Chapter 53 - Chapter 49

[In the morning]

When Soobin woke up, he found himself on the floor beside his bed. He remembered everything lucidly. He wished everything was a dream just like he had those nightmares the other time. He didn't know how he ended up sleeping on the floor. He just remembered he sat beside his bed, trying to call someone, but he didn't have the courage. Because he behaved very rudely to that person earlier. And it won't be a great thing to bug him at that hour of the night. Moreover, he wished he'd get a call from him like the other days and nights. He sighed heavily.

What should he do? What if that guy comes again? He might not be able to face him and fight anymore. He had a breakdown and he knew it'll keep going on for the time being. As far as he knew the person, he'd come back and Soobin wasn't ready to encounter him alone again. He stood up slowly and discovered pain all over his body. At that time, one thing came to his mind. What if Yeonjun found out everything about him and started avoiding him? What if he found him indecent and start hating him? What'd he do then? He'd also leave him alone, right? Soobin's eyes filled with tears again. He wiped them using his short sleeve and sniffled.

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After locking the door well, he went to the main road. He wore a black shirt with a black full pants. He also wore a mask and glasses to cover his face and puffy eyes. He nearly ran to the bus stop and hop on a bus which was heading to his hometown. Within his knowledge, the house in his hometown would be the safest for now. And he could easily shut himself in for days. He guessed nobody could find him there as it was nearly abandoned. Moreover, his teacher doesn't have the address so he can't reach there. While traveling, all of the negative thoughts filled his head and didn't let him rest for a bit. He wanted to vanish from the earth right then.

When the bus stopped near his hometown, he went down and started walking without looking around. He walked through those fields and remembered the day he met Yeonjun for the first time. How silly he must be looking back then! He wondered. Thinking about him made him depressed again and his eyes got blurry because of the tears gathered in his eyes. He took off his glasses and wiped his eyes while strolling. He started walking faster and reached his house.

Everything was covered in dust as nobody came inside for ages. To divert his mind, he started cleaning though it wasn't helping at all. He went to the washroom and cleaned the bathtub as he wanted to take a shower. Unfortunately, the water wasn't turning on. As it was the daytime, he didn't have to turn on any other lights of the house. But, it was a little dark inside the bathroom and to see clearly what the problem was with the tape, he turned on the light and started checking again. He sat down on the tub and tried fixing it. After trying for a while, the water started flowing inside the tub. He stood up and right at that moment, he felt dizzy as he didn't eat anything for the past two days. He shook his head lightly as he thought it'd make him feel better. He tried to come out of the tub, but his body didn't let him. He suddenly felt so weak as the world was spinning around him. He was also having hard time breathing and he couldn't stand still anymore. He sat down in the middle of the tub while the tub was filling up. At that moment, he wished he could see one person because he thought after that he wouldn't be able to see him as nobody was going to come to save him. After that, he couldn't remember anything.

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Although Yeonjun guessed that someone was there, he was still surprised to see the washroom's light on. He entered without hesitating as the door was wide open. But after seeing Soobin submerged fully into the water, his mind went blank. He couldn't understand what he should do right then. He never expected he'd see something like this nor he ever wanted to. His whole body started trembling as he went closer to the tub. He extended his trembling hands towards Soobin while squatting down in front of the tub. He gulped because he was too scared to touch him. He held Soobin's arm and pulled his head up from the water slowly. He looked at the pale face of Soobin as if blood stopped running through his veins.

It was hard for him to pull Soobin up from the tub as he didn't have his full strength due to trembling. Somehow he managed to pick him up and lay him down on the floor. He got fully drenched while pulling Soobin out of the water. Yeonjun held his hand and found the fresh scars. He got more scared when he found Soobin's hand as cold as ice.

"N-no! T-this c-can't b-be! S-Soobin! H-hey! D-don't s-scare me l-like t-this!" Yeonjun couldn't talk properly. He called Soobin while pushing him lightly. But, there was no response from him. Yeonjun couldn't understand what he should do. He went closer to Soobin's nose and discovered he wasn't breathing. As he was afraid of the worst outcome, he completely lost his mind. He sat down on Soobin and pressed his chest incessantly. He was trying to perform CPR on him, but he couldn't do it properly because of his trembling hands. When it wasn't working, he went for his mouth. He pressed Soobin's cheeks to make his mouth open. He took his mouth to Soobin's and blew in it strongly. Unfortunately, all of his efforts were in vain. There was no sign of Soobin to move or breathe.

"Please! Please! Stay with me! Don't leave me like this. YOU CAN'T! SOOBIN! PLEASE! Wake up! Please wake up!" Yeonjun began to cry and went crazy. He kept blowing in Soobin's mouth as well as pressing on his chest.