The Philosophy class had become my best class this year. The Lecturer was a young African American lady who made her classes lively by making it as interactive as possible where we all contributed by opinions on every topic. Today she had come up with a very interesting topic 'IS FREEDOM A DESTINATION OR A JOURNEY'.
"To depict freedom as a destination would be to undermine the efforts put inn by the strong men and women of this country. Not to take away anything from anyone as I truly feel we have taken a leap in the country in terms of freedom and being among the top ranked countries with a strong following of the human rights policies shows how far we have come in this journey. If we simply depict it as a destination it would mean we completely cut off of anyone who feels their freedom is not catered for in our society and that is the reason people fought so hard to ensure everyone would in any time express their grievances and point out how they feel their freedom is being impeded and how we could work on improving o that. That been said I believe it is a journey that we will take for the rest of our lives."
The room burst out in applause. I was so proud of myself as the previous year I would never have imagined addressing one person let alone a whole lecture room. I had promised myself I was going to make this my best year and it was as if my stars were aligning.
After class I had a habit of going to watch the football practices. I normally waited for Jayden to finish his sessions and we would go to the café across the school where we would talk for almost the entire evening before heading to my room. This had been a problem to his girlfriend as she had personally warned me of doing so but as I promised myself this year it was all about me. Frankly speaking this was the one thing I looked up to for the whole week. I had to talk to someone before I lost my mind and who better to talk to.
As I sat across the pitch from where the training session was taking place I realized I liked coming here as there was no one concerned about me and my mind was able to wonder around aimlessly without disturbance, just the shouts of grown men screaming for a ball. This felt like heaven especially now that I needed to be alone. My thoughts were rudely interrupted by the screams of the one person I hoped I was not going to see as she cheered on for her beloved jerk boyfriend. She never comes to his training sessions why would she start today? My mind wondered around or maybe he told her of what happened. No he wouldn't do that. That would destroy his relationship and he had made it pretty clear to me that meant nothing by his acts. I was becoming delusional again damn! This guy was messing around with my head.
Immediately I raised my head I was met by the sore sight of him kissing her passionately. My heart felt like it was shattering into a million pieces and I could do nothing about it. I was the one supposed to be with him not her. What does he see in her?
"Hey your mind is so far. I called you severally but you seemed to have zoned off. Let me grab a shower I will be out in a minute." Jayden shouted as he headed off to the locker room all sweaty. My eyes were fixated at the sight that was beside him. Spencer was a bit taller than him and a little liner and with the sweat dripping from his perfect summer body I couldn't resist wondering how he would look like on top of me. That thought quickly vanished as his girlfriend came and sat next to me and almost caught me red handed checking her man out.
I hated having meaningless chit chats and especially the ones that felt like I was being interrogated and this was what was happening . I had a lot in mind I wanted to shout at her face but my shyness wouldn't let me utter a word. One day I was going to put her in her place but for now I just nodded my head in agreement on whatever she was saying as I completely zoned out. My lucky ass was saved from this torture when Jayden came from the back and carried me like a baby as he waved goodbye to his mates as we headed to the café. I really enjoyed him carrying me around but it was quite embarrassing especially everyone knowing he had a girlfriend and this mostly made people talk rudely about me but interestingly never had anyone bad mouthed him. I guess being famous came with its perks.
The café today was surprisingly quite full today despite it being a Wednesday, which was always a slow day. We had to wait for sometime to get a table where we could sit and enjoy one another's company. God knows I needed to talk to him. He was the only person I felt like really understood me and would never judge me.
As we sipped our coffee no one seemed to be ready to break the silence as everyone sat there in the awkward silence.
Jayden finally broke the silence "Sandra you know it's about time I come clean. From the first time I met you, I felt like I needed to have you in my life. For the longest time I have been hiding my feelings for you…." What did he just say. Was I really having this conversation with him? No this cannot be happening.