Shushin POV
Servants were sent for the royal family members to come to the palace, to meet at 7 in the evening, since everyone was busy, and they often did not stay in the palace. At that time, I went to the place where I met Yu zhu for the first time. I felt that he might know what was wrong with me, when suddenly... The world around me tells me that I am a devil? My mother is princess, and my father is from one of the rich families in the capital. My mother gave birth to Hao Ran from the king of Orchid City. This led to his genes being corrupted and making him a demon, even though his father was just human, a 'crazy father and a guilty mother', but what was my fault? How is it possible for me to become a demon? From level 4! How can I live 19 years without anyone noticing this? This palace consists of the greatest magic users, and a few demons find out about me? This seemed so incredibly ridiculous, I couldn't believe it. I had reached the back garden, located behind the hall, but a little further, as I expected, he opened his doors, as if he heard the beating of my heart at his door. I had always been suspicious of him, but he was a secret treasure, allowing me a little time to be another woman. What could be better than talking to the lord of death? Others fear him, and he is not a compassionate man.
I looked at the open door in front of me, then entered with my right foot, looking around, then entered with my other foot, then the door closed behind me on its own, so it became dark in front of me, unable to see, and I do not know the reason for this, but it is one of the thrills of being in the clutches of a wolf.
After walking a little forward, the light is clear, a crystal curtain is blocking my way, I move it with my hand out of the way and move on, a bluen-orange sky, I am inside a ground balcony, open to the outside, the ground is full of snow, he is sitting there at a wooden table, with circular chairs, I look around. I was surprised, then I went towards him and sat next to him, "What is this???"
He didn't even bother to look at me, I sighed in annoyance, "Is it possible that you were the one messing around in my dreams? This is similar to the places I've been to."
He looked out of the corner of his eye, "It wasn't me. You were with them for decades. You lived through every decade, every devastation, and every joy. But you naturally won't remember your previous lives, so in every life you only meet some of them. So when you touch their hearts, that memory is ignited again, and your souls are gone For a world in which you are accustomed to having company together, there is a desolate world and a world full of glory."
I rubbed the back of my neck, "Why is everything around you so complicated??? Oh my God."
He put the cup down carefully, but it definitely wasn't like that. "Didn't you come because you're curious?"
My face turned serious, "You told me about a world in which I knew you. However, you seem to know much more about me. So since you know so much, you must know why I am like this."
He sighed and looked out of the balcony, toward the sun, "But it's not a nice story. Are you sure? An hour from now, you'll be the same person you walked in through that door?"
I smiled out of the corner of my mouth, "Is there any difference at all? How great can I be that I wouldn't mind not being myself?"
He looked at me with his usual look, not with pity, but as if he was trying to read me, as if he knew that I was a loss. He knew what had happened and what would happen, but I had nothing but an empty future. Every touch led to a world that could disappear with a word, a movement, or a whisper. He finally said, "Maybe there is a memory that never happened, but when I say it happened, your mind will lead you to convince you that it is true, day after day, your soul will no longer be pure."
I looked at the pink flowers on the table, he looked at me for a while, then he closed his eyes, he told me a story. I will not deny that what I felt after that was a feeling of injustice and sorrow.
"Centuries past, the Magic Kingdom experienced a tragic fate led by a ruthless, self-absorbed, violent demon clan ruler, who only thought of himself and his desires. The hatred, envy, and malice consumed him, and hurt him seeing how great he was, yet languishing in the dark city of demons.. Resented by the people Saying That The demons were ''deemed autocratic and retarded,'' the demon clans planned a heinous scheme for years. Successfully seizing the royal capital, they left ruin and corruption in their wake. The 6 clans united to rid the realm of the cruel, self-absorbed ruler.
A dark tale unfolds in The Magic Kingdom, as the wicked demon clan leader led a siege against the realm. Thousands perished, and cities and clans were even destroyed. The demon lord was so greedy for power, he demanded to be king of the country, but rightfully, his request was rejected. Angered at the rejection, the demon cursed the land with death and suffering. He said, "Okay then, I will cast curses upon you so that you may live. And die while you are in pain." In order to maintain national unity, the truth was kept hidden from the people. Kingdom tried to rebuild the broken country. Some royals and The 6 powerful clan members knew the secret. That demon name remained a forbidden name.
