ADRIEN MORGAN
It's been a week since my brother and his boyfriend traveled to the Himalayas in search of the lone dragon. I lost contact with them as there is no network reception at all, and it's a long distance for us to use telepathy. So yeah,if you could imagine how worried and restless I've been,then it's more.
Azrael has been by my side ever since we left home to start a new life on land. He has been in touch with me even on days when I distance myself away from everyone,whenever I had those episodes,even when I experienced a relapse he always made sure to break through my invisible barrier and get to me. At least he always kept communicating with me. But now,it has been seven whole days without hearing a word from him,not even hearing his voice,his chatty self, and dramaticantiques. I miss having him around,where he could tell me about his day or just talk about anything without stopping. I can't let him know that, though, as I still want to keep my ears for some more time.
I hope he gets some signal even for a short while,I want to know if he is still alive and not turned into a feast by the dragon. They can be territorial as hell.
Heaving out a few more sighs,I return my attention to my work. Apparently,there has been some sort of development of rumors about some science-based research laboratory that is studying mermaid history and a lot of things related to us.
We don't know how or who started this, but we believe it must be someone among the new batch of settlers. The old folk are aware not to mess with our secret or to reveal it recklessly. I had the council meeting called for later today to discuss about it and what measures to invent so that this doesn't happen again. We can't have our folks be experimented on,we can't afford another war. The last one led to the deaths of many,and the termination of the peace treaty that existed between humans and us. Where humans could nolonger interact with us anymore,we couldn't give them our herbs for medicine or give them protection as they sailed the seas. That once peaceful era came to an uneventful,premature ending. All due to humans' greed because they wanted more. They wanted to become entirely like us,which they couldn't do. It's against nature's law for them to make beings like us.
Now, this uprising propaganda could lead to more weaknesses in our defense. We need to start sealing up the cracks before our forts are broken down by the enemy. Rather prepared than regretful.
I tried to calm my nerves but couldn't,a lot has been happening lately and I know I'm expected to be in my best form as the leader but I can't seem to get a hold of my emotions and thoughts. I need to do something about it sooner rather than later. Right now, what my people need is a strong leader, not someone admitted to the hospital for failing to get his thoughts grounded.
I'm Autistic,anxiety and a lot of other messed up emotions are the last thing I need now.
As if on cue,my phone starts buzzing, and I pick it up real quick, thinking it's Azrael, but it's not. I'm hearing Julian's voice, and it subtly relaxed me a bit.
"Hey,you there,can you hear me?" He asks. I must have zoned out.
"Yes,yes, I can hear you, Jules." I take deep breaths to stop my mind from frolicking around and concentrating on my love.
"Am I interfering?" Came his sweet voice.
"No, Jules,not at all. You got all my attention." I answer my precious jewel rather hastily. I don't want him thinking he is anything more than a welcome presence in my life.
"Okay,how are you doing. It's been a while since you got in touch with me, so I gave in and called. But if you're busy, don't worry,let me know." He says in one breath.
"Miss me much!" I teased. I laughed at the way his bashful reaction. He started stuttering over incoherent words.
"I'm kidding man,take a breath. For your information,I missed you too,you don't have to become a stuttering mess over it."
"Oh,okay I.. I didn't know." He replies shyly,more of mumbling to himself.
"So how has my new best friend been?" I ask him,of course, to lift the mood.
"Yeah,I've been quite well. Thank you." He paused a bit,took a breath before he continued. "I was wondering if you... well, I wouldn't mind coming over to my place. I desperately need a shiulder to cry on like right now." His voice breaks at the end.
"I'll be there in a few minutes. Just send me a pin, and I'll get to you." I say while grabbing my car keys and stepping out of my office using a speed I haven't used in a while.
I step into my car without even waiting for the address because I already know his main condo is.
Thirty-five minutes later,I was packed in his parking lot and on my way to the elevator. I pulled out my phone to check the text he sent to make sure he included the floor. Turns out he included everything in one text.
I got to his floor and rang his doorbell, which made him open the door as soon as the first sound went off. It's like he was waiting just behind the door.
I step in to a rather panicking Julian. He is shaking and taking shallow breaths. Damn, his heartbeat is also quite erratic.
"Hey you look fucked up,what's wrong?" I pull him into my chest giving him a bear hug. Whoever put him in this condition shall be held answerable.
"Hey please try to breathe. Follow the way I'm breathing,okay" I start doing breathing exercises along with my jewel. He inhales and exhales after me.
We take some few minutes until he is finally breathing normally and back to being calm.
He holds me tighter and let's go. His sobs are heart wrenching,I feel like I'm incompetent for not being able to at least take some of his pain. But I look onto the brighter side,he is going through shit and I'm the first person he called to help him deal with it. I'm his shoulder he could rely on,he easily let me in and now I'm holding him,acting as his pillar during his breakdown.
"Jules,I want you to know that you can cry all you want. Let yourself feel those emotions,it's the only way to let go. Don't lock it in,it will damage you in the end,so cry." I tell him while rubbing small circles in his back.
He lets out even louder sobs,crying some more until his legs gave out and he crumpled onto the floor. I sat down with him still in my embrace,and held him even tighter. Letting him release all the pent up emotions.
After an hour later,I stood up to carry my precious gem to his bedroom. He passed out a few minutes back but he's still trembling even in his unconscious state,he also had hiccups.
Honestly I don't remember the last time I heard hiccups from anyone,I could have sworn that they don't happen anymore.
I climb up a flight of stairs to Julian's bedroom and upon entrance,I'm mesmerized by his choice of interior deco. Everything looks like it's well thought of,organized and tidy. Wow,I think I'm in love with this side of him.
I lay him down on his tidy king-sized bed slowly,careful not to disturb his sleep. He sure as hell needs this sleep.
I proceed to his bathroom to get a fee wet towels to wipe away the tears stains from his face,some balms to help ease the pain he will feel in his eyes when he wakes up.
I take my time cleaning him up while thinking about whatever it could be that turned my angel into a hot emotional mess. This episode he had is almost unfamiliar too me. Almost being the keyword.
After cleaning him up and tucking him into the soft, gigantic bed. I put away the wet towels and layed down with him. He slowly nuzzled into my chest,like on instinct, and I held him close so that I could release some of my warmth and pheromones to help him relax.
He breathes out finally,relaxing into my solid embrace as I also close my eyes,enjoying our current position a tad bit too much,that I find myself drifting off to sleep.