Alas, all my steadfast determination to simply refuse was crushed by the broad smile of my boss sprawled in his chair of his office.
- Well, Vic, you've had a few days to think about my proposal! - His searching gaze seemed to bore into my very soul. – I understand that you have hardly come to a final decision, but do you have any thoughts about this?
Of course, I had some thoughts, but for some reason I couldn't voice them, sitting in the chair opposite Alex, I felt like a mouse foolishly trapped in the territory of a mater cat. Perhaps this was because now I was not sitting in front of my friend, but like an employee in front of the boss, in addition to our specific conversation, I still had to get a thumping for mistakes in the report I was making yesterday!
- I do not know what to answer you, to be honest, I still can't even understand why you need it at all!? – once again, I tried to move the topic at least a little, and not give a direct answer, especially knowing that my refusal would not be accepted and I would have to listen to the advantages of Alex's offer.
- You won't be satisfied with the answer that I was just curious, will you? - He stared at the ceiling and began to rub his hands lightly, as if trying to collect his thoughts. – We've been friends for probably about six months, and I've been watching your behavior. You are responsive, attentive and kind by nature! In the office, apart from me and Serge, you communicate mainly with girls, but you haven't tried to have a relationship with any of them! You are surprisingly able and love to cook, and you are also very neat. Even before your revelation, I was already thinking that if you were a girl, I would start courting you! – after a rather long tirade, he glanced straight into my eyes and continued. – On Friday I was perhaps too drunk, because in a sober state I would hardly have come to such a conclusion, but if you want to be a girl, then why not give you such an opportunity, besides, I can get something out of it myself!
— It all sounds so weird... even if you put me in a dress, lay on a ton of makeup and make me wear fake breasts, it won't make me a woman, I'll just be a man in disguise! – I shook my head sadly – And what kind of strange gender prejudices, all that you described does not make me feminine! Yes, I'm not a dork, but nothing more!
- Well, if it not makes you one, so be it, what's the problem!? Tell me, but without pretending and lying, aren't you attracted to the idea of being... okay, pretending to be a woman for a month? – there was such a strange motivation in his voice, which also tainted me with curiosity and desire.
- Without lying, okay! Yes, I would like to become a woman, but what you are offering me will not be able to give me these desired feelings, I rather be just disgusted with myself and nothing more!
Alex didn't let me continue and started talking as if he hadn't heard most of what I had just said:
- You finally admitted that you want to try it! That's great, let's discuss the details tonight, I'll tell you how I view it all! - His eyes seemed to sparkle, and he began to chatter instead of the usual measured speech.
- What!? – I was really surprised how everything happens according to his scenario, as if I don't even have a choice... - I didn't agree to anything!
- I am sure that after getting the details you will have no reason to refuse! Which restaurant would you like to go to talk about the details?
- Are you completely crazy to discuss such things in a public place!? – What am I doing, I answer as if I have already agreed to spend the evening with him!
- You're right, such things should be discussed in private, then let's do it at my house, and in the meantime, you will look at the apartment in which you will spend a month with me!
- Well, no! After all you've said, I have no desire to be alone with you, moreover, at your place!!!
- Are you scared that you won't be able to resist and spend the night with me? - Alex laughed loudly. – Don't worry, as a man you don't attract me at all!
- I don't understand anything anymore! Well, to hell with it, let's discuss it at my place in the evening, I'll be more comfortable on my own territory! - In the end, he achieved his goal, and we will discuss my transformation! Damn, it's like I can't get out of it, or I'm not even trying to do so?
- That's great! And Vic, about the report, for the first time I forgive you, given the circumstances, but from now on be more careful, and I'm waiting for the corrected version by the end of the working day! - Alex gestured to me that I was free to go. Damn, how immediately he switched to the boss mode!
Returning home in the evening, I began to clean up, it's not good — to receive guests in an untidy apartment! Having quickly finished with this part, I tried to estimate how much time I had left before Alex's arrival. "He usually leaves work last, plus he'll probably pop home to change, and then he will use a taxi to get to me, and I'm almost sure that he will stop by the store on the way to buy alcohol" – calculating that I have a little more than an hour left, I went to the kitchen to cook dinner.
After some time, I looked with satisfaction at the set table! "Add candles and wine and it will look like everything is ready for a date!" – Having voiced this, I was stunned! What the hell am I doing!? Considering the state of our relationship right now and that Alex will be telling me how he wants to turn me into his wife for a month, all my preparations could have sent the wrong signal! I was rushing to clear everything off the table, but the doorbell rang treacherously! Cursing myself, I went to receive a guest.
