ALANA'S POV
For one, I definitely did not have a weak wolf, and even though his wolf was stronger than mine by an arm's length, I could still put up a fight with him.
Most of time when Lucian was too busy for me, I was usually at the training fields with Caleb. He was a Gamma and third in command to the Alpha, Lucian, and was my best friend, the only one who had ever stood up for me all through.
Right from when it was Lucian, me, him and Diana, he's always been my anchor, and I wouldn't replace him for anyone else in the world.
So If Lucian thinks he's going to bully me again and force me into doing what I didn't feel comfortable with, he better think again because I will rather die by his hands instead.
I could see the surprise in his eyes at my retort before he quickly concealed it with anger, leaving me stunned as to why I had never bothered to look into his eyes to let his real feelings give him away there.
He suddenly grabbed my neck and forced my head to the wall, my chin raised, my chest heaving as I felt his hot breath down on my neck.
His aura was imminent and I felt my knees grow weak at the intense gaze emanating from his deadly eyes, but I still stood my ground.
"Do I need to remind you who I am and who you are... "
I laugh, finding everything quite humorous.
For years, I had thought that we would actually get along and he would learn to love me. For eight years. Eight years. And he happened to get Diana pregnant. He had given me so many signs that he didn't love me and never will, but tonight proved that he had been serious, and I was so stupid to have wasted eight years of my life loving someone who would never love me back.
I saw another expression flash across his eyes as he stepped back, away from me, his gaze still trained on my face as I lean away from the wall, still chuckling with a bitter expression on my face, rubbing my neck which now had the mark of his claws around.
"I know who you are Lucian..." I said, raising my head to lock eyes with him, seeing how hard he tried to conceal the real expression in his eyes, but I had seen the shock, probably at my reaction. He was really expecting me to be easily manipulated and intimidated into conceding to such an abomination, wasn't he?
"You are my mate and I am your Luna," he looked like he wanted to say something, but I cut in, clearly letting him know I wasn't finished yet. "Your ONLY Luna. It's always been one Luna to one Alpha, and that's how it's going to be Lucian."
"Diana is pregnant with my child... " He growled threateningly, and I swear I just want wanted to skid out of the place and into my room which I considered a safe haven, but I wasn't going to just avoid this topic. He was planning on making Diana his second Luna. My face was already in the mud, how much farther did he plan on embarrassing me?
"You don't see me getting younger these days do you Alana? I need an heir. I need someone to pass down the Alpha bloodline to."
"And you decided to make Diana birth your heir?" I asked in a careful tone like I was trying to understand what he was saying. So what was I? A freaking goddamn pencil?
"Eight years Alana, and what do you have to show for it? Not a single child in this house! You're not even pregnant, Alana."
"Oh excuse me for not getting pregnant out of the blue when you haven't even touched me in the past three years. I had vibrators and other stuff like that to help me reach climax since my mate wasn't willing to even share a room with me!" I yell at the top of my voice, and I suddenly slammed my hand over my mouth when I realized what I said, seeing the horrified look he shot me.
Fuck.
Me and my big mouth. But I shrugged internally. What was I supposed to do when I was horny or in heat and Lucian wasn't willing to touch me? I couldn't die out of sexual frustration, could I?
There was awkward silence In the room after that, and I bit my lip, for the first time, silently urging him to say something. The tension in the room was so thick, I could cut through It with a knife.
"We've been intimate before Alana. Not once, not twice, not thrice and yet..."
"Five times" I suddenly said, cutting him half way through his sentence. That usually annoyed him when I did that, but tonight it was like I had mixed barcadi, tequila and vodka and drank them all together, and I wasn't afraid of death any more. Nothing could be more painful than hearing your best friend had stabbed you in the back at your most vunerable moment.
"What?" With a frown, he asked.
I raised my hand with a painful smirk in my face.
"We've fucked five times Lucian. And the last time was three years ago."
"That's not...."
"The first time was basically for fulfilling all righteousness for the mate ritual, and the other four, I had to literally drop to my knees naked and beg you to fuck me. The second and third were from behind, and you left me there without a release, and the fourth one, you were drunk and I used that to my advantage... The fifth one happened to be on my birthday last three years which you forgot, but I got down on my knees, horny and begging to just fuck me for a minute, and that was what you did Lucian.."
Lucian just stared at me with his mouth open like I had broke to him the most shocking news ever and he was finding it quite hard to believe, but yet it was still true and he couldn't deny it.
"Admit it. You just didn't want me bearing your child because you hate me!"