"Hyung.... It's not true...." I said in a begging voice, on my knees in front of Jimin who was sitting on the bed, "I promise I didn't mean to... I don't know what happened please you have to believe me....." I begged him, the fucking rat snitched the moment he saw Jimin.
I wanted to be able to tell him what happened in my words, and now Jimin probably hates me because I cheated on him. He didn't seem that angry, he seemed to be in a daze while i literally begged him not to break up with me.
"Hyung?" I sniffled, looking up at him gently touching his feet to get his attention, "Are you even listening to me?" I asked, noticing him zoning out.
Oh god no.
He's gonna break up with me isn't he?
That fucking bitch, what did he tell Jimin? He probably made up some kind of story to break us apart, and now Jimin won't even listen to my side of the story.
"Hyung please..." My voice broke as I begged him to listen, "It was a mistake, I wasn't thinking straight...." I kept begging him to listen, softly grabbing his waist and hugging it tightly still on my knees in front of him.
I looked up at him with tears streaming down my face, "I don't know what's going on Hyung! I'm so scared, please just tell me you won't leave me, please hyung I can't live without you!" I started to get desperate, feeling his soft small hands gently caressing my head.
I leaned my face into his hand, sniffling once again struggling to keep it together, finally he spoke up.
"We shouldn't be together.... Jungkookie..."
(Jimin's POV)
"What?.." I asked softly as Taehyung warned me about Jungkook, "I don't know, the moment he drank the blood he started acting crazy, he kissed me, held me so I couldn't leave, and he even wanted to undress me. I don't know what this whole 'vampire' shit is about, but it's messing with his head. You need to be careful when he's drinking it, he might've just been overwhelmed but he also might've been hallucinating. All I know is the blood is making him act really, really weird and I don't want him to hurt you by accident."
Taehyung didnt seem to realize what was going on, he kissed Jungkook. So Jungkook kissed back and he's so convinced they hate each other that he blamed the blood. Jungkook was simply overwhelmed and probably just needed someone to hold him. And Taehyung was that person to hold so he held him.
I sighed, saying thank you for his warning and pushing him out the door, he turned around to look at me one last time saying "Just he careful... We don't know what he'll do." Then leaving.
Just half an hour later Jungkook came knocking my door, there were tears in his eyes when he came inside.
"Hyung.... Something's wrong with me..." He whispered just loud enough for me to hear, "Taehyung told me." I mumbled, not making eye contact.
I could see his eyes widen, "What did he say?..." He asked, slowly stepping forward and into the room, "It doesn't matter..." I mumbled looking away, suddenly he collapsed in front of me, "Hyung.... it's not true.... I promise I didn't mean to... I don't know what happened please you have to believe me....." I couldn't decide what to do...
This is so tricky, I could use this as an excuse to break up so I don't have to tell him I'm not in love with him, but then he'll blame himself. I could say it's okey but then he'll be extra mean to Taehyungie and avoid him and then he'll never accept his feelings for him. But if I tell him the truth he'll be destroyed.
"Hyung? Are you even listening to me?... Hyung please.... It was a mistake I thinking straight....."
"I don't know what's going on Hyung! I'm so scared, please just tell me you won't leave me, please hyung I can't live without you!" Well that's a hit to the heart, this is proof I need to think of something where he thinks about Taehyung too cause he's just wasting his time with me.
"We shouldn't be together.... Jungkook.... It's wrong, and even though you won't admit it you are in love with Taehyungie... No matter how much denial you wanna throw out in the world, at the end of the day theres nothing you can do about that. So you need to figure out your feelings for him before you commit to a relationship made up of lies...." At least this way i won't completely destroy him.
"No... No Hyung, please, I love you. I don't love anyone else I'm just- I'm just confused and in distress, I really don't know why I did it please just please don't leave me!" Hearing his desperate plea's for forgiveness made my heart ache, I shut my eyes closed shut trying my hardest to not give in, "Jungkook-" I tried to speak but he interrupted me, grabbing my hands and holding onto them tightly.
"I'm sorry, I know that something's wrong with me, but I can change. I promise," He pressed his face into my hands looking up at me with teary eyes, "I'll never even think about him again, I want you so bad... I don't know what's wrong with me Hyung, but I promise I can change."
"You shouldn't ****have **** to change in the first place Jungkook... You love him, and you shouldnt change that. Nor should you try to pretend like you love me more, when we both know that's not true either." I could literally see his heart breaking, watching his head fall down onto my lap and seeing his shoulders shacking as he clearly tried not to cry.
"Please don't leave me.... Please... I promise I'll stop loving him.... I don't even love him that much!.... Just please..." He looked up at me again, his face pressing against my thigh, "Please.... You're everything to me...."
Don't say it, Jimin. Don't you fucking say it, he needs to let you go. Don't fucking say it Park Jimin.
