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Chapter 11 - Chapter 11 - Part 1

It was another Friday, and today was my last working day before the so-called business trip! I looked at the calendar and was a little horrified, the twenty-fifth of September, almost a month has passed since that fateful evening on the last days of summer! The upcoming weekend should be very eventful, Lera is planning to make the last adjustments to my appearance, and we also plan a shopping trip! "A girl should have a choice of clothes for any situation, and you will not be an exception" - Lera told me something similar at the beginning of my transformation, now I completely agree with her and catch myself in a little excitement!

At the end of the working day, Alex was waiting for me near the parking lot.

- Do you mind if we are going somewhere for a while?

- Would you like come to my place a little later?

- No! – He answered a little abruptly. – Today is the last day when I see you like this... I would like to chat with Victor.

After a short discussion, we decided to go to the restaurant where I lately have lunches with Lera. We chose the most secluded table so that our slightly strange conversation would not attract unnecessary attention.

- I wanted to talk with you, as we did before.... - Alex said those words as if they were weighing on him.

- But the upcoming events are already taking their toll on our relations, and I can see that you are just as uncomfortable as I am. - I completed sentence of my friend.

- Vic, are you sure we should do this? If you want, we can end this whole story right now!

I tilted my head slightly looking at Alex. All my gestures took on a more feminine air. Although I made an effort for this, I could no longer switch to normal behavior.

- Are you worried about my feelings or are you just afraid to admit to yourself that now you have doubts?

The man in front of me stayed silent for a while before answering:

- I think I'm just trying to shift the final decision on to you, because you right I'm a little bit scared now that it's become so real!

- I have decided everything for myself a long time ago, I made too much effort to quit now. Besides, you invested so much money in my transformation…

- Money is a trifle! The real question is what might happen between us!

- Mutual attraction, with sex as possible outcome, didn't you want it yourself? - It was hard to spell, as it was against my nature!

- It seemed like something fun at the time... I didn't realize how much different you will become... - the man was sitting with his hands on his head, clearly not quite understanding his feelings.

- Alex! You have another six days to decide, after all, it was your idea! I will continue my preparations! - I made short pause - You know, I probably already get what I wanted, and if you refuse, I'll be fine with it!

– I stood up, leaving my friend alone at the table and left the restaurant. I perfectly comprehended all his feelings, I myself had similar thoughts, but I definitely did not want him to sow additional doubts in me, now when it was already just the last step left to take!

(Author's notes. From now on, Victor will talk with people as if he is a woman. But in his thoughts, he will still address himself as a man. Unfortunately, I do not know how to show this in English without constantly resorting to footnotes like "he said it in a feminine manner")

The next morning, I went to Lera place again, although this time just a backpack wasn't enough to fit everything I needed today. Last week I started noticing that the hair on my body started growing again, and now it was irritating me, especially considering that I shouldn't have done anything with them to make today's depilation go more smoothly. I chuckled slightly at the thought that came to my mind about how much I had changed over the past month, or rather, that I had allowed myself to get into the role of a girl! It changed my perception a lot, especially the way I began to relate to my appearance! It became uncomfortable for me to wear men's clothes and even the thought of wearing boring men's underpants caused aversion!

As soon as I entered Lera's apartment, she immediately began to boss me around:

- So, Vicky, did you bring everything I was talking about? Hope you haven't forgot anything!

- I even sent you a photo before packing my bags so that I wouldn't forget anything for sure! – I answered the girl with a softer voice, which I diligently trained, although it was still impossible to say that it turned out well! This may take years, rather than a couple of weeks to master feminine voice!

- By the way, how was your last day at the office yesterday?

- As usual more or less! Although, guys wanted to incite me to snatch a drink at a bar to celebrate my business trip, but as you said, I should draw distance to not get attention to myself!

A little later, I watched with apprehension as Lera began to warm up the wax, last time this procedure made an indelible impression on me. Apparently noticing how anxiously I started fidgeting, the girl decided to calm me down:

- Don't fret so much, this time everything will be much easier! The first time is always more painful, and besides, I want to remind you that I bullied you on purpose back then!

- Mentally I understand this, but internally I'm still terribly scared! Although this time I'm even ready for pain just to get rid of this annoying body hair!

- It's funny to hear you say that!

- Isn't that how you want me to be? To make me behave more feminine? So now the body hair makes me feel untidy!