(Note: until the end of the evening, Alex will address Victor as female, but since it is not possible to convey it in English, you will have to just keep it in mind)
Alex was standing on the doorstep, all dressed to the nines in a suit. Stepping over the door, he handed me a bouquet of red roses "This is for you, my dear!" - pleased with his joke and with a smile from ear to ear, Alex said, and then handed me a package containing two bottles of red wine. "Well, it's just wonderful, now it really looks like nothing else but a date," - I thought to myself and accepted the gifts. We went into the living room and while I was looking for a vase for flowers, my guest sat down at the table.
- Wow, I see you were preparing for my arrival! I haven't had a chance to appreciate your cooking for a long time! – Alex specifically emphasized what he said as if he was addressing the girl.
I began to feel the blood rushing to my face, the whole situation was very embarrassing, and also these gorgeous roses in my hands! Although I will not hide it, for some reason I was very pleased with this attention, only this reaction is more suitable for a girl.
- Are you going to talk to me like I'm a girl!? – Trying not to show embarrassment, I tried to be indignant.
- And why not!? At first, I said this simply as a joke, but seeing that you have prepared for our date, I think it would be appropriate to continue in this mindset! - The playful smile never left his face. – Besides, in a sense, today I'm going to make you a marriage proposal!
- Let's do it without this! – I sulked my cheeks and left with the vase I found in the direction of the kitchen.
Returning to the living room, I went to the bedside table to put flowers, simultaneously watching Alex pour wine into glasses. Inside, something was moaning about the wrongness of the whole situation and with some kind of inescapable impotence, I sat down opposite my guest. This evening, in any scenario, will change our usual lives, but I don't know in which direction!
Alex held out his hand with a glass in my direction, but instead of a toast he said:
- Well, Victoria, let's start discussing our possible life together! – I clinked glasses without thinking and just sighed sadly, then Alex continued – Perhaps I'll tell you what I want from you! No matter how corny it may be, but apart from curiosity, I just want a little home comfort! To have someone who send me to work in the morning and meet me in the evening, to have someone to share dinner together! To lay cuddled while watching a movie before going to sleep! And it would be ideal to share a bed, but I have no right to ask you about it, besides, a lot will depend on how feminine you can become!
- So, you are not concerned with my consent at all, as long as I will look like a bimbo? - I interrupted his thoughts rather rudely.
-Of course, your consent is matter! – My interlocutor was no less indignant – But let's get back to this as we go! But remember, I'm not going to force you into anything!
- So basically, you just need a housewife!? - there was an irritability in my voice, I gulped down my glass of wine, as if it was to blame for something. – Wouldn't it be easier to hire a housekeeper and get yourself a cat?
- I have a housekeeper, even if she comes a couple of times a week! And it would be wrong to have an animal when I am away from home all day long!
- And to dress me in women's clothes and lock me in your apartment, is right!?
- You will have your own keys, and you can do whatever you want when I'm at work, although I would prefer that you stay in character for the whole month! - Alex also finished his wine and started refilling our glasses. – Besides, I want exactly you to live with me! I like you; I really do! Yes, as a person! And it's comfortable with you, and if you will look like a girl, then everything will be perfect!
I laughed hysterically! No, I definitely don't understand anything, only one thing is clear, I need to stop any communication with this person! Fortunately for me, the oven timer rang from the kitchen, great, there will be time to calm down a little while I finish cooking the main course!
A few minutes later I returned to the room with a plate in my hands with the baked meat on it.
- What a fragrance! – Alex's reaction was a bit feigned, but it was still pleasant, although he immediately managed to ruin everything with the following phrase! – And this is one of the reasons why you will be the perfect wife for me! You have a real talent for cooking!
- Okay, let's say I agree to become something more than your housekeeper for a month, but you want me to look like a girl, how do you imagine it?
- Before making this offer to you, I discussed the details with Lera, and she promised to help me, to make you look like a girl! – My eyes widened, in utter indignation I opened my mouth to start swearing, but Alex saw my reaction and started talking ahead of me – Don't worry! I trust her completely and she won't tell anyone about it!
- You! There's definitely something wrong with your head! Who else did you say that you want to make a wife for yourself out of your subordinate!? And what will Lera think of me now!? – my fists clenched so hard that my knuckles turned white, and if I had nails like a girl's, they dug in letting me bleed! Strange why I thought of that!
- No one else! And yes, her reaction was ambiguous, although it rather amused her, and for an addition for her salary, she agreed to try out her skills!!
I was filled with anger, I just wanted to get up and punch him in the face! To show that I'm a man, or at least prove it to myself! But after taking a deep breath and trying to calm down, I nevertheless asked:
- And how is Lera supposed to help me look like a girl? – actually, I was kind of curious to find out the details of his crazy plan, to try to understand what kind of insanity was going on in his head.
- I don't know if you are aware, but she is not just my secretary! She is also a certified cosmetologist! I also think you've noticed that she's obsessed with her looks! She promised that she would be able to prepare you in a month, although she immediately warned that full involvement would be required from you and it would not be an easy walk! – I heard so much enthusiasm in his voice only when he was talking about the hockey team of our city, of which we were both fans. – Besides, Lera will have almost unlimited financial access to provide you with everything you need for transformation! - Alex laughed remembering something – By the way, when I asked if a week would be enough for her to prepare you, she called me crazy! From the very beginning, she said that it would take at least six months for an acceptable result! Only I doubt that you would agree to it!
- At the moment, I don't think I will agree even for these two months!
- Vicky, why are you still so opposed to this? Most likely in your life you will never again have the opportunity to try something like this! I can see in your eyes that you really want it! – we looked at each other and the longer he talked, the more embarrassed I became!
- What you're offering me... it's just a perversion! And having done this, we will no longer be able to remain friends! – unable to withstand Alex's gaze, I looked away in embarrassment.
- Vicky, do you really think that after this we have a chance to remain friends? I'm even willing to bet that you're considering submitting your resignation! - Alex chuckled lightly and sipped his wine. – Our further interaction is possible only if you agree! Maybe we will even become more than just friends at the end, and for this I decided to take a chance!
- Your words frighten me! I'm straight! I prefer women! – for some reason, my voice faltered on the last sentence…
- What are you risking? I have already said more than once that we will have sex only if you want it yourself! If after a month spent with me, you will have a desire to never see me again, then I will even give you a good recommendation and a severance package in the amount of six average salaries!!
- It sounds like you're buying me, like I'm some kind of whore! – Although it sounded tempting, but my pride was more important!
- I don't mind if you like it that way! - Alex poured the leftover wine into his glass.
- Apparently you don't know me well, assuming this!
- I'm sorry, it was a bad joke ... - his voice changed, I thought I even heard a note of regret. - I guess I just don't have anything else to entice you with. I really was almost sure that you would agree, but apparently, I was wrong. - Alex sighed sadly.
- I didn't say No yet! – I don't know myself why I said it, a couple of minutes ago I was firmly intending to refuse, but his dispirited appearance made me rethink...
- You, you may still agree!? – Alex seemed to shine, his shoulders straightened, and his eyes sparkled while greedily glaring at me! – Tell me what I have to do to get your consent!?
I was felt into thoughts. Alex was right about a lot of things. Yes, I really would like to take this adventure, even though I was scared that he did not exclude sex! For him it will be a fun experience! A boy or a girl, what difference does it make if both have a hole from behind! But it threatened me with loss of dignity! Although what dignity might a man have if he secretly wants to be a woman! He is also right that there will be no friendship between us in case of refusal, but nor in my consent, our relationship will become something completely different! And I don't even want to think about what it may become!
- To make a final decision, I need to talk to Lera, find out what exactly I will have to do to implement your plan! – Alex took a full chest of air to say something, but I held out my hand with a gesture indicating that I had not finished and that was not all! – And, in addition, if I agree to this transformation, I still have to be satisfied with the result to accept living with you for a month! If I will feel myself simply as a man in girly dress, then everything is canceled!
- Great! Then tomorrow I'll ask Lera to discuss the details with you after work! - He was almost jumped with happiness!
Then he was stayed for probably another half an hour while finishing the meal, but the conversation somehow didn't really stick, and therefore we sat almost in silence. Then I walked out into the foyer to see him off!
- Thank you for a wonderful evening! – Alex suddenly came up to me and placed his arm around my waist, after that he bent down a little and kissed me on the cheek. The suddenness paralyzed me. – I am very glad that you do not exclude the possibility of becoming my wife!
For the first time, I realized how much Alex is bigger than me! I myself was of average height, just a bit under one hundred and seventy centimeters and weighed about sixty kilograms, he was at least one and a half times bigger than me and a whole head taller! I was so small in his arms! I felt like a girl, completely defenseless in front of him, if he wants to take me by force, I won't have a single chance to oppose!
- What are you doing!? – gathering my thoughts, I was still able to push him away.
- You're so sweetly embarrassed! – he took my hand and raised it to his lips, kissed it gently, then stepped over the threshold. – See you tomorrow dear!
The door shut, and I was left alone in the apartment. My head was spinning, but it was unclear whether it was from alcohol or maybe the hugs affected me so much! I leaned my back against the wall and slowly sagged and then muttered softly under my nose: "What the hell have I done!" - In fact, I agreed to his proposal, and even though I still have ways to withdraw, deep down I realized that everything had already been decided!