Day 8
Today was great. My husband didn't text me much. The boys opened presents and they all seemed genuinely happy with their gifts. A friend came over, left; then came back to spend the night. Another friend stopped by for a bit. My son shot that friend in the eye as soon as he entered the apartment with the Nerf gun. It was wonderful watching my older boys play with their little brother and have a Nerf war while me and a friend talked.
I cooked bacon, eggs and waffles for breakfast / lunch or brunch. We all woke up pretty late. I wished everyone a happy holidays and also publisher chapter in my newest book. I discuss with a friend her being my new unborn child's godmother! Her flying back to KC in 2025 and every few years to do an Enchanted Fairies photo shoot. She seemed so excited.
We watched Krampus again and played Cards Against Humanity; which made me think all these kids need medical treatment, LOL! I am so grateful and happy that money and abundance flow to me with ease.
I want to work hard at being more silent. I want to watch and observe more than calculate; as to pick my words better and accurately. I also learned that I have an Anxious Attachment style that I want to research and learn to be more secure within myself. My biggest flaw right now is that I am definitely not the independent woman I used to be!
I need to learn to trust and be less dependent on my husband. I need to stop seeking my husband's approval and reassurance. I need to be less controlling and having more free spirit. I want to attack my jealousy issues and abandonment issues head on! I want to stop feeling so worthless and value myself more! I need to stop tolerating toxic and healthy behavior because I am lovable! I am grateful for my relationships with my son's!