3.The Last summer we smiled(August):
Yes!! It's August ..I made friends in his class.cause it's can be the only one reason for me to enter his class. I told her about giving a greeting to him on his bday.but I was not that sure it make it happen . Am kinda nervous. I imagined my boy wearing a dark blue hoodie with baggy light blue jean and a grey sneakers. I want to look at him by wearing this outfit .yea!!. Okayyy dreams will always remain as dreams yes dear. Its aug 2, his bday he weared uniform . No one in his class knows about his birthday,i think. I wanna wish him.but I was not confident. Yea!! After some time,we both passed eachother in the hallway i suddenly turned back and said ."happy birthday" he said thank you. And then he asked me how do you know? I said I kno.and I left the place immediately. Our first conversation. it was the bestest day ever ever ever.!. Trulyy I was enchanted to meet him. Our both classes were combined for English class. He sat before me.i was behind him with my friend. He left somewhere and i used that time and inserted that greeting into his bag. He came back after sometimes I started our conversation. It wasn't that good but I asked some questions to him like do he has any interest in anyone? And he said no . In past times he used to have a crush on his classmate but not now . I had a long breathe. Yea!!! Conversation stops there. Thats it !!! But still it was my favourite day of me and him. I didn't tell him that i inserted a card in his bag..it was a untold thing!! Up then . After a week still he didn't know that something is on his bag. It was aug 8 I told him to check his bag . He became serious and started to check to thoroughly!!!! Atlast he got my letter. I said read it once you reached your home. He said okay! Yea!! Then it's next day..it was a combined class he came near me and sat with me and said thank you. And it was the best conversation ever we had!... Still in my heart. We talked about eachother, his favourite things..many topics were held between us. Alot alot!. Yea!!! It was aljudt awesome . August felt like ..a shooting star in the beginning it was so nice to watch and feel the magic of it..but at the end,when it disappears it takes away the joy and magic with it. Yes my August is a shooting star.!! The next day he said me hi and i too said heyy!!!. It was good those days. But after a couple of weeks . I felt like he's ignoring me ..it was like that. We never talked after that aug 9 convo. After It there was a hi and bye..that's it.!! And even that too disappeared like time. I strongly felt it somewhere like he's ignoring me. But he was so cool and casual as always. But me here overthinking ruled my mind all overly.. days passed he told me that he values his time i can't even go and talk to him , cause I feel like wasting his time. so I don't want to do that. Aug's first 2 weeks were like a candy in a kid's hand!!! I was that happy!!! But the other two was damn sad!.. I can't help me out . Things were this worst. 1st time I cried for a someone. My tears for him tasted like saying me girl" you are in love " . Really I can't accept that fact. A girl who's mentally broken like me ..how can I love Someone else with all my broken pieces. Di i deserved to be loved?! A big quest?!. He was my sunshine boy .he's mine..always forever he's mine . But hates me now!. I don't know why ..I am not beautiful , I am not that attractive yea!! Okay . But still my heart says that one day he'll be mine. Oneday I will have his surname officially forever, until that privately i will have. Yea..stories like this may end ...but deep down they all live in hearts.his eyes,his face, his voice,his walk,his talk...just got imprinted in my thoughts?
あなたが私の最後になってほしいのです.