"I'm not leaving the drama club." I replied.
Then drink water and leave the table.
I went straight to my room. And stare at the painting on the wall. I smiled bitterly. It just happens again and again because it always happens. When I was in Art club. He stole the painting I worked on. So even if it's a mixture of time. I made a new one.
When I got first place, I passed. And the one he stole took second place. Papa beat me. Because sister Lira wants me to leave the Art club.
Because I insulted her. I made it appear that she stole my work. And if I don't leave she will kill herself.
Since we both know how to draw. So in Papa's eyes I am the liar.
Actually all of us siblings know how to draw. Because we inherited from dad.
But if there is an artist among us, it's me and sister Agua. Her mother is also a painter. And because I idolized her. I also dreamed of becoming a painter.
But we were not able to exhibit our works. Brother Tonton is the only one who buys sister Agua's work and he keeps it. Mine was destroyed and my father burned almost everything.
I wiped my tears. I can't help but be hurt. While watching my last painting. Brother Leo just hid it so it was saved from papa's hands.
I couldn't paint anymore because my father crushed my hand. For his favorite child. I still remember how I could barely hold anything back then.
And that's what will happen again if I don't leave the drama club. Because she wants to star but Alex chooses me. Then dad will beat me again. I'm moving to the camera club. That's it again. Sister Lira will join. I will know that dad will beat me again.
It was Albert who said that instead of joining clubs at school. I'll do sports. Because women and men fight in different divisions. That's the only way I can avoid sister Lira.
He said I should try to play basketball and he would teach me. But brother Aris and brother Leo objected. Because of my gender.
So I joined the volleyball team. But while I was learning volleyball, Alber was teaching me basketball.
So that what I'm holding isn't just a book. Because if I raise sister Lira's score in quis man or periodicaltest even by one point I will be beaten again.
When we became in a relationship, dad kicked me out. Without wearing anything. As in naked. It's good that Albert was there, he took off his pants and let me ride. Then he put me on his back and took me home to the apartment he was renting.
He also let me into the studio where he was going to work. Because I'm smart. It's only been a week that we've become equally good mechanics.
One day sister Agua became our customer. Because of my appearance that day. He got angry and took me home. Dad didn't like it at first. But when they finished talking with dad in his office at home. I live there again. Sister Agua did not allow me to go back to my work at the studio.
At the same time as I returned home, Albert became cold towards me. Then less than three days. It was said that Albert and sister Lira's wedding. After that conversation, the next day they got married.
They left me alone at home. Because I'm just an idiot. I don't know what came into my mind. I scraped all the stuff in dad's office. That's when I found out the day I reported. They already know everything.
I felt that they all united me. My parents are my siblings. When people I loved especially sister Agua and Albert. So I went to church carrying the pictures of me and Albert and the betrayal of sister Lira and brother Tonton. Not to oppose marriage. But to commit suicide. After all, no one will love me because of my gender.
While I was crying and staring at my painting. Sister Agua hugged me from behind and rested her chin on my shoulder.
"Why is that, sister? Why am I the one who always has to be patient?" Ate Agua tightened her hug on me. "Sister, I want to make a painting again." my voice screamed. I raised my hands. "But every time I hold a pencil my hands tremble. I feel like that's the last time I'll be able to hold anything." I sat on the floor. "And I'm going to hold a pain brush. I can't feel my hands. I hope they just killed me!" I shouted.
"Stop. Sister will find a way to paint again." sister Agua whispered to me
I don't know how long I cried. When sister Lira arrived.
"What are you doing here? You're afraid that I'll be the star. Well, I should be the star. Because I'm a woman and the role of a princess is more suitable for me than someone like you. Gay." she insulted.
I took the caterer from the mini table next to my bed.
"Get out of my room. If you don't want to, I'll slash your neck!" I said angrily.
"Gemini. Lira is still our sibling." said sister Agua while trying to stop me.
"Sibling? Even when she didn't consider us as her sibling. Because if she considered us as sibling. Until now I can draw. She never have affair with your husband." I said while crying.
"Papa! Gemini is going to kill me, help! Papa!" she shouted while hysterical.
Before dad arrived, sister Agua got the caterer from me.
In front of all of them I lost my temper and broke the vase in my room. I threw everything I could throw. I also destroyed my last painting.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
And in the morning. I woke up and I was in the hospital. I grabbed my neck. That's when I realized I was going to slit my throat in front of everyone.
I did not pick up a piece of broken vase. And I threatened that they would allow sister Lira to take away the drama club from me. I'm going to die.
But sister Lira accompanied me, she grabbed the cuter from sister Agua and threatened to kill herself if she obeyed what I wanted.
Seeing that they were more worried about sister Lira. So I ended up slashing my neck with the vase piece. Sister Lira released her hold.
Until the end, dad and mom didn't care about me. They were even more worried about Lira.
"You fool!" Alex said angrily while beating me. "Why aren't you thinking? Ha! You know we have a play today. You did it to yourself! You should finish the play first." he couldn't stop crying. He hugged me. "You worry me too much." I cried in his arms.
"Alex, help me. I don't want to go home. I'll just die there." I begged.
Uncle Gary, Alex's dad, heard that. So they asked me to check up.
That's when they found out I had depression. Dad just laughed at that.
"You're going to believe that, you're just paying attention," said dad. "Fucking gay." He insulted me even more
Uncle Gary couldn't stand it and kicked Papa.
"If you can't be with Gemini. I hope you just adopt him."
"Adopt? Do you think anyone will adopt from that plague? Is it because your son is also gay? You forgot that God created only women and men."
Uncle Gary punched dad again. I think it was stronger because he sat on the floor.
"Don't blame God for this! Yes, my son is gay. Like Gemini. But they are sensible people, not like your favorite child." Uncle Gary said while showing a picture of sister Lira and brother Tonton kissing.
I can see it in dad's eyes that he is not shocked. But at the first opportunity he raised his hand to sister Lira. Papa slapped her in front of us.
"Dad?" he said in disbelief and surprise.
I can't stop laughing.
"You've known for a long time, haven't you?" my tears flowed. I saw the look on dad's face when I hit him. "What is wrong with sister Lira and you always indulge her? Sister Agua is also your daughter. Papa, sister Lira is not your only daughter! We are your children too! You are already hurting us. Can't you see that!" I said angrily. .
Papa didn't say a word to my complaint. But he pushed me out of the house.
"Get adopted if you want. Remember this. I don't care if you die on the street. Because you're a plague!" he said while pushing me out of the house."
"That's right, don't send him away. He'll be sorry. I'll just talk to him," said sister Agua.
"Sister, no. I will not apologize to your father." I said then left the house.
I want to take it with me when I leave. But I can see in his eyes that he will not leave the house. Because that is the only memory of his mother.
Ate Agua followed me. And tried to pull back home.
"Gemini, please don't leave. Apologize to dad." When he begs. "Please don't leave."
Continue....