"Okey.... Just-.... Just promise you wont completely ignore your feelings for him.... You need to figure it out, not deny it." What the fuck is wrong with you.
(Jungkooks POV)
Thank the ancients, he doesn't hate me. That fucking tattle tail, I'm going to fuck him up the next time I see him. Which luckily for him wasn't until the next day when I've already calmed down and wasn't having a freaking panic attack.
I glared at him from all angles as he did a checkup on me, as always being annoying and not adding anything useful to the conversation, just waiting patiently for him to finish so I could healthily beat his ass to a pulp.
"If you want to undress me that badly, actually do it instead of glaring me naked." AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHHAHHAHHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHAHHHHAHAH DEAR MOTHER OF THE GOD I DONT BELIEVE IN.
It took me a few seconds to recover from that, I never knew he could do that with his voice. I'm shook. I am Jungshook rn.
I visibly gasped, getting nervous immediately as he stared me down, I could feel my dick twitching, literally immediately getting hard what the fuck.
I looked away embarrassed probably blushing like hell, and clearly trying to avoid his gaze.
"You're pathetic, Jungkook.... You really are." That's a bit rude don't you think? "Its not my fault..." I mumbled, hiding my crotch with my hands, "Its not that, I don't care how easily you get hard, but the you've been acting and the way you're treating this is.... It's honestly fucking pathetic on your part. I understand your problems with 'showing weakness' and whatnot, and I really don't know what your problem is with me. But bringing Jimin into this is a real asshole move, Jungkook? He doesn't deserve what your doing to him, if you can't keep your hands to yourself, and sort out your shit, you don't get to be with him. And no, I'm not doing this because I like him, I'm simply his fuck buddy, but I have grown a close relationship with him over the years, he's my best friend. And I'm simply trying to protect him, wether that's from you or not, I really don't give a shit. But you're gonna leave him alone, you got that? I will personally fuck you up if I see you hurting him.... And I will make damn fucking sure you don't get up this time...." Feeling his hot breathe on my face... The feeling of my brain replicating my heart beating in my chest... The way he was threatening me.
I couldnt explain it, it felt so fucking intimidating but I loved it, I felt degraded, I felt embarrassed, I felt inferior. And it made me want to fuck him.
He's right.
I shouldn't drag Jimin into this until I figure out my feelings.
Everybody's been telling me I'm in love with him, but I'm not. Yet it's so freaking easy for him to control me. I hate him, I want to beat him up, I want to strangle him and I want to stuff his face underwater till he stops moving.
But I want to stuff my dick down his throat too, and I want to fuck him till he passes out, I want to pet his hair and comfort him, I want to give him water, I want to hold him. *****i want to love him.****
And it's time I admit that, I promised Jimin I would, and Taehyung is completely right, he doesn't deserve to be caught in the middle of all this. I'm not going to break up with him, but I'm gonna keep my distance until I can safely say I love him, and only him.
I went back to my room and contemplated wether or not I was gonna take care of myself or just leave it, cause I know damn well if I rub it out I'm gonna be thinking about him, and I really don't wanna do that.
I tried to just leave it for a few hours but I couldn't think of anything other then pleasing myself, I couldn't even focus on reading. So eventually I gave in and got out all our favourites app, pornhub.
Yea I'm not proud of myself either.
But it really was the only way I could think of to get rid of the horniness as well as to not think about Taehyung, I generally try to stay away from porn. But this was a special occasion I couldn't see myself getting out of.
I scrolled threw the app and literally nothing looked nice, but then again I didn't have an account, so nothing was personalised and it was just random shit that people seem to like, so they recommend it cause it's popular.
At the end of the day I had to actually search for something I thought I'd like, but just searching simple things like, 'Gay sex' and 'Femboy' wasn't really helping.
I searched for a lot of things, 'Gay bdsm' 'Hole stretching' 'Top x bottom men' 'Puppy training gay' I even tried to get out of my comfort zone and even searched 'Mommy x puppy training' at some point. But I didn't like any of it.
Im well aware no one wa ted a description of it, keep your mouth shut about.
Nothing looked even half as decent as even just looking at Jimin, or admittedly Taehyung in this scenario.
I ended up getting desperate to stop thinking about him that I just watched a few things that seemed at least a little bit attractive and tried my best to keep focus. But ultimately I couldnt please myself at all.
I threw my phone across the room in frustration, luckily landing onto the couch, I could still hear the guy in the video moaning. It was really annoying. His top was simply playing with his nipples, it couldn't possibly make him feel good enough to make those noises.
At this point I was getting really desperate for a release and just grabbed one of my own nipple doing the same the top was doing to his bottom, seeing if that'll maybe help. It did not.
I suddenly heard a noise at my door, a knocking and then suddenly it opening.
I wasn't sure to jump or not cause the only people who would just come in was Hoseok and Jimin, and Taehyung too I guess....