To my relief, this time waxing and sugaring went much easier, although I can't say that it doesn't hurt me! I gladly ran my hand over a smooth leg, of course, my skin was not as delicate as that of a real girl, but my efforts bore fruit, and my legs were pleasant to the touch.

Soon we started the next part, I again had the opportunity to plunge into Lera's wardrobe and even try on something, it caused me a pleasant excitement! I discovered that choosing an outfit can be a very fun thing to do!

- You look like you're enjoying this! – Handing me another piece of clothing for fitting, Lera said, smiling happily.

- Is that a bad thing? – I was looking with interest at the pencil skirt, which, unfortunately, most likely will not fit on my hips.

- Rather the opposite! I'm just a little surprised by your changes over the past week! Of course, you've been changing throughout this month, but today it's starting to hitch a ride!

- Do you remember I told you that I had a pleasant conversation with Max?

- Of course, I remember!

- So, I partially told him about my circumstances! And he said to me that I should try to enjoy this situation since I got into it! You and Alex also told me something similar, but from you it was more like an attempt to persuade me!

- So, my words are not so convincing for you! It's even a little insulting!

- Lera! – I looked at her with a derisive smile. – You've been manipulating me all this time, I'm sorry that I treated your words with suspicion!

- Guilty as charged! – The girl slightly spread her hands with open palms and shrugged her shoulders!

- In general, to put it briefly, I just decided to really take on this role and squeeze out the most while I pretend to be a woman!

- Aren't you afraid that you might get too hooked!!

- I think I've already done it! Look at me, I'm enjoying trying on clothes! – Despite all the restrictions that I tried to remove from myself, inside I continued to remain the same guy, with the only difference that for others I decided to become Victoria!

- Even a guy can have a sense of beauty, so don't draw conclusions in advance!

Half an hour later we finalized the selection of clothes, this time it was a loose black skirt with a length slightly below the knees and a red blouse with a high neck and a ¾ sleeve. Lera didn't really fuss with her own outfit this time, just wearing blue tight jeans and a white blouse! After spending a little more time on my makeup, we moved to our destination.

- You know, in fact, I'm used to being a brunette with curly hair! – I started the conversation while we were driving in the car.

- This wig surprisingly suited you! To be honest, I was too lazy to pick up something for you, considering that at that moment you only needed it for one evening! And that's why I just took one of my own!

- I think you dress me up in your clothes for the same reason! - I giggled a tiny bit.

- Partially! Although the main reason is that it is quite difficult to choose clothes for you without fitting! – By the way, since we're talking about a wig, do you have any preferences about hairstyle?

- I probably would like long hair! I've always admired women with waist-length hair!

- Believe me, it's such a pain in the ass! I had long hair when I was young! Besides it will be impossible to extend your hair so much anyway! 

- Then I don't know, for me it all just a dense forest!

- I think I'd like to lighten your hair! – Lera glared at me a little mockingly.

- Was that an insinuation that I'm dumb as a blonde?

- No, but it would be very difficult to argue with this assumption, remembering what situation you have driven yourself into!

- Not funny! – I turned away resentfully in the direction of the window.

- But seriously, don't you have any preferences at all?

- I already said that I would like long straight hair, if I remember, this hairstyle is called a foxtail! And as for the color, my natural one would be fine!

- Then it turns out that you will once again trust my sense of style?

- I think this will be the best solution!

- By the way, I wanted to warn that hairdresser is my girlfriend, and she kind of knows about you!

- So, how many people know about me? - I asked without hiding my irritation.

- Actually, she's the only one I've told! And by the way, you told your story to the manicurist yourself! – Lera retorted my unfounded complaint. – And in fact, I didn't really have much choice, I had to somehow explain to her why, instead of date with her, I'm going somewhere unclear on the weekends!

We stopped in the parking lot next to a large mall, because of the small number of available parking spaces, we had to walk a little, which caused me some difficulties due to the fact that today I was wearing a skirt, which, even though it was loose, still hindered movement.

Also, today I decided to wear heels, which added to challenges. By the way, it was a revelation to me that some women's clothing imposes such limitations! Nevertheless, I felt more confident, because I have to move more smoothly, and this gave me more feminine look!

- So, do you regret that you put on pumps? - Lera asked me after we walked up to the third floor.

- You said yourself that I need practice!

- To be honest, I wanted to slap you ass a few times because of how slow you move, but if forget about it, then it's looks pretty passable!

