyes.
He was in emmense pain.
And Raj??
He can't express much at this moment.
He was in pain for his best friend.
He was in pain for his shivu.
He was in pain because he stopped him.
He was in pain because he can't reverse back this situation.
He can't!!
He just can't!!
Both the men were suffering.
They assured that orphan that they are with her always and now looking at her shattering was choking them.
They can't breathe.
Raj rubbed the shoulder of Kartik, hiding his tears, he consoled him.
"Kartik but we have to see this! To find our Shivi we have to see this!" He said with sore throat.
But Kartik shaked his head in no with streams of tears flowing down his eyes.
Raj pulled him into a hug and Kartik broke into sobbs.
He broke.
In the screen, Shivi was sobbing in pain.
And outside the screen, Kartik was sobbing in guilt.
Only difference was Kartik have Raj to hold his broken pieces.
But Shivi??
She was alone.
All by herself!
She was lonely!
After sometime she by herself collected her pieces and gathered courage to stand up.
She wiped off the tears from back of her hand and looked around. But still she couldn't find any familiar face who could tell her its ok! Everything is fine.
She pulled her bag to her chest and hugged it.
Raj with heavy heart was looking at his sister struggling to even walk in this crowd of unfamiliar people.
He rubbed the back of Kartik and Kartik pulled himself back. And wiped his tears off.
He has to be strong.
To get back his Shivi, he has to be strong!
He can't be like this!!
He looked back and at that same time police vans shown up with buzzing siren.
He looked at their approching car and stride towards them in the hope of getting his shivi back.
His eyes searched through them to find that face for which his heart crave for.
But all he got was disappointment!
"Where is My Girl!!" He asked looking at The Commissioner in deadly voice.
He gazed down.
Kartik moved his hand into his hair in frustation and asked again, "Where THE HELL IS MY GIRL??"
"Sir, we are sorry! We searched for mam in every possible corner but...... " He tried to explain.
"Kartikkkkkkkkk" Their Raj yelled from back.
Kartik snapped his head towards him.
"Shivii" He said and runned towards the college.
He watched in recording that Shivi walked inside the college.
Kartik looked at him.
He gestured Kartik and he understood what he wanted to say.
Wasting no time he walked towards Raj with all the police men following him.
*Shoot*
*Shoot*
And Raj fired on the lock of gate.
Kartik pushed it open and everyone went inside.
Everyone was searching for her inside the college.
It was all dark.
"Shiviiiiiiii" Kartikk yelled.
But no response came.
Raj and others too were searching for her.
"Sweetaaaaa, See your Kartik is here" Kartik said stumbling with his words almost whimpering in pain.
They all seacrched for her in each corridor, in each class, in every cabin but she wasn't here.
"Where is My Shivi??????"
"Where is My Sweeta Goddd!!!"
"Please Give her back to me!!"
"Please...!!"
"Am begging youuu!!!"
"I know am at fault but please don't punish me like this"
"Anything but not this"
"I can't loose her"
"I can't live without her"
He pleaded and begged God for his sweeta and fell on his knees.
Tears never stopped.
He never felt this helpless before.
He was craving for just one glimpse of his sweeta.
His love.
But where she is!!!
In the darkness of night it feels like she disappeared in thin air.
Kartik was loosing his hopes.
His heart was breaking into pieces.
His body aches.
His head was bursting.
But he can't give up!!
He can't give up!!
He want his kiddo.
He want his baby!!!
He wiped off his tears and stood again, he have to find his baby!!
As the darkness is increasing, the thought of her fear of darkness of hauting him.
She must be afraid.
She must be calling my name.
She must be waiting for his Kartik....
She is waiting...
Yes she is waiting.....!!!
She deep inside knew very well, His kartik can never leave her side.
With this thought and he stood up again.
And started searching for his baby again.
A corner of his heart is saying she is somewhere near.
She is somewhere near.
BUT WHERE!!!!!
He screamed in pain.
"Shivi bachaaaaaa am sorry!! Please tell me where are you?" He yelled again.
