6. The blind Rage of 'Novem':
The November wasn't good or happy. It's my birthday month . The first day of november.i saw his dad with him. Perfect family. They looked super lovely . That day wasn't good . I just got to look his dad. That's it. But in the nov i truly had a rebirth on my birthday(Nov22). I felt somewhere that he's not mine and he'll never be mine . It's all a teen story .yea!. Everyday were filled with his thoughts. On Nov 6 , i came to know that he really hates me to the death. He talked with his friends and he said me to piss off. He wants me to piss off from his thoughts. I never expected this. For sure I will come over him. He's not that good for me. I deserve someone better. Yea !!. I don't feel bad for it. On Nov 9 i saw him again.it was the day of lab practicals. Asually he ignored me ,never gave me a glance. It was all that. On Nov 10 again there was a lab class but he was absent. That was the day i heard that he told me to piss off . It was truly bad. Okayy fine , who cares.. but deep down i was not good by hearing that. Yeaa nov was totally bad. Then again on my bday I went to school . Nov 22 I wore colour dress. So everyone came to know that it's my birthday. Everyone wished me . He too knew that but he didn't wished me on my day . It sounds like honestly he hates me. So i was like okeyy fine .. not that bad . Am not even seeing nowadays. Then what about feeling bad for not hearing his wishes. It alright, completely fine. Am good. Asually i cried screamed and atlast I made up my mind to get over him. Cause it pictures clearly that he never gonna like me back or something like that. What the fuck is there to make me fall for him again. No way . Am not gonna look at him here after. Never ever....
May be in words..but still I think about him
May all this disappear by time.