The last couple days had been a wild ride. Wilder than Katrina Shin's 28 years of life.
First, her childhood best friend's lawyer called her and told her that Katrina was appointed as guardian to his 3 years old daughter. That was weird and shockingly legal as her name was on the child's every government's record instead of the mother's.
She never knew that!
That was the danger of having a best friend as close as a brother who literally knew every single detail of one's life.
Anyhow, Katrina was an independent woman making her own money. She could and she would raise this kid. She flew to Otta to meet the lawyer, stayed for a week to complete the paperwork and bonded with the baby.
Her name was Lin Zhi and she was a bubbly and babbling arm's length human, with a high nose and bow lips like her father, and Katrina's favorite.. a chubby tender cheek.
"Ma.. Mamama.. Mama… Mama.."
Katrina took the toy Lin Zhi almost put in her mouth, warned her with a stern glare and resumed talking: "No, you don't have to, Aunty. My flight is the day after tomorrow."
"What are you saying? You are family! You must come. Siyuan can't come, but you're here in Otta. You must come."
That was the second trigger of the main shit show.
The Zhangs were enthusiastic, treating her with warmth and love, and although a bit shocked by Lin Zhi's appearance, they still welcomed the two with open arms.
In the evening, she was arranged in Zhang Siyuan's room and accidentally dug out a diary he kept before his debut. Although she knew that it was immoral and unethical to dig through someone else's diary, she really wanted to know how she felt in her boyfriend's heart.
So she casually flipped through two pages, but at this glance, she discovered the big secret.
In fact, she had previously suspected that Zhang Siyuan's feelings for Liu Fei were unusual. The explanation he gave was that the two grew up together, and their parents were familiar with each other, so the relationship between the two has always been like that of brother and sister.
Katrina felt that what he said made sense, she was close to Lin Zhan too after all.
But she saw in his diary a Zhang Siyuan who was obsessed with Liu Fei and deeply affectionate.
The end of the diary was July before his debut, and this date had been more than two years since they had been dating. However, as his official girlfriend, she never appeared once in his diary.
Twenty percent of the diary mentioned some trivial matters in his life and future plans, and 80% mentioned Liu Fei. He also gave her a nickname "Rose". She remembered that when he debuted, the album was called "Miss Rose".
Moreover, she discovered something scarier.
In the diary in February, two years prior to their dating, Zhang Siyuan mentioned that he went all the way abroad to watch Liu Fei's ballet performance but bumped into a scene where she and her rich second-generation boyfriend were embracing each other intimately. He spent almost half a page describing it. He was so hurt and angry, and he even asked her at the end why she did this to him.
The following month, she remembered Zhang Siyuan came to her on the pretext of work, and then proposed to date her. He said that he had liked her for a long time.
Katrina had always admired him, he had good character and was talented, but because of her inferiority and self-esteem, she had never revealed it. The person she admired actually liked her. You can imagine how surprised she was, so she thought about it for a long time before agreeing to date him.
He liked Liu Fei so much, but he confessed to her the next day. He just wanted to find someone to heal his wounds, or to balance his psychology, and she was unfortunately the rebound.
When the relationship with Liu Fei eased, he never thought of her. The emotions he revealed in his diary were completely dependent on Liu Fei's attitude toward him. When Liu Fei became intimate with him he expressed happiness, but when Liu Fei was cold to him, he expressed depression.
She still remembered that Zhang Siyuan seemed to be in a bad mood every time he came to see her. He was probably injured by Liu Fei, so he thought of her and came to her to find comfort, right? And almost every time she would try her best to comfort him.
Katrina remembered the date on his diary very clearly. On this day, she was hospitalized with a severe cold. She called him and he said that he had something to do at school and couldn't come. Looking at her, he expressed his concern for her sincerely. No matter how true or false his concern was, she was very happy at that time. However, while she was lying on the hospital bed and lamenting the good words of her boyfriend, he was on the other side of the world and recording another woman's ballet performance when they'd been dating for over a year.
Katrina had been working hard to be Zhang Siyuan's girlfriend for the past ten years.
Zhang Siyuan was a popular idol and a superstar. He couldn't announce his relationship to the outside world, so she kept to herself and quietly became his invisible girlfriend.
He was busy with concerts, fansigns, and filming, but she has never complained about him. A phone call came, hoping that she could accompany him, so she put down her work and rushed to Zhang Siyuan to comfort and encourage him.
He said that he was currently on the rise and could not get married. He asked her to wait for him, and she really kept waiting and was being played by him like a fool. If she had not seen his diary, if she had not known Zhang Siyuan's feelings for Liu Fei and his attitude towards her, she might've been a fool for the rest of her life.
She was really down bad for him, huh?
At the beginning, she really didn't understand why Zhang Siyuan liked Liu Fei so much and wanted to be with her. After thinking about it for the past two days, she finally understood. He had always regarded her as a pastime, and maybe sometimes he still wanted to be with her. As a tool to take revenge on Liu Fei, he was just playing with her feelings from beginning to end and never really loved her. To put it bluntly, he just used her as his spare tire.
He said that he would not touch her before getting married, so after ten years of dating, their most intimate actions were limited to holding hands. At that time, she felt that he was really a reliable man.
If it was only the diary, Katrina would've thought it was just in the past.. but she found them kissing passionately in the underground. It was an elite apartment complex. A lot of celebrities and executives from their company live here.
Just how confident they were not to get caught? Or.. did people catch them and never say anything because their agency bribed them? No, they don't have to, nobody knew Katrina was Zhang Siyuan's girlfriend. As far as they were concerned, it was just stars having a fling. They worked in the same industry, they knew when not to know.
That scene really fucked her up.
Katrina always thought he didn't stay close to her because he respected her, but the truth was because he didn't love her. He kept his sincere heart and pure body for his Liu Fei.
A few days ago, Katrina had been trying to contact Zhang Siyuan after returning from her hometown, but his mobile phone had been turned off. She called his agent and assistant. Both of them said that Zhang Siyuan was rushing for an offline event, so she pressed on them again. After two sentences, the two of them began to hesitate. Judging from their hesitating attitudes, she guessed that Zhang Siyuan was probably with Liu Fei at this moment, and they obviously knew it.
The relationship was lowkey, but it was known to them. Everyone regarded her as a fool and laughed at her as a joke.
The image of the two people kissing passionately in the parking lot opposite was imprinted on her head and recorded in her latest smartphone.
Liu Fei's white and tender arms hooked around Zhang Siyuan's neck, and she started kissing him from the moment he got off the car, until he reached the edge of the elevator, and then hugged and kissed him into the elevator.
Until the two people disappeared in the elevator, Katrina Shin's hand was still on the half-open glass window. Knowing in her heart was one thing, but seeing it with her own eyes was another.
She didn't know how long it took before she slowly took back her hand. The fingers holding the phone were still shaking uncontrollably. She opened the video she had just taken and watched it over and over numbly.
Katrina's heart throbbed so hard that she couldn't even move.