JULIAN OLIVAREZ
I was in the middle of a sweet nap when the sound of my doorbell interrupted and I had to wake up to open up for the only person I invited over.
I swear had it been anyone else disrupting my peaceful napping,they wouldn't live another minute. Nobody is allowed to get between me and my naps.
On opening the door wide,my jaw literally drops at the sight of a disheveled,panting celestial being that Adrien is.
"Did you come running here?" I finally ask him,moving out of the way for him to enter.
I walk into my kitchen and pour him a glass of water from the pitcher. He takes it and gulps it in one go.
"I needed this,seriously. Thank you for the water by the way." He speaks up after his breath was back to normal.
A whiff of his masculine sandalwood and ocean scent fills the room,it's a bit more than usual and really making me feel the urge to walk to him and get wrapped in the scent.
'Must be the fever' I say to myself and shake my head a little to snap out of it.
"You didn't tell me,why are you all sweaty and by the way please change into something. Your scent is too much,almost suffocating me." I sass in return. It's a defense mechanism,I don't want to lose my battle against my body that is literally pushing me into his space,to at least rub against or touch him so that I'm covered in his glorious scent.
"Oh,my bad. I'm really sorry,I didn't notice that i had released my pheromones." He whispers the last part under his breath.
Pheromones! Like the alpha werewolves I read about in my books!? Is he intending to say that he had this strong urge to be by my side as soon as I called that his body reacted in its own ways!?
Does that make me some sort of omega had it been omegaverse. I shake my head a bit to clear my mind and return my attention to the hunk in front of me.
"I came rushing here,thinking you are so badly off but here you are. Not like what your voice in the phonecall suggested." He raises his eyebrow,giving me n incredulous look.
"Well I remember telling you not to worry and pass by later if you can." I retort, with my hands folded in front of my chest and raise my own brow as if to tell him 'dare deny it.'
He lets out a sigh and slumps his shoulder raises his arms in defeat. We laugh a little before I take him to my bedroom so that he can take a shower and change.
I'm sure he is aware of the drill already,he walks into the bathroom on his own while I pick out some fresh clothes for him.
"Here, change into these clothes when you're done." I tell him after placing his clothes on the sink. He is taking a shower as there is mist covering the matte glasses around the showering area of the bathroom.
Yeah,it's that big. The toilet,jacuzzi tab and shower all have different glass compartments in one ensuite.
"Alrighty thanks Jules." Adrien bellows from his compartment and I just chuckle. Shaking my head at the sight,he is a big man acting like a child.
"You know you don't have to thank me Adrien. Finish up and join me" I then walk out of the bathroom,closing the door behind me to give him even more privacy.
Honestly I don't know why or how my relationship with Adrien is so easy. Like we haven't even been together for a long time but we are already this far into the friendship. I'm comfortable around him and seems like it's the same way for him as well.
I found myself thinking about the dream I got last night,what was that? Let's say it was a premonition,will I fall in love with Adrien and become gay for him? Not that I have anything against the gays but I honestly never thought of myself that way. I need to talk to my therapist about this new discovery.
I pulled out my journal to note this down. You see,my therapist told me to start journaling whenever I felt like I'm over thinking something. It has been helping and apparently there is progress lately. She also suggested that I start facing my challenges and addressing them. I'm still thinking
about it but I know deep down
within me that when the time is right,I shall do it.
I think I should confront her and give her a piece of my mind to tell her off. She has been pressuring me a lot lately and honestly,her bad timing is eating me up.
Like I have been going through a lot these past three months. First Matt and Issa,called off wedding,business meetings,therapy sessions,I've also met an amazing person,I don't want to lose him. I want to focus on the only good thing that is happening in my life right now. I want to nurture this fondness I have towards him.
My mother and Issandra could do whatever they want.
I might as well find love and leave them in my past. They never loved nor cared enough for me,why should I let them ruin my happy days with Adrien.
A fierce blush started rising from my neck to cheeks as I remembered Dr Sarah's remark about my journal.
"I think you're happy with this Adrien guy. He is a positive energy in your life,I think he is the only beam of color on your grey life." She said,smiling weakly in a motherly way.
I could not agree more,she described him the way I could have. He is the source of warmth in this cold world. He found me when I had lost myself and started putting me back together piece by piece and he cares. He checks on me everyday and shows up whenever I call. He is also patient with me and I noticed,he is especially gentle with me. Like I'm some delicate flower he wants to keep fresh forever.
"Your pen must be really tasty,you're flustered." I hear Adrien's voice speaking besides me before he plops down on the bed. I feel the bed dip as he goes around me and pulls me to lay into his arms.
"Come here." He covers me with the bedsheets and duvet, making me feel even warmer. "What were you thinking about?"
"I was thinking about how my life has changed since we met for the first time at that beach." I tell him only the half truth.
"I can't agree more with you. My life has also tremendously changed a lot with you in it. Thank you Julian,for being my friend." I can feel the genuine undertone in his voice.
There's definitely no need to doubt him.
I push myself forward and half hug him,to show him how much I appreciate his presence in my lone life.
I try to hold him tighter but failed miserably and settled with what I could get,his hands around my waist pull me even closer into him.
"Eww bro. This is gay,no homo! But gay is gay." I comment while pulling away to creat some distance between us. We both burst into a laughing fit at my playfulness antiques.
"I don't mind gay though." Adrien replies while sniffing around my neck like some fuckin' stoner.
"Hey look,it's snowing." Adrien say,pointing towards the window wall.
I shift in bed a little to be able to look at the falling snow flakes.
"No wonder I'm sick all of a sudden,it's winter already." I comment and Adrien covered me a little bit more.
"Yeah it's a little earlier than usual. Your birthday is in few weeks,what plans do you have for it?" I was about to ask him how he knew bout my date of birth when I recalled that it's allover the internet. Perks of being famous,no privacy at all.
"I don't want to celebrate that day anymore. This year,unlike the others where I waited eagerly for 21/12,this year its not the same." My voice almost cracked while replying to Adrien's simple question.
It's funny how even the one day I used to look forward to every year was always a mirage. I have always hated my existence and felt unwanted. Why did I even want to celebrate the day I was born into this world,which I have been wanting to leave for a very long time?
Better to stop celebrating once and for all after all even when I invite people I used to assume close,none showed up.
"You're doing it again. What is it? You keep zoning out a little too much today." Adrien asks while bopping my nose with his index finger.
"Sorry,I have no plans except for staying indoors and hibernate." I reply with all honesty.
"I want to invite you to my house. We could do whatever activities you wanna try out. Maybe even go swimming,how do you see?" Adrien suggests.
There is this glimmer in his eyes,that's more like that of a child when given their favorite candies or toys.
"Okay, I wouldn't mind a swim." I cave in to this soupy offer winning myself that beautiful smile from the most beautiful man laying down in my bed.
"Good boy" He unconsciously praised while nodding his head a little.
The rate at which my body temperature rose could win me a world record. I think I have a praise kink or is it just praises from Adrien.
I hide my face in my pillow to hide it away from Adrien before he noticed.
"You don't have to hide your beautiful face from me. I love it even more with a little color,in fact I think I love the red on your cheeks." He whispered close to my ears,his hand not moving from my waist.
"Oh please.... Are you flirting with me?" I teasingly asked because it looked like he was flirting and it was working.
"What if I was!"