My face completely flushed as i maintained eye contact with him, for literally like thirty seconds he was just staring at me, the annoying sub still moaning from the couch.
Without even thinking I got up rushing to him, getting there in less then two seconds pinning him to the door. He visibly flinched and gasped, suddenly trying not to look at my naked body.
"You fucking disgrace...." I mumbled, forcing his body down to the floor, "You did this to me," I growled forcing his arms above his head so he couldn't fight me, "Fix it." I demanded, pressing my... Manhood, close to his face.
He stared up at me, his cheeks clearly blushing, he didn't say anything nor did he try to fight me. "Don't just look at me pretty boy," I said, grabbing my peace and slapping it onto his face, "Open up..." I mumbled, he seemed to gulp, but hesitantly opened his mouth and put his lips around it.
I gasped, lifting my head up and pointing my nose to the ceiling feeling the warmness of his mouth, feeling his tongue flick around my tip and just thinking of the way his lips curled around me.
I gently pushed my hips forward and watched him choke about a third way down, makes sense. He probably hasn't sucked anything bigger then Jimin's three inches in a few months, maybe even years.
Seeing his eyes shut closed and his eyebrows forrow as he struggled to breathe made me even more desperate for a release. I got visibly more aggressive with him relatively quickly, giving him only a few moments before I started basically forcing myself all the way down his throat.
I saw a clear bulge in his throat. whenever I went inside, and drool literally squirting out of his mouth as I got faster and more aggressive. I could feel him start to struggle against me, clearly struggling to breathe and gagging every time I went deeper then halfway.
I tried to feel bad for him, but omg it feels fucking incredible, feeling his throat tighten, feeling the warmth. Just all in all feeling him at all, just touching his jaw while I was forcing it to stay open, just feeling his skin felt euphoric.
This was the first blowjob I've received in a good long three years, not counting Jimin a few days ago, cause I'd hardly call that a blowjob. So just that fact ads to the amount of pleasure I was currently facing.
As I said I was grabbing his jaw with one of my hands, using the other to keep his arms pinned above his head. As I got closer and closer I tightened my grip on his jaw, slightly forcing his head onto the wall whenever I pressed myself further into his throat.
Luckily for him I eventually pulled out and literally exploded onto his face, I don't think I've came that much before. Omg, his face is covered.
I was about to let the guilt slip in remembering his pained expression, but seeing him take it back into his mouth and letting the rest of the cum deep into his mouth made me think he was secretly enjoying it. It's not like I forced him to do it in the first place anyway, he willingly put it in his mouth.
I could see him gasping, and I clearly bruised his jaw along with his wrists, but seeing his face covered in my future generation. It's fucking amazing, but ultimately I couldn't stop the overwhelming feeling of guilt from washing over my body. I realized that by doing this it marks the second time I've cheated on Jimin.
Without saying anything to Taehyung I turned around and got a pair of sweatpants, shoving Taehyung aside and getting out the door before even pulling my pants up completely.
I saw Namjoon in the hallway, he was coming out of the elevator, he probably saw me pulling up my pants, along with my deck probably. I didn't really care about that, all I could possibly think of was Jimin and the way I kept betraying him. And somehow looking at Namjoon smiling at me, his voice appearing and telling me he wanted to take a swim with me and talk.
I completely lost it, wanting to wipe that friendliness off his stupidly handsome face, wanting to take out all my anger on him. I swung my arm up, this time not missing his stupid face. I wanted to hurt him, I wanted him to hate me. I wanted him to realize that I'm a bad person, and that I'm not worth getting to know.
The whole time he's been trying to spend more time with me, realizing his place in my mind and backing off for the day, then trying again tomorrow. I think I'm finally able to admit hes not trying to steal Jimin away from me. He's simply a friendly and playful person, that's been trying to get my attention the whole time. He wanted to befriend me, but I was too damn stuck up in my own problems that I hadn't realized and just immediately associated him with my biggest insecurity and fear. Which was losing Jimin, but I'm willing to admit now that he hadn't done anything wrong. And that for the past few years I was the one thats been pushing him away, and making him realize I'm not worth putting up with. But because he feels bad for me he sticks around.
How am I supposed to fix this? I've cheated on him twice, I treat his best friend like dog shit, and I'm the main cause for all of his body image issues and self worth problems.