Not with anger but with suffocating breath.
And his heart??
It's no longer beating.
The reason of her beating heart is away from him.
So how can it beat???
Along with him his heart is also screaming her name.
His every drop of blood is calling for her.
"Shiviiiiiiiiiii please aa jao apne Kartik ke paas, am dieing"
He cried.
And he heard something.
Not a word but shallow breaths.
He heard shallow breaths of someone and his heart started beating fast.
His senses started screaming something.
"Raj.....!! She is near" He yelled.
Everyone near started looking at his direction.
"Raj she is near" He said and looked around searching for his other part of heart which is calling him.
"Shivii" He called again and went towards the park covered in trees and bushes.
Everyone followed him and started looking around.
"I know you can listen me baby, look your Kartik is here"
He said in pleading tone.
He looked around and he heard those shallow breaths again.
He looked in the direction of bushes.
It feels like someone is calling is calling his heart.
He walked there.
He stopped everyone to follow him and with every step his heart throbbed fast.
With slow steps he walked behind the bushes and someone was there.
Someone was there.
Laying behind the bushes all curled up.
He sat beside her and a lump formed inside his throat.
He sat on his feet and a set of tears left his eyes.
He can't control his tears now.
He sobbed more looking at her.
His Shivi is here.
He kneeled down near her and pulled her into his embrace.
She was fainted.
He hugged her tightly.
The fear of loosing her had covered all his senses and now he doesn't want to leave her.
Never.
He remembered his hand was bleeding.
He made sure not to touch his blood with her.
Raj sat beside them.
And now he too broke.
All his emotions left him after seeing his sister.
He creased her head and tears left his eyes too.
He muttered under her breathe a sorry. But he knew a sorry is not enough for the pain he had given her.
They both were too afraid for their Shivi but now the satisfaction of seeing her back came out as a flood of tears.
But when Raj touched her forhead he realized she have fever.
He controlled his tears and kept his hand on Kartik's shoulder who was still hugging his sweeta tightly with the fear of loosing her again and shedding tears on her shoulder.
"Kartik, we need to go. She is not fine" He tried to form word.
But Kartik was so lost in the embrace of his sweeta.
He didn't heard.
"Kartik... We need to go" This time Raj saod loudly.
Kartik sniffled and realized what he was saying.
"She have fever" Raj added.
Kartik wiped his tears and felt the burning body of Shivi.
Realizition hit him and he got up , picking her up in his arms.
"Am sorry baby! Your Kartik failed. He's not worthy for you. You were right, am bad am very bad. You'll be fine!! No more pain. No more hurt. I promise you. I know I you won't trust me now. But please just this time. " He kept on muttering the whole route in broken tone.
Everyone's choked breath finally freed up looking at Kartik with shivi and their heart beats relaxed.
Raj gestured them a thank you and followed Kartik.
When Kartik reached the Car,
Raj said, "Let me drive, you both sit at back" And moved towards the driver seat.
Kartik didn't argued and went at back seat.
He securely and possessively held Shivanya in his arms while Raj drove back to home.
Kitty too moved towards them and silently looked at Shivi.
She too was feeling bad.
"You'll be fine baby" Kartik said pecking her head and dialled doctor's number.
"Yeah please come to my place. Shivi is not fine" He said.
Both were tensed thinking about the reaction of Shivi when she'll gain back her senses back.
But more than that they were worried about her health.
She is fainted.
She must have cried so much that's why her body is burning.
As they both were well awared of her habit crying until getting fever.
She's hurt.
But now the reason is no one but her saviours.
Her saviours who promised to protect her always.
They didn't have courage to face her now.
Kartik kept on creasing her head softly and Raj was driving but his eyes were fixed on Shivi's tear striken face from the rear view mirror.
All were hurt.
And who was the reason???
All were feeling guilty.
But who was at mistake??
Situation or their irresponsible or something else??
They can't think anything at this moment but Shivi.
Raj parked the car and Kartik rushed inside with Shivi in his arm and Kitty clinged over her.