From that moment, the first curse was placed upon the land, "For those who seek redemption, Salvation, death and freedom. for those who await the reunion with the ones they love in distant lands, for those who yearn for a brighter future and to witness the coming days, time will flow around you. Your months will appear like years, and you will wait for the flow of time, yet it will pass you by, and you will be left behind.
People have long become aware that their months do not end, and this occurrence is considered a tragedy, People's age continues at the same rate, and yet they continue to live longer than their peers. As for other curses, they may have happened, or they may not have happened yet. Maybe All That happened, Was nothing compared to what will happen.''
''I wonder about the unlucky ones who will go through this pain. "
I looked past me outside the balcony, smiling, I know very well about those who are not lucky at all, who will have to suffer.
He continued, "A generation of your ruling generations will be devils, their end will be as tragic as mine, and no matter how much and whenever they try to save their hearts and the hearts of their loved ones, they will be destroyed more, and they will be destined to cry blood, and walk through the blood of their loved ones over and over again. To pass through wind, fire, water, blood, and iron, and in the end the locked doors will drive them mad. They will stab themselves and the hearts of others, and they will die smiling while shedding tears. And Everyone else will live happily, but No one will ever remember their lonely, suffering shadows. They will have to sacrifice a lot and gain nothing, and love others and have their hearts broken.''
The smile disappeared from my eyes, and the flower I was playing with fell on the table. Because of how delicate it was, the air caught it and flew away. I looked at it traveling in the sky, towards the distant stars, then I looked at him, "Why? At first, it was clear how hateful and despicable he was. But for someone to wish that kind of harm on someone they don't know..."
"I told you...you will no longer be pure, but you were wrong about something."
I looked at him in confusion. He continued, "I don't know what will happen, but at least you, even if your vision is dull, know what might happen. From a touch."
"I may touch someone's hand and see me living forever with him, but after a long time apart, I touch his hand, and he stabs me. It is a useless future that gives me hope. You do not know how many times that hand has let me down."
He put his hands on my hands. I was surprised by this, so I looked into his eyes. His eyes were shining. He smiled... he smiled... "What do you see now?"
"Nothing...nothing..." I looked away
I could almost hear his laughter as he moved his hands away, "This is not from my heart. What about your heart?"
I looked at him again, "What do you mean?"
"Every touch, every whisper, and every heartbeat can change a person's destiny. I am confident that my heart from the first day I met you until this day has never changed. So what about you? So that your heart beats differently today? So that I no longer be in your life?"
It was the first time ever, I looked into his eyes, and they seemed so alive, so present, so full of feeling and so sincere, while my face is blank, and my heart is empty, pulsing with surprises, misfortunes, emptiness and overflowing feelings, and he makes me, oh my God, he makes me a volcano, he makes me High wave.
The sky was almost black, the lights of this place almost deceived me that it was morning, and this gentle breeze almost deceived me that it was spring and not winter, and even this heart, I do not really believe it, was beating as if we were in summer.
"I must return. I will face real demons. Unfortunately, I cannot shout that there are many alternatives. I know that I will be sold. No. I was sold that night when I was born. That night was really cold, and I think the cold crept into my heart."
His features were not as rigid as they had been, so I felt that I had finally become close. I walked towards the corridor from which I came. He smiled and took a cup to drink from. When I reached the curtain, I stopped and said, "You know... I don't remember my first life, but I remember your warm tears on My face, and your warm embrace while the weather was cold, I was looking away that day, but your crying over me made me think... if someone had cried over me before."
I smiled, and walked towards the door, while he was there, with a shocked expression, left alone with the winds dragging the ice.
The moment I grabbed the handle and opened it, I was sitting at my desk, opened the wardrobe, took out "The Shadows in My Heart", and wrote.
'' I knew, from the first look
When it was raining hard outside
Didn't know if this was my tears or the Sky's
Just like the last time
When the last look, i didn't know if it was me who was crying, or you.
Our tears became one
And for the first time
I felt your heart
And it hunted me, That I Hurt it
and I thought. I thought pure love was enough,
but I wondered, if I was worth your tears,
I did not understand the meaning of death. But to death himself, to embrace me and cry over me, despite me breaking his heart.
I think this is because he has a wide and tender heart. He did not run away in the rain, but rather hugged me and comforted me in my end.''