5.Autumn Gale of 'october':
october was a real gale in my life , i never know that i love him that much , where i spent all my nights in tears .where i prayed that will i ever get a chance to look at him..! yea thats how my october was spent. All with tears, screaming in silence, crying in the corner...yes october was horrible for me . but i chose to spend my forever like this october.yea!!!...pain all over my chest . yes i felt the pain inside me ..in my tears ..in everything....i felt it very badly..the song 'enchanted' was played in loop for one thousand times, it was a situation where, i can't attend my daily classess i get to see him 4 times in a month . this is how october looked like. my whole world was crashing down back then. there was alot of thoughts striking my mind so badly. i don't know exactly what it was. but it was worsest feeling yea!! here i came to know that love is not in the eyes. it was something that's beyond everything. does he knew about my absence?? i was absent for a month!! do he knew how i cried , how i screamed all nights just praying to see his stupid face...no way he'll never know. that's him and that's me. have i ever entered his mind...or as a sudden flash? never right!! yea right!!.... it was a wednesday i went to school , yea i went but the true reason behind it was him. i wanna see his stupid face even it was covered with mask. just his eyes even it has glassess over it... but he was absent on that day. how ! how the fate can make me this fool!!!.. i was totally vanished away. it was such a bad thing. thats it . school got over i came home. then what nothing. again days went like thursday , friday, saturday,sunday,monday,tuesday...and again wednesday. i can only see him on wednesdays. for me wednesday is my favourite day of week. yea!!! 1st wednesday was totally wasted. hoping for second wednesday ...the day came . again it was a combined class for english , i entered the room . my eyes searched for him. he was on the 1st bench am on the last , i can't see him. but i noticed onething his head turned thrice towards me. and he looked at me thrice.am not sure about the counts. but am sure ,that he looked at me. am damn sure. i havenot told this to anyone. yea!. but i was not happy at all , we both looked at eachother for once other than that i was chatting with my friends . i never looked at his side. yea i showed a lil ignorance just to hide my love. he was doing his own chores he too never turned at my side. the day ended everything okayy fine. thats it. that week was lil good cause i got another chance to see him. the saturday there was lab practicals on that day so yea!! i was there in school , he too came ....but this time he completely ignored he didnot even gave me a glance . he rolled his eyes and i was completely ignored. the day was bad. but i noticed something that he was not good that day i mean his behaviours, he looked so disturbed . i dont know why he was like that. but he looked so stressfull. yea!! school got over he went to home. but after reaching home too i was thinking why he looked so stressfull ...i was thinking about it . this time i made a move. i texted him with my number , it was like :
me: hello****
him: hey , you're salya right?
me: yea!right.
him:okay
me: i wanna ask you something ?
him: ok...
me: are you okay nowadays?
him: am fine.
me: are you stressing yourself?
him: Not really.
me:okay fine.
him: why are you asking tho?
me: no, you looked so disturbed today , thats why?
him: no i was annoyed by the classess today they were waste of time.
me:hahaha...
him: batch 2 students watched a movie.today..
me: even thats a waste of time.
him: hmm yea! but they got to use the comp.
me: wait soon we'll have english lab then you too would watch a movie there.
him: ok
me: okay i think am wasting your time so carry on.
him: its fine, cya.
i texted him , cause i want to know that he's fine thats the thing i dont want to flirt or to chat with him. he talks so nicely to all , he's friendly with everyone . he"s good!!! thats it the next wednesday i was absent cause i was extremely sick . and i dont want to look at his face. i dont feel like staring at him. but still ... this was my october. for sure it gave me a GALE.
I saw him twice this month.[oct 18 & 21]
it feels like.... ' enough '
Do we both have anything about next month? Any chapter is there? I don't think so.. but am praying that ,this book should have a upcoming chapter!
I hope.