I put on my best brave face as I prepared myself to face Namjoon, I could see his back turned away from me as he lazed in the pool.
I held my breathe as I slowly walked closer to him, trying to take a peek at his face as I was terrified in case he was suddenly hurt again, he flinched slightly and looked up at me immediately smiling, "You scared me, you're so quiet," He laughed halfheartedly, looking up at me with pretty eyes, "Join me?"
Why does he suddenly look like that charming main character in a gay Thai show, specifically Thai, they have the best actors in my opinion.
I nodded slightly, gently tapping my feet into the water to see the temperature, not feeling anything I slowly got in a few feet beside him, keeping my distance from him and trying to avoid looking at his bare chest which suddenly seemed a lot more attractive to me.
He seemed to notice I was uncomfortable and avoiding his gaze as he smiled understandingly and got out, got his white t-shirt from the chair and got back in.
"It's okey, I understand you're probably uncomfortable with me... But I'm grateful you decided to give me a chance, I'm glad you're finally warming up to me." His voice was so.... I can't explain it. Reassuring? But in a hot way, why the fuck am I suddenly so attracted to him? I could admit he was hot before, obnoxiously hot, but now I can't keep my eyes off him.
Seeing him dunk his head underwater to get it out of his face....
Seeing the white shirt become completely see through....
Seeing the veins in his hand pop out as he grabbed one of the soda cans he and hand it to me....
I took it gently, staring straight at his hands, slowly traveling up his biceps and to his neck. I felt myself biting my lip, watching intently as the veins bobbed up and down in his neck, I could hear it. I could smell it.
Just seeing him, he looked so.... Appetizing....
I realized immediately once the word 'appetizing' came into my mind, I snapped out of my trance and looked back up at him, he seemed uncomfortable and had noticeably moved away, "You haven't eaten yet have you?..." He asked hesitantly, clearly making slow movements as he slowly backed away from me.
I hadn't realized it yet but this whole time I've been trying to scoot closer to him, and I also realized I was blindly flashing my thangs at him.
"I'm not gonna hurt you...." I mumbled, clenching my fists underneath the water as I tried to stop myself, hoping I'd have some self control. But feeling the way my thangs throbbed, the same way it did when....
I knew I wasn't able to control myself, so instead of putting him in danger I swallowed my pride and hope for self control and jumped out of the pool, he visibly fell and flinched but I payed no attention to him as I just speed ran into the kitchen.
Falling against the counter as my thangs began to ache in a way I've never felt before. I felt weak from the pain as I tried to find the blood that I knew was in there, I fell over onto the ground and broke a few plates, looking into the reflection of myself I could see my eyes swollen, and covered in dark red veins along with pointy ears.
I looked down onto my hands and noticed the same claws again, getting overwhelmed and desperate I started destroying the kitchen trying to find any sign of blood but there non.
I found some meat and desperately tried to drain it to drink from it, but the amounts I got out of it far from enough. I grabbed onto the countertop and literally broke it while gripping down.
I got a taste of his blood already, and now I was desperate for another. And I think the fact that I've exhausted my body so much made it even harder to deal with this overpowering hunger.
Seeing nothing else to do I screamed in pained, immediately trying to call out for Yoongi as I felt myself start to cry.
I've never been in this much pain before.
It's unbearable, at some point I got into the floor crawling into a little ball. Feeling every muscle in my body burning with hunger, screaming in pain and begging for Yoongi to help me.
And somehow he did, I could see him running into the kitchen with Namjoon stopping by the door, I'm not sure exactly where he went but I heard some noise, then almost immediately after he came in he had a bag of blood for me.
I grabbed it immediately sinking my teeth into it, drinking it desperately as my hand gripped onto yoongis who immediately held mine. I threw the empty bag to the side still sobbing in pain as I noticed another bag being handed to me, this time by very familiar tanned and veiny hands.
I grabbed the bag and slapped his hands away, "Get out.." I somehow managed to growl out, not sure what I'd do to him if he didn't and I didn't get a bag in time.
I drank the next bag, not even taking note of the inappropriate noises I was making, somehow turning from clear pain to somewhat pleasured. I was still in a hell loud of pain but the relief that came with the bags made me want to cry on its own.
I gasped, grabbing another bag from Namjoon who probably has a death wish at this point, drinking it a lot slower and more calmly and the pain subdued.
I dropped the empty bag gasping at oxygen, I realized how hard I was squeezing yoongis hand and immediately let go, I noticed it was severely damaged, but somehow healed back to normal the moment I let go.
That's probably why Namjoon was the one that kept feeding me, because Yoongi couldn't reach the blood while I was holding him down, "More... Please..." I begged, spreading my legs open and lifting them up so I could get my butt in the air, immediately being handed another bag and drinking it before getting up onto all fours.
I lost my balance and fell into yoongis lap, my torso over his legs and my head being protected with his hand. That was probably an instinct though, I don't need that kind of protection anymore.
I ended up just laying down enjoying the comfort his body heat gave me, being handed another bag I weakly drank it this time. Enjoying the disgusting taste while literally falling asleep on yoongis lap.
The next thing I knew I was back in my bedroom, I looked around tiredly and spotted a ready glass of blood, I debated it for a second and decided the life's of my friends are more important then my disgust for the blood.
I grabbed the blood and downed it, I seemed to be slowly getting used to the taste, which made me want to cry knowing I'd have to do this for the rest of my life if I didn't want to hurt anybody.
I pulled through without crying though and got up, getting my phone which was still on the couch, opening it to see what time it was. Right in my face the same porno popped up, almost immediately peeking my interest and getting me erect and upright.
"Great fucking timing, now you want to turn me on?" I mumbled to myself with a bit of a chuckle, sticking my hand in my pants and sitting down on the couch, watching intently as the sub was being forced to rub themselves onto the bars of the dog cage they were in. It seemed to be the same video that frustrated me so much earlier, just on a different spot of the 11 minute long video.
I bit my lip softly while my hand moved up and down quickly, I turned the volume down as the noises the sub was making still annoyed me. But it was freaking hot all of a sudden, got me to my climax just a few minutes after the video ended.
I didn't physically cum but I was satisfied, I chuckled at my own stupidity, realizing the only reason I didnt like it earlier was because I wanted Taehyung specifically. And stopping myself from thinking about him made it harder for my dick to be satisfied.
I got up and my pants up and went over to the door seeing it being the next day already, 9 pm. I closed the website and went over to Jimin's hallway, looking for Namjoon to apologise.
I felt much better then yesterday, and I felt up to talking to him, I inhaled deeply and got up the courage to knock on the door. I waited only a few seconds before I heard a deep voice calling out, "Coming!" And some rustling, along with a big bang, then the door opening. He probably fell, he's clumsy like that.
He seemed to tense up seeing me, I immediately smiled warmly, trying to make sure he understands I'm not gonna hurt him this time.
I held up two cans of soda, "Wanna try that again?" I asked, clearly nervous but trying to keep a brave face.
Without hesitation he nodded and smiled back at me, seeming to realize I wasn't here to hurt him.