4.silent screams of " septem":
Yea!! It's my August, it started like everything but ended by nothing. Septem's 1st week was like; him hating me like nothing.. it was continued... I can't bear or I can't tolerate it. Yea!! It was math class. I was looking at the class window it was afternoon. Am zoned out . He was the only thing that was running in my mind .I was disturbed by his activities. I wanna talk to him about this thing surely I wanna . And I should .things were not that easy . He's my first love or an unrequited love. Where my life is leading me..to fall for wrong peoples.no it's enough to bear this . I don't want to get hurt again and again. No I don't expect this from him. God stop all these things.please,. That eve , i stopped him in the pedestrian , he was walking with his head down and eating some chips , i shouted his name from the opposite pedestrian. He turned and I said wait , he said okayy.. i crossed the road and stood near him.and I asked "are you ignoring me ? Or something like avoiding me?" He said yes"i wanna give you some hints that says like am not interested in you" I was like okay! I told him that some part of me is in love with you. He told me that all this is attraction.it would pass by time. Attraction??? No way I haven't seen his face for 2 months how can he tell me something like this. How dare he is! No way stopp please these things were in my mind but i never spoke . Then I said see I will wait for you even for 10 years,and will you say that it's just an attraction ? He smirked with a smile. Uff.... He said don't watch me for 7 days and come back if you felt the same.!!! Stupid thing right? Yes he's stupid. Yea conversation ends there. Days passed like nothing. It was mid afternoon in the school I was following him with one of my friend. He noticed and came near me and said don't follow me everywhere.please stop this kind of activities. I was like " ohh yeaa!! He didn't even listened to me, he walked away. the last thing .yea this thing totally broke me out. He hates me that much *** ?!!fine completely fine .okayy am good. That day is still in my mind. The crazy me , the childish me , the every little joy left me like ... That day is unforgettable. Yea.it was on sep 8. Okayy. Then what just silence between us . Nothing but silence . He never looked or stared at me not even a glance on me.thats what he was doing back then and right now too. Septem felt so empty but all it was filled with silence. I used to call him but i never said anything but i just record him saying "hello". that hello.. he blocked all the numbers by which I called him. His "hello " is enough to make my day bright. I used to listen to that 2 seconds audio everyday. This was my septem. It gave me "ALL SILENCE". My septem ends here...
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