Passing by the shopping pavilions, we turned into a narrow corridor leading to the part of the building where small offices were located, one of which was our destination. I was glad to discover that this hairdresser was designed for two masters, which means that no one will really see me here.

A smiling girl came out of the back room. Remembering that it was Lera's girlfriend, I probably looked at her a little more intently than I should have. She was short and bit plump, but nevertheless an attractive girl with ginger hair gathered in a ponytail. She also examined me with interest with her expressive yellow-green eyes.

- So, as I understand it, this is the so-called Victor! – The girl cheerfully clarified, approaching closer to me! – I never would have thought!

- Victoria! – Lera corrected the girl. – Are you going to look at each other as something unseen?

- Sorry, sorry, I just really didn't expect you to make a man so beautiful and feminine! – The girl, smiling, held out her hand to me. – My name is Nina, if this mean girl suddenly didn't tell anything about me! – The girl nodded in Lera's direction.

- It's pleasant to meet you! - I shook her hand slightly, although such a greeting between the girls seemed somehow strange. - You can just call me Vicky!

These two girls in front of me looked and behaved so differently that it was almost impossible to imagine that they were dating! I was a little taken aback by Nina's simplicity and familiarity, and also by the fact that she did not hesitate at all to say that I was a man, somehow something like that brought me down to earth a little.

After a couple of minutes, I found myself in a chair, and Nina was combing my hair to evaluate options for what could be done with my hairstyle. For a month, my hair grew so that it was possible to gather a small ponytail, and the bangs began to cover my eyebrows.

- Well, sadly, there's not much you can do with such a length, although his hair is healthy and I can probably extend it up to his shoulders. – Nina kept glancing at Lera, who sat down in the second chair, which was not occupied.

- Well, I told Vicky that she shouldn't hope to get long hair!

- Maybe we should make her a long bob then? But straight or wavy? - Nina showed the approximate length with her palms, which was at the level of my shoulders.

- With her hair type, it's probably should be straight! And it's perhaps worth doing an angled cut!

- I think you're right, this way it would hide the flaws of his face! Then it remains to decide on the color, I think raven's wing color will suit him greatly!

- Nina, I understand that you are entertain yourself this way, but don't disconcert my girl's mindset by addressing her as a man! – Lera snorted with displeasure. – And as for the color, the blonde will suit her much more!

- Okay, I won't do it anymore, but it's really funny that such a pretty girl is actually a guy! In any case, Vicky, why are you silent, it is for you we choosing a hairstyle! – The girl looked into my eyes through the reflection in the mirror.

- To be honest, I can't even imagine how what you described looks like! - I answered, without hiding my ignorance.

Nina took out her phone, searched for something, and after a moment showed me a photo.

- Well, what will you say?

- It looks good, but is it possible to do this with my hair?

- I will try my best! – The hairdresser answered a little hesitantly. – What about the color? Lera and I have different opinions!

- Probably the same golden color as in the photo you showed! – Somehow, unexpectedly for myself, I realized that I wanted something different.

- A non-trivial task to lighten your hair so much! But the client's word is the law! – The girl giggled merrily and went into the back room for a while.

Returning, Nina stopped in front of Lera and asked defiantly:

- It will take me about four hours to finish work, what will you do, will you go do other business?

- You'll be angry if I leave now, won't you? – Lera, without getting up from her chair, gently pulled the girl to her, who slightly bent to kiss.

- I just think that your disciple will be more comfortable if she has someone familiar to talk with to pass the time. - A satisfied smile and a slight blush appeared on Nina's face.

The procedure, like Nina said, took quite a long time, at first, she trimmed my hair, then it was time for lightening, and in order not to loaf around while the paint was absorbed, the hairdresser took care of my eyebrows. Then followed the lengthiest part with hair extensions. However, regardless of the hours spent in the chair doing nothing, everything was not so bad, Nina was extremely friendly by nature and talked almost incessantly, while often involving me in conversation or forcing me to tell some funny stories from life. A couple of times she tried to talk about her love affairs, but each time noticing Lera's displeased reaction, she stopped in mid-sentence.

Almost all the time of the procedure, I sat with my back to the mirror so that the final result would be a surprise for me, but four hours later I finally saw myself in the reflection. I was examining the details of my new look and was shocked to the bottom of my heart by how the hairstyle change flipped the whole vibe of my image. I looked at the girls who were staring at me with a smile on their faces.

