The drive home was silent as Jane and Lydia were both asleep. Jayden seemed too far away from reality as he drove. It seemed there was something on his mind that disturbed him as he was not his usual bubbly self. For me my head was spinning and I even forgot to carry the jacket I had on. Jane was going to kill me when she was sober enough to realize I did not have it on. What just happened? Was he drank or did he mean what he said to me. Why am I thinking about him he obviously does that to every girl in the parties he goes to I try to convince myself what happened was not special.
We reach our room at 3 a.m. and I jump straight to the shower to try to ease my thoughts but it doesn't help as I still remember his warm touch on my delicate skin. The sweet kisses on my lips and the magic his tongue performed on my pussy my God! How am I supposed to move on from this? How am I going to stay away from him I already miss him inside me.
When I come to bed Jane is deep asleep, I envy how easily she fell asleep. I close my eyes but I can't sleep I try to read my Physics textbook but still I don't fall asleep. This thoughts are going to kill me. As I stare at the roof I remember Jane came holding a whiskey bottle and I decide this was going to be my savior. I take a sip and I almost puke. How do people enjoy this? After an hour I am halfway down the bottle and I start to feel dizzy and before I know it I fall asleep on the floor holding the whiskey bottle.
"What are you doing down there?" I hear Jayden's voice. When I try to open my eyes I feel my head throbbing like someone is hitting it with a hammer. I feel as he takes the bottle away from my hand and carries me to my bed.
"Who gave you that drink? Take this tablets you will feel better." He hands me some medicine which I swallow without question. He lays on the bed close to me and cuddles me up as he uses his phone. This is exactly what I need now, I move closer to him and hold on to him tightly like my life depends on it. "Are you okay 'freshman'?(he still calls me that though am in my second year)
I did not realize tears were flowing down my cheeks. "It's the headache, it is so bad." I lied as I did not know how to explain why I was hurting. "You are going to feel better just sleep. I ordered some coffee for you both I know she is also going to need it when she wakes up" He laughed as he went to open the door. "This one is for you. Sit up and drink it ."
My head was feeling a little better and honestly with Jayden here holding me I felt like everything would be okay. He always made me feel safe when I was with him. I don't know what I would do if he was not around. "You should start paying rent." Jane joked as she woke up "Is that my coffee? Marry me please" she continued. For her she seemed alright unlike me who felt like hell.
"When did you drink?" she asked concerned seeing my current state.
A message popped on my phone and as I went to check it I almost fell off my bed in disbelief. It was a text from Spencer 'you forgot your jacket should I give it to Jayden?' That was not the problem when did I text him confessing that I liked him and I have never had such great sex. Oh no! The world should just open up and swallow me whole and to make matters worse he read the texts but did not reply. I was never going to recover from this. My stomach became bad all of a sudden.
I was losing my mind why did I go to that party I could have just stayed here. I remembered that Jayden yesterday looked disturbed but I did not have the strength to ask him what happened. "What happened to you yesterday you looked disturbed?"
He smiled and shrugged the question and I knew something was really disturbing him and that was the reason he was here this early. He always came here when he was sad though he never talked about his problems I think he found our company comforting and he was at ease. It seemed today everyone was fighting their own demons yet no one was ready to share what was eating us up.
With time my headache had completely disappeared and I was laughing and talking without a worry in this world as I had forgotten momentarily what had happened not until the devil himself walked in the room without even knocking.
He greeted me like nothing had happened between us and went on ahead and invited his girlfriend to my room. What was he doing? I know they are good friends with Jayden but why does he have to follow him like his disciple and why on hell would he invite his girlfriend in my damn room as if he owned the place. How could I have forgotten the asshole he was. Was he trying to prove to me that what happened between us meant nothing to him and if so, I completely understood that was what he did but why rub it on my face.