(Levar Point of View)
When I wake up, I feel something on my wrist. I look up and I see that my wrist is taped to the bed. What happened? Why am I here? The last thing I remember was drinking coffee and then passing out. Did Asaka drug me? Why did she do this? Did she mean what she said about her needing me? No. That's crazy, but I guess she is clearly crazy. She is a killer and she is just fine with that. I mean, she might not be but at the same time she told me about it without much struggle and she is sober. I should try to get out. I try to break the table but fail so I try to sit up to get a better view when I hear Asaka
"Darling. Be careful."
"Don't call me that."
"I will give you some time."
I watch her leave the room. What am I supposed to do? She seems to think that she actually loves me but this isn't love. This isn't normal. How can anyone do this? I know, that is coming for the guy that used to take drunk confessions all the time with no issue but seeing it and being part of it is so different. No wonder it haunts them. I hate this. I want to go home. I can't believe I trusted her and she did this. Why? Maybe she might let me go if she feels guilty? How could I do that? Maybe if I don't eat today she will feel bad. That might work. But how long will it take? I am use to eating one meal a day so I should be able to. It might work. If I get hungry, I can deal with it.
This collar is bothering me so much. I hate it and with what happened… I feel myself starting to tear up. I wonder if she actually cares. I feel myself crying more. I am stuck here alone and yesterday was horrible. I don't want to be here. I feel something rubbing against me. I look down and I see Lev rubbing against me. I can't pet him. He lays down on me as I put my head on him. At least I have Lev. He seems to care about me at least. Wow, I am pathetic. I can't even deal with something like this without getting so upset. How can I call myself a man? Maybe he was right, I'm not a man and I never will be. I just want to leave. I look over at Lev. I can't believe I am looking for comfort in a cat.
Throughout the day, I end up crying a lot and I can't look at myself. I end up asking for food. After all, maybe she will let me go if I make her feel guilty. I want to go home. I just want to go home. I have Lev and he helps me so at least I have him. I'm glad I have him at least.
From the looks of it, Asaka comes into the room with some soup but it is hard to tell as I can't see it. She walks up to me with the soup. It does seem to be a little late but I don't know what time it is so it might not be.
"I'm going to feed you, alright?"
I nod my head slightly before letting her feed me. I guess she made the same thing as yesterday. Endless there was leftovers, then that is what I am eating. I don't really care, I am hungry and just want to eat. Plus, it does taste good so it works for me. Plus, maybe she will let me go and I can go home. Once I finish the bowl, she lifts my head up and "feds" me the water she brought. I didn't even know she brought water. I wonder if now would be a good time to ask. Maybe I shouldn't ask right away. I see her put everything down on the nightstand.
"Why did you do this?"
"Like I said before, I can't have you leave."
I look down. She really wants me to stay but I want to go home. I know I have Lev with me so it's not so bad but she has killed people. "Can you remove the tape?"
I feel her holding where the tape is on my wrist. Maybe she will say yes. "Not yet. Maybe tomorrow."
Oh. Nevermind. I guess I will have to wait. I guess it can't be that bad. She leaves the room and I kind of lay down on the bed. Maybe I should sleep. Then I can ignore all of this that is happening. Just why me? I was living such a normal ish life before this. I guess sleep will be for the best before I start crying again.