Like she was trying to wake her up. That little creature too was feeling the pain.
Raj followed them and doctor too came.
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"Relax Kartik, it's just little fever she'll wake up soon. She's fine" Doctor tried to explain him.
"Then why the hell is she not waking up" Kartik replied in impatient tone.
"Kartik. Don't yell. Let her sleep"
Raj said trying to calm him down.
Kartik wanted to hear her voice.
Kartik wanted to apologize to her.
Kartik wanted to tell her that he loves her.
Kartik wanted to tell her that he didn't left her.
Kartik wanted to tell her that he hadn't forgotten her.
Kartik wanted to tell her that he never wanted to hurt her.
He can never.
Kartik wanted assure her that she's not alone.
But he calmed down and took a deep breath.
He rubbed hand on his heart to relax. Raj is right, She need rest.
With tears in his eyes he sat beside her and started creasing her head slowly.
"I have kept medicines here. Give her when she'll wake up" Doctor said looking at him.
He didn't responded as his eyes were on his shivi.
His eyes weren't allowing to look anywhere but her.
He hadn't seen her since morning.
Since 16 hours.
Since fucking 16 Hours.
Raj looked at Doctor and nodded.
"Okay Doctor, Thank you" He said and then looked at Kartik's hand which was bleeding.
"Please cure this too" He said gesturing towards his hand.
Doctor nodded and tried to take Kartik's freed hand.
He looked up and pulled it back.
"Am fine" He stated.
"Kartik, For Shivi please" Raj almost pleaded.
Kartik looked at Shivi.
She would get scared looking at her hand.
And he doesn't want to hurt her more.
So he aggred.
Doctor aided his hand but he didn't even flinched.
His eyes werr fixed at Shivi.
After cleaning his hand and covering it with anticeptic and bandage. Doctor stood up.
Raj accompanied Doctor outside the home.
While Kartik was still with Shivi creasing her head with her hand in his hands. And kitty was sitting beside her.
Raj went to kitchen.
He remembered neither Kartik nor Shivi have eaten anything.
He prepared some sandwiches and juice for both of them.
He was still feeling too guilty.
The guilt of stopping Kartik from coming to Shivi was killing him deep down.
He took them in their room and kept them covered on the table near by.
"Am going Kartik. Please make her eat something when she'll wake up and do call me." He said looking at him.
There Kartik was sinking more in guilt.
Yet he nodded.
"And yeah, you too have something" He added and went from there.
Kartik gained little senses and realized Shivi was still burning.
Her head must be aching. He thought.
He wanted to go and bring cold water and wet cloth for her but his heart was not agreeing to leave her alone even for a second.
But he explained himself that his Shivi is in pain and he have to.
So he took a deep breath and pecked both her hands before leaving them with heavy heart.
He hurried to kitchen and brought a bowl of cold water with a wet cloth band.
He covered Shivi properly in duvet and sat beside her.
That whole night, he held her hand and massaged her head while changing those cold water bands on her head.
He can't sleep.
He just wanted to look at her.
He even kissed her feet and massaged them as she was sitting for too long on the road. That too must be paining.
He didn't ate anything. He didn't had even water. He just made sure shivi is fine and comfortable.
A slightest of her movement alerts him with a hope that may be she'll wake up.
At one side he wants her to wake up but on the other side he can't face her.
He is ashamed of himself.
He don't know how to explain her for what he did.
What he did wasn't a mistake but A betrayal.
He betrayed his sweeta.
He wanted to kill himself!!!
He doesn't want to live anymore!!!
He looked at the puffed eyes of shivi and he felt like someone have entangled his heart with thorns.
He decided to punish himself.
He know his sweeta is so pure that she'll accept his apologize in no time and would forget everything.
But he can't forget this thing ever in his life.
He hurt his life.
He hurt his sweeta.
He deserves punishment.
A cruel punishment.
A painful punishment.
So he decided to punish himself.
Because the weight of this thing would never let him live.
And he pecked her forhead softly.
And said, "Am sorry baby but your Kartik deserve this"