The moon hung low in the star-studded sky casting a warm glow. Soft, melodic tunes filled the car, mingling with the gentle hum of the engine. I tried to lock everything outside my head but I couldn't. I could still feel the warm touch on my skin and her soft moans were ingrained in my brain. That was not supposed to happen. I promised myself never to get attached nor fall in love again why was she still on my mind. "Spencer, get a hold of your fucking self! We are never doing that again. We are never giving anyone the chance to hurt as again!" I shouted to myself in the car all alone.
What is she doing here, I thought I warned her of her impromptu visits especially at night but well why did I even think she would listen. I parked my car at the front porch as her car had blocked my entrance to the garage. I had to stay at my car for about half an hour before I could manage to sermon the strength to go and have an argument as usual. Before I could get inside the car she came out fuming and throwing all kinds of profanities at me. I always wondered how we ended up dating. She was always full of herself and had little to no compassion about anyone else. She was among the most beautiful women I had come across in my lifetime but I would give anything to get rid of her but she seemed to stick on me like glue no matter what I did.
"Just relax. You will wake everyone up." I tried to reason with her.
"Why did you not go with me? I was told you were with that hoe friend of yours. Spencer don't play games with me look at me while am speaking." She shouted as she tried to fight me to the ground.
"Are you crazy!" I grabbed her and took her inside the house as some of the neighbors had started to wake up. "You either calm down or I'll throw you outside, you know am not joking Kimberly!" I warned. She let go of my shirt and went straight to the counter where she picked a whiskey bottle which seemed she had been taking before I arrived. I was really tired. All I wanted to do was just jump on my bed and have a good night sleep but I couldn't leave her there all alone.
Kimberly was a difficult person to handle when she did not get what she wanted. She once threatened to kill herself when I tried to break up with her, luckily I arrived at her house before she overdosed and from that day I learnt to treat her with at most care. I moved to the counter where she was seated and took the whiskey she was drinking. To be honest I never hated her neither did I love her that much to justify to be in a relationship with her but I really cared about as she was the nicest person you would find when she was in a good mood.
"Let's go to bed we will discuss everything when you are sober." I told her as I picked her up and carried her to my bed. I knew she really liked being carried around especially when she was angry.
When I lay her on bed she curled up on me and immediately fell asleep. Some random thought hit me and the day we met replayed through my head.
I was always the famous kid all my life but coming here it was a bit different though, I came here through the football scholarship I was not that big a big deal here. I struggled to keep up with football and school work as in this college you had to excel in your studies to be able to continue with the football scholarship. Making friends was even a bigger task although after about two weeks I met Jayden a teammate who we went on to become more like brothers.
Jayden was very popular and he seemed to get along with everyone effortlessly. Onetime we were hanging out with the team after training his then girlfriend came around with her friend who turned out to be Kimbely. From that day we hang out with them for several times and through those interactions we became close with her and we ended up dating. From the first interactions with her she seemed sweet and always bubbly and that really attracted me to her or I was just lonely and needed someone I could talk to. With time I came to realize there was a side of her that I never knew, but I had already gotten myself in a situation that seemed there was no way out though, her sweet and lovely personality popped out sometimes but it was always short lived.
I looked at her while she was sleeping so peacefully and I wished it was Sandra that lay next to me. Sandra was the sweetest girl I had met and her naivety made her more adorable. I liked her from the first time I saw her but I always thought Jayden had a crush on her so I tried to shut down any feelings I had for her. With what we had just shared with her I did not think I was going to hide my feelings for her anymore and before I could convince myself otherwise a message from her popped up.
It read 'Hey had the best moment with you. Your touch made feel like a woman. I have never felt like that my entire life. I like you too Spencer.'
I stared at the message confused. This is what I wanted. I wanted her but I was not ready to let anyone near my heart ever again but she was what my body and soul yearned for.
'You forgot your jacket should I give it to Jayden?'
Why did I hit send. What would she think of me?