As she walks away I start to feel an ache in my chest. "You're so stupid, you can't even keep the one person that really loved you. How could you let her slip away? I FUCKING hate you!" I scream to myself. I feel so useless and stupid. All this time I thought that I had found the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and then it turns out that my dream girl could be in love with my best friend. "I'm stupid and useless." I keep repeating that to myself because I don't know what to do.
Do I let her have her space? Does she even want to be with me? Or is this just some stupid test that she's pulling on me? Yeah, that's it, this is some test to see if I'll fight for her, right?!? But what if it isn't and I make a fool of myself? I really don't know what to do with my life… Wait, did she want me to go after her? Was I supposed to make her stay? I wasn't sure what to do, to be honest.
I put my knees to my chest. I wrapped my arms around my knees putting my head on my knees. I'm scared, I was scared when you told me that you had feelings for Tomus. But I didn't make such a big deal about it because it wasn't like the way you felt for me and the way I felt for you. I remembered when I first saw you.
Flashback
It was a dark cold stormy night. I was just taking a walk in the storm. Then I see you shaking a little because of how cold it was. You turn and look behind and you look at me. You completely stopped walking and you just looked at me. I looked into your eyes and you looked into mine. You seem so curious about the way you looked at me. As I looked at you I was reading you. You seemed so lost, broken, scared, depressed, hurt, and unsure about things. After you stopped looking at me and started walking I followed you.
I was careful when I was following you. I made sure that there was a distance between us so you wouldn't know that I was following you. When you arrived at your house I went around the back. You had a nice big backyard. I looked up at the window and I saw a light turn on. I didn't panic as any other person would have. You move your blinds then you look at me. As you looked away from me I left and went home. When I got home I went straight to my room. I lay on my bed and looked at the ceiling with my hands behind my head. I couldn't stop thinking about you.
When we laid eyes on each other I thought you were really attractive, but I also felt something that I've never felt before. I felt that there was something about you that wanted me to start figuring things out about what I really wanted. I asked myself, "Why can't I get you out of my head?" You reminded me of myself when I found out my parents were ill.
"What made you the way you are?" I asked myself, it really intrigued me. I've never been intrigued about a girl before or bothered to care how they felt. The next day at school I walked up to your locker and said that we needed to talk. After you came up to me instead of getting on your bus you walked with me. "Why did you follow me?" you asked. I didn't reply to your question. Then you asked about my eyes. "Why were your eyes red last night, but light brown today?" you asked.
The light brown were contacts and red is my actual eye color," I told you. When we arrived at your house I thought it was weird that you let me in even though you didn't know me. We went to your room. We sat in silence for a while, then I took off my contacts. "You have pretty eyes, why hide them? '' you said, glancing at me. I looked at you shocked.
"Some people are just scared and call me a creep, a killer, or..." I stopped and looked down at my lap. "I'm sorry, but if it makes you feel any better, I think your eyes are unique and pretty," you smiled and told her my name. "Zayn." Then you told me your name is Scarlette.
I gave you a warm smile and took a deep breath before I explained why I was following you all the way home and looking at your window at 11:00 at night. I told you that I was a vampire. You told me that you didn't care that I'm a vampire. "You should care that I'm a vampire, be afraid of me," I said. You asked, "Why should I be afraid of you?"
"Everybody is afraid of me, everywhere I go people get scared. At school, the teachers are even scared. The girls thought they were all over me, they liked me because I'm a bad boy. They keep putting their numbers in my pockets. I wanna fuck around with them, but can't because they're gonna know that I'm a vampire, I said and explained to you why. "Why would you tell me that you're a vampire if nobody can know?" You asked. "You're different from anyone else I've ever met, I trust you," I said to you.
You told me that you would make sure that nobody knows that I'm a vampire and that you're here for me. I looked at you with a smile and then I hugged you. It was a nice hug. It made me feel warm inside. I was going to leave, but you told me that I didn't have to, so I stayed. You asked me why I was following you that one night again, then I finally answered her.
I said, "Your mother is gone for a business trip and there are a lot of weird people at night so you shouldn't be all by yourself." You were confused and wanted to know how I knew that your mother was on a business trip. I said that I just know things like that. You probably thought it was strange.
You let me help myself around the house while you were finishing a project for school. I went into the kitchen to get you a snack. When I came back to the bedroom I helped you with your project. After we finished the project we played games and laughed for a few hours. Then we got to know each other much better. I haven't felt this happy for a long time. Then we stared into each other's eyes.
Then the next thing I noticed was that I was holding you in my arms. I could tell that you were nervous. I hold you tighter and pull you closer to me then I kiss you. I whisper in your ear while on your bed that I want to show you what I think about you. We start ripping each other's clothes off like animals. When you took my shirt off I couldn't help and noticed you were checking me out.
I start kissing and sucking on your neck while I have my left hand on a hold of your thigh tight. The right hand is tightly grabbing on the side of the bed. Then we're sitting up. You're on me. Your arms around my neck biting on my ear while I'm holding you. You looked at me and asked if I was okay. I told you that I was. I could sense that you were starting to feel worried about me.
I was happy to know that someone actually cares about me. We got dressed, I told you that I had to leave. We got up off the bed. We hugged then kissed goodbye. I said that I would see you tomorrow at school. Then I left through the window. When I left your house to walk home I was in a really good mood.
When I arrived home I went to my room and sat on my bed. I was scared but also excited because I didn't know that I could trust anyone, especially a girl. When I saw you that night I knew there was something about and now I know what. I laid back on my bed, my hands behind my head as I closed my eyes thinking about you.
End of Flashback
I had tears coming down my face. I've never experienced so many emotions until I met you. Before I met you I didn't really express myself. I was a horrible person. Then I met you. I've started to express myself and I'm becoming a better person because of you and I thank you for that. I even notice when Tomus looks at you when you're around me that you act so differently from when you two first met.
Getting away from all my thoughts I turn my head to see you. My eyes widened. You looked sad and confused at the same time. "Was she standing there the entire time? Did she even leave?" I thought to myself. I quickly wiped my tears away. I didn't want you to see me all broken like this. Then you start coming towards me and sit down right next to me.
You grab my hand and place your head on my shoulder. I put my head on yours. We didn't say anything to each other. We were just sitting there in silence, but I didn't mind it. I felt relaxed because you were right here with me. The thought of losing you hurts me.
I'm afraid that I might go back to the way that I used to be and I don't want that to happen. I remembered when you asked me what I think our relationship will be like in the future. I thought about it a few times when we started dating. Later in the relationship, I thought about it a lot.
I have thought about us getting married, starting a family, watching our children grow up, watching their children grow, and we grow together. I do want us to have a beautiful relationship with each other having a great future together.