JULIAN OLIVAREZ
My breath hitched in my throat, I honestly never expected that reply.
I raised my face to look into his eyes and read his features but it seems he is serious. There isn't even a single flake of sarcasm,he must be meaning his words.
"You like like me?" I found myself asking.
Does that mean that my dreams have been telling me what's going to be happening in my life?
From the first time I met with Adrien,I've been having these dreams,I don't think it's just mere dreams anymore. It's more of premonitions and I know better than to act against my instincts.
"Yes Jules,I like like you. I tried so hard to not confess my feelings for you but I think I can't anymore. I have liked you from the very first time that I set my eyes on you. I knew it is you I wanted,but the time and circumstances weren't favourable." He paused,breathing out before continuing.
"I know it's not the direction you wanted our relationship to go but please,give it a thought. Don't just shut me out,I will give you all the time you need to adjust. If you want us to remain as friends,I will try to do as you wish."
His words sound sincere,he is speaking from his core. I don't know what to do or say at this very moment.
Am I going to let him in so quickly or just wade him out of my life. He is genuine and sincere,I doubt he has any ill intentions. Also the fact that my body feels like in his arms is where I belong. What more signs am I waiting for?
I shuffled a little bit,lifting myself to be directly face to face with him. There is hesitance floating in the air,we both don't know what to do next.
My hand found its way at the back of Adrien's neck while my lips clashed with his. He snapped out of his haze and kissed me back,with vigor and gusto. It's like we're exchanging our feelings that don't need words to explain,his even stronger than mine.
I have never kissed a man before nor have I been kissed by a man ever in my life. This is really different from my expectations. It's even better,Adrien's luscious lips taste really good as they look. I could kiss him until I ran out of breath and not regret.
"That is my answer." I whispered breathlessly after pulling away from his delicious lips that I could never grow tired of tasting.
He pulled me into him and connected our lips once more. We moved in sync with each other and before I knew it,his tongue penetrated into my warm cavern. It was lewd and erotic but I loved it regardless,I didn't even put up a fight for dominance as I let him explore my mouth.
I basked into the kiss,warmth and his delightful aura that I didn't notice our bodies grinding against each other. Adrien's hand roaming all over my back as we exchanged unspoken promises and feelings.
I tapped on his shoulders,letting him know that I need to breathe a little. He pulls back with a warm smile,letting me take in the much needed fresh air.
"You made me hard." I shamelessly accused him for my current situation.
"You keep getting cuter by the day. I'm no different from you Jules." He lifts my face up by the chin,giving me a chaste kiss on my lips.
"Your eyes are brighter,it's almost like they are glowing." I informed him about my realization.
"It's from how much love I have for you my dear,only you can make me feel like this." I have no choice but to let myself feel the love he has for me,it's in the air around us. I can tell.
"I love your eyes,they are unique and gorgeous. I could look into them all day,they are like galaxies." Believe me you,his heterochromia is unique and now that they glow,I've fallen for them face first.
"If only I had expected things to turn out this way,I would have confessed earlier. Thank you for accepting me Jules." A sense of dejávu washed over me.
These very words are the ones from my dreams,I have no doubt about it as they've been reoccurring.
"You're just lucky I've been marinated enough by the universe for this day."
"What do you mean?" He is tense,I can feel it the way his hold tightened.
"I have been having these dreams or visions or whatever you could call it. They were always about you and I but the latest one felt more like a warning. Like someone wanted me to stop the pain I could put you through if I kept on denying my feelings for you with my stubbornness. " I go ahead and tell him about the dream I had this morning,where he was perishing the more I rejected our feelings.
He hugged me tighter in his chest as he kissed my head mumbling apologies.
"Seems like the universe is team me." Adrien joked when we pulled back from that hug.
"Yeah it sure is. And I know better than to act against it. I like you Adrien." I peck his cheek a few more times.
"And I like you too Jules."
We talked for a while before we were interrupted by loud growls from my belly.
"I must be punished,how could I forget to feed you my sick angel." Adrien rose up from his laying position and tucked me in my sheets before walking away. Possibly to get me something to appease my stubborn stomach that keeps growling.
I'm left alone with my thoughts and for the first time,I'm not bothered. I can't believe that I confessed my feelings for Adrien to him. What was I even thinking? It's like my mind was clouded as I let my body take control over my reasoning.
I can't say I didn't enjoy the feeling while it lasted but still can't help but think that I was haste in moving on.
Everything with Adrien just flows naturally that I lose my footings whenever he's around. Last time he was here he told me he liked me and honestly,I had given it a thought. I believe he just changed direction of his words but he meant it then. He has liked me for a while and if he says it's from the first day we met,then it's true.
He held in his feelings for me for close to three months now. It might have been out of fear of rejection or respect for me and my choice.
I had also told him that I was engaged with a female,maybe that also constitutes to the reasons why he was hesitant about confessing his feelings.
"Here's your breakfast my sweet angel." Adrien says while placing the small tray in front of me.
"Breakfast in bed! I could get used to this pampering." I commented while sitting up and leaning against the velvet headboard of my bed.
"And I would gladly serve you,my prince."
"Stooopppp!" We both laugh for some while before my next growl came out.
"Wow,let's feed that fierce tummy." Adrien starts spoon feeding me a little of everything on the tray. From the veggies,fruits,toast,omelet and then tea. He made it exactly how I like it.
I moaned at the taste of everything I'm fed,it seems like my tastebuds have elevated sense of taste all of a sudden. Or maybe it's the hunger,I don't know.
After having breakfast,Adrien placed the tray away and pecked me on the forehead. I gave him a smile in return as he walked away to take it back to the kitchen.
He returned with a bottle of water and ibuprofen and gave them to me. I swallowed the tablet and layed back down.
Adrien moved around the bed and lay with me in his arms. We stayed like that until we both drifted off into the realm of dreams.
Seems like my gay gene has been activated.