- So, what do you think? Do you like it? - Nina broke the silence, unable to contain her emotions!

- I do not know what to say, I did not expect this! But you definitely did a marvelous job! – I still could not really comprehend the changes that had happened to me. Probably it was mainly due to the fact that this was the first change that could not be rolled back so easily!

- I want to note that it's very fitting for you to be a blonde, but what suits you even more is to be a girl! You look so natural and sweet that it is simply impossible to conceive of you in any other way! – Nina came up to me and hugged me tightly!

After another twenty minutes we left the building and only then Lera spoke to me, I did not pay attention to it, but she did not exchange a single word with me during the entire procedure.

- Are you happy with your new image?

- I think so! Although now I'll have to get used to this new look!

- You adapt quickly! You already accepted a much more significant change in yourself! By the way, I would like to make one last adjustment in your appearance! - There was no usual categorically in her voice this time.

- Usually, you put me before the fact, but this time you seem to doubt. What's the matter?

- Everything that we did to you before did not drastically affect your appearance, even now you can get rid of this wonderful hairstyle by shaving your head.

- Will it be different with this one?

- I would like you to agree to lip augmentation, with this your face will turn more feminine even without makeup.

- But it will be permanent!? – I was more surprised than indignant at this proposal!

- No, it's not like that! I'm not suggesting you have a surgery, just inject a filler!

- And how long will I be having duck lips?

- God forbids! – Lera laughed! – We will only give them a more feminine plumpness and emphasize the cleavage! But it still remains with you for at least six months!

- Is it risky?

- If you don't have allergies, then not really, besides, we will go to a good clinic!

I pondered for a while, logic told me that I didn't need something like that at all, but at the same time I wished to become even more attractive!

- Lera, do you really think I should do this?

- Definitely! Besides, it will please your hubby!

- That's the last thing I care about! – Even before I announced my decision, I already regretted it! – Okay, let's do it! - I said with a mixture of doom and feigned joy.

- You won't regret it, I'm promise! – The girl, giggling merrily, hugged me tightly.

I returned home that day when it was already quite dark, and this considering that I did not stop by Lera's to change clothes. In fact, now it didn't make much sense, the changes in my appearance were almost impossible to hide, and therefore I now looked more like my sister, who by the way owned the apartment in which I lived. "I wonder what she would think of me if she saw me like this!" I thought to myself as I opened the front door. Going inside, I took off my shoes with pleasure, my feet were terribly numb, but at least there were no calluses.

There were benefits in walking on heels, it was nice for me to feel taller, but I think it's mostly because I'm still a man, I've always been a little sad that I didn't stand out in height! It could also be noted that the gait and posture acquired a more attractive appearance, but I definitely wasn't comfortable walking in pumps, although perhaps that's because I just wasn't used to it.

After changing into my home clothes, I decided to do what I wanted from the moment I left the hairdresser! Because of my shyness and restraint inherent in me as a man, I could not do this in public. I felt a pleasant excitement coming up to the mirror to finally check myself in detail! A pretty girl was looking at me from afar! Before the lip augmentation procedure, I had to take off my makeup, but even so now I still looked quite feminine. Coming a little closer, I began to examine my new lips, despite that the final result could be estimated only in ten days, but already now it was clear how plump my lips had become, and Cupid's bow had become much more expressive! Unfortunately, the effect of anesthesia will wear off pretty soon, and I will face the pain of the procedure! With a sad sigh, I noted to myself that over the past month I have spent every weekend with strict restrictions caused by changes in my appearance. There was no meaning to dwell on it at all, and therefore I began to examine my eyebrows. They became thinner and neater and due to this, the illusion is created that they lifted up, which made them look more feminine. And the most important thing is my new haircut! Straight blonde hair fell almost to the shoulders in front, and only half hid the neck from behind, which created a magnificent transition. Yes, I'll have to spend even more time now to styling my hair, but it's certainly worth it! I looked at myself and rejoiced like a little girl who is about to start dancing! For the first time I experienced something similar that evening when Lera showed me to Alex in a form of a woman, but now my emotions were much brighter! No matter how contradictory I feel right now, but I must admit that I very much like the changes that have happened to me! Perhaps Lera was right and even at this point I won't be able to become an ordinary man again, but if I allow myself to delve into these thoughts, I won't be able to be Victoria, and I kind of want to stay her for now!