I've ruined him, and he for some reason still loves me. I don't deserve this. Namjoon deserves him, just looking at him I can tell he'll be able to make Jimin happy. I can tell he'll treat him right, he'll give him the world. He'll be able to commit to Jimin, he'll be able to love him and give Jimin what he deserves. He'll be able to do what I can't, and that was the thing that made me hate Namjoon. That was the reason I was currently attacking him, because I couldn't stand the thought of someone else being with Jimin, and I couldn't stand the thought of him being able to be a better boyfriend to Jimin then I ever will. And I was winning in this fight.
I kept swinging and swinging and swinging my fists, not giving him nearly enough time to protect himself. At some point I was pinning him against the wall, ripping at his stomach with unrealistically sharp punches, I could see blood everywhere. He stopped moving at some point....
He was just a limp body for me to tear into, I could feel my newly added body parts throbbing at the blood. My ears were twitching, my nose was taking in every single bit of scent it possibly could, I looked down at my hands and realized the sharp nails clawing their way into his organs and ripping them out. I could feel my thangs throbbing in my mouth, eventually the blood became so overwhelming that I couldn't control myself from sinking my teeth into his skin.
Draining his whole body of blood, I could feel the satisfaction taking over my body. I swung my head away along with my whole body violently being thrown away, I could hear Taehyung screaming at me. His voice bringing me back into reality as I realized what I had just done.
I completely froze, my eyes widening as I slowly looked down and saw how badly my body was covered in blood. Human blood.
"YOU KILLED HIM!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!!?!!??!?! GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HIM!!!!!" I looked up at Taehyung, screaming and crying in fear as he tried to protect the limp body from me, I could literally see Namjoons organs smashed onto the wall. I could his ribs sticking out. I had literally torn his organs out of his body, I could see what used to be his heart behind Taehyung as he screamed at me.
A bunch of random things along with just plain screams of fear, but something that really stood out to me was, "YOURE A FUCKING MONSTER!!!! GO BACK TO HELL YOU FUCKING MURDERER!!!!!" Followed up with more cuss words and shaking in fear.
I was still trying to process everything I've just done as I dropped to my knees, I could hear the blood dripping out of Namjoons body even through all of Taehyungs screaming. My head kept replaying the way he said 'monster', it was like an eco, while his actual voice faded away.
My mind went completely blank, the only thing going threw it was 'monster', and the sight of fear on his face.
Everything started going blank, and it sounded like his screamed were going backwards, I opened my eyes realizing they were closed. The only thing I was seeing was a distorted image of Namjoons face. I started focusing on him and realized he was going backwards....
I realized his face was slowly yet quickly changing from fear, straight back to that friendly smile. I gasped jumping back into reality, looking around the hall seeing no blood and Taehyung no where to be seen.
But I did in fact see Namjoon with a curious smile looking at me, "You alright there mate? You zoned out just now."
Air felt hard to come by as I felt my body shaking, "Y-yea, what were you saying?" I asked, trying to act normal, also trying to figure out if what I was seeing was real or not.
"I asked if you wanted to have a swim with me, now that you're better." He seemed to have repeated his words, smiling and allowing his pretty dimples to make an appearance.
I stayed quiet for a moment, staring straight at him not knowing what to say, though I somehow managed to smile, saying a quick, "Sure, I was heading down anyway." Immediately noticing his relieved smile and almost sigh of relief. He must've been expecting me to be rude to him again.
He smiled brightly saying, "Let's go." Seeming excited, I stopped myself from walking with him realizing how hungry I was, and also taking in account that I'd need to stay in an elevator with him for a few minutes at least.
Doing the healthy thing and probably the safest thing for him at the moment I stopped him and said, "Let me just get some shorts first, you go ahead without me, and maybe get some drinks from the kitchen." Which he smiled to and nodded seeming drowned in excitement that I said yes.
He walked off and I could see him disappearing behind the doors of the elevator, I stayed frozen for a moment, taking I everything that's just happened.
I slowly turned around to go back to my bedroom to get the shorts, thinking I was having hallucinations, immediately I saw Taehyung staring at me from the door of my bedroom. He was crying still and he looked terrified.
"Was I just hallucinating that...?" I asked slowly and softly, seeing the fear in his eyes told me I wasnt, so I felt the need to ask.
"You're a monster..." He whispered, turning away from me and speed walking down the hall.