Hello everyone! It's me, your lazy authornim who instead of writing for my other stories on wattpad and ao3 and finishing them, decided to indulge her gamer nerd self and write a fanfic in the setting of the none other, than the famous, amazing, complex, absolute masterpiece that is Silent Hill!
first bear in mind that english isn't my first langage and i type fast so sometimes there will be typos and errors that i can't correct since i'm too lazy right now! it's not my intention to butcher this beautiful language so please forgive me!!
also bear in mind that the first foreign language i learned is french so sometimes i forget how to spell correctly and i spell words in french instead of english (like langage instead of language, bufon instead of buffon, ect). i'm also a fast reader and typer so i sometimes dont even see typos! i also correct spelling as much as i can but my computer is set on english USA so by default it corrects to the american english spelling and not the british one (yes i'm aware that i should refer to the british english spelling but oh well, nothing wrong with american english too, it's just the settings of my computer in my country so apologies !)
so before i start publishing more chapters for this and getting readers hooked, i thought i should put an explicit note about why i consider this fic to be destined for a mature audience and could potentially be triggering for some readers.
So first, an introduction about Silent Hill. it's a game made by the japanese firm Konami in 1999, in response to its prime competitor Capcom with the famous "Resident Evil". While it was Resident Evil that created the genre "survival horror" (with its combat and survival mechanics in managing resources, fleeing ennemies and surviving a zombie infested world), it was "Silent Hill" that cemented the psychological horror part of the genre. Indeed, Silent Hill explores the complexity of human's psyche with its monsters and its world shrouded in the fog. The monsters encountered in the Silent Hill saga are always a reflection of the antagonist's psyche, torments, complexes and deep instincts.
But in my opinion, what's more horrifying about those monsters, is the fact that they refelct the protagonist's psyche as well. the conclusion is the following: no one is innocent enough to claim they dont have a monster inside of them....or several.
I was always deeply fascinated by this particular trait in Silent Hill. not to mention, the story is always a tear jerker and deeply emotional. so my brain decided "hey, you should totally write a taekook in that setting" and i can't resist temptation. Yep, I sinned and decided "let's get this bread!!!!"
So while writing, I made the decision to explore something i never did till now: the darker side of human psyche.
before delving more, let me just say this and please pay close attention: you may think that my tone here is cold and condescending, that i sound harsh. no, i dont think so. I'm setting boundaries so that never again will someone who thinks they can hide behind a screen insult me under the guise of "readers have the right to demand things from their author". no, they do not: readers have the right to criticise and ask nicely and request scenes or ask questions out of curioisity and investment into the story. under no circumstence a reader has the right to demand things from an author unless of course said author is their slave or being under a paid contract to write things exactly as that reader wants to. Oh, guess what?
Slavery is forbidden and no author accepts a paid contract that makes them betray their own integrity.
if a reader wants a book made a certain way, i think it's very easy for them to pick a pen and sit on a chair and try to become an author to write what they want, not make someone else write what they want without consulting that author first. and then i think they'll realise how hard it is to write a book with the amount of investment the author puts into their book: their heart, soul, blood, tears, mind, time and health. a reader has the duty of respecting their author even if said author is making a character become too much of an ass. An author is a human being who is devoted to their readers yes, but doesnt have to be a people pleaser. So yep, i'm done being a people pleaser: i'm setting boundaries, i'm setting rules, it's my book, my playground and my blood sweat and tears being mocked so never again will a kid dare to speak to me in disrespect. I love all my readers, but if there's something i dont tolerate it's disrespect. And guess what: it's never too late to learn respect and to learn how to express things politely.
So no, i'm not being cold, or harsh or disrespectful. I'm setting boundaries for my own mental health and for the well being of my readers too since i'm responsible of keeping a safe environment for my readers <3
now, back to the book. I wouldn't say i went too far with this book, but definetly there will be mentions of triggering situation and graphic depiction of violence. I invite all of you to explore a tiny bit of silent hill's walkthrough or game analysis to understand a bit what i'm trying to say. As always, i'd like to think that my first aim with any of my books is to educate and prevent the younger generation from commiting horrible mistakes. to this extent, I decided to explore something that had been deeply disturbing me with my recent readings on many platforms : the twisted side of romance, or perhaps the misread red flags that are taken as romance gestures.
I cant empathise enough about it, but many young writers these days are depicting romance in all kinds of wrongs. I'm not saying i'm better than them or i'm the ultimate relationship guru. I'm simply saying that my aim with this book is to explore some of those twists and show them as they are: twists and not romance.
I'm a sucker for taekook so of course it's my OTP in fanfictions. In no way do I mean harm to Taehyung and Jeongguk with my fanfictions, Picture them as simply the visuals to my characters, with new different personalities and characters than the Tae and Kookie we all adore and love. i think my regular readers gets it with my books.
With each chapter of this book, i'll be adding descriptions of monsters and their meanings, well as long as they dont spoil anything. Maybe I'll actually do this only when I have enough chapters. But expect also extra chapters called "debate" when we have enough of those of course, when i'll explain in depth the dynamics of the events and all. Naturally, i'd love for everyone to participate with their opinion, their questions and their comments .
of course, all under the sign of respect, exchange and maturity, please. If anyone here had been a longtime reader of mine, they'd know that i dont engage in meaningless squabbles. a mute, block and report is all you're gonna get for behaving like an immature bambling bands of baboons to stir up trouble and to hurt everyone around you. With my smiles and love of course <3 I believe i raised an enough cool and mature audience to avoid such squables. I'm also a tired millenial who really, really doesn't care if your little bruised ego is throwing a tantrum. Let's chill, exchange in a good environment, with no hate and no unecessary tantrums, muah *sending kisses*
now, where was I?
I think that i'm gonna explicitely put another warning here in case you didn't read the book description. Please pay gooooooood attention to this so I won't have to remind anyone that i did warn them. Ahem Ahem, here it goes *deep breath*
* this story is a fanfiction and has nothing to do with reality. Depiction of real life people and use of names is in no way a realistic depiction and means no harm to anyone who has that name in real life.
* This story is set in my own omegaverse universe and contains: topKook, BottomTae, feminized Tae with feminine clothes and makeup, BoypussyTae with quite the submissive behavior. No, there are no other ships in this story. No, I don't see why I should include other ships in my books. No i'm not pushing others to believe taekook is real, it's a fanfic and it's imaginary. No, I won't write other ships because i'm hating on them, my sense of aesthetics love taekook only so there. i simply dont write other ships out of just including other ships in a bts fanfic. i dont see why i should include other ships if they dont add a single thing to the story. I like setting the other bts members with different roles and different ships because i believe in diversity too. i'll write an additional ship with taekook only when i feel like it's adding something to the story flow and not because "everyone else does it authornim, why don't you do it too?". Think of me as that tired millenial who really doesnt like doing what others do like sheep in a flock, i like doing my own thing thankyouverymuch!!!! No, i'm not pushing you to read this book or any other of my books. I still love you even if you exit now, it's better than embarrassing me and everyone by throwing a tantrum under the name "shipwars"
* This story explores hyman psyche under the banner of Silent Hill so it will contain graphic depiction of violence, blood and gore, graphic description of disturbing monsters, use of foul language and cursewords, use of derogatory terms, description of abuse and violence, description of rape, description of mental health issues and illnesses, manipulation, psychological abuse, hurt, depression, panic attacks, anxiety inducing situations, mysogenistic terms and themes, description of medical conditions, ect ect that i don't recall right now. I will try my best to put warnings before chapters and warnings for particularly disturbing scenes to limit triggering situations for my readers.
* This story does in no way describe what the author encourages in real life or promotes. I aim to educate, discuss and debate, you're welcome to express your opinion in respectful terms so we can have a healthy debate. you're not welcome to hiss and insult everyone because you do not agree with the author or a fellow reader.
*this story does in NO WAY fetiches rape and violence. NO FREAKING DAMN WAY. Absolutely nope, not, nada. end of dicussion here, not open for debate.
* this story will contain reference images from silent hill monsters in order to give you a closer image to what i'm imagining. Anyone is welcome to make fanarts of course
*And last but not least, I truly believe that this story is not for an audience less than 21 years old, not even just 18. So there, you have been warned.
I think its all? If there's anything else i'll put it up in an author's note <3 love you all and I hope you'll like this book. Last I can all tell you is.....
Welcome To